** FRuITfUl dAYs**

I am been spending fruitful days for the past few week, mainly working at Big Boyz Toyz, training for my dance, having my dance examiniation, dance performances and not forgetting about celebrating my birthday!! hee!! Really busy but really well-spent!


I was working at the Big Boyz Toyz exhibition can Expo, pay is rather good, $10 dollar per hour. The experience is really fresh as I have to dress up as an angle, gee *stop luffing you!!* while my friends has to dress up as cowgirl, devil, cheerleader and nurse respectively, mainly characters that guy fantasy about. Expo is damn cold and so many of us fall sick, now getting better le hopefully. Anyway, if you dress up like this and walk aroung the IT exhibition to give out flyer, so many phtotgrapher will come and ask to take photos of you, it is so weird!! I even has people giving me cards of modelling agency and ask me to be model, but HELLO, I am like 160cm only?? hee... Some photos:

The gers without me~!

mE and sham

Dance has been super busy. I have been training like mad in preparation for my CHinese Dance grade examination, which took place at 24th November. A big burden seem to be off my shoulder once I had finish it, now what left is the result le. But news don't seem so well, apperently, my instructor has already got our grade and she mentioned that the examiner has super high expectation on my grade as it is the last grade of the CHinese Dance grades. Oh well, think I will not hold too high a hope to obtain good grade! =P On the other hand, school dance is fun, we just had a performance in school in view of hosting the Japanese students that came our school and that are all so cute. The guys and gers are simly so warm heatening, they are so not shy and kept asking the dance people to take photos with them, so kawaii!!!! Now the next upcoming performance will be the open house performance and it is also going to be the third years last performer in school yet.. so hmm, suddenly feel so sad!

SOme photo of us and the Jap students!!

My birthday was spent working in the morning and the afternoon, but I really want to thanks everyone that greeted me and make an effor to remember my borthday. I am so touched. AT night dear TRY to organise a surprise cake cutting but he did not realised his acting damn poor sia!! haha~! but I do appreciate his effort thanks alot!

Next up will be thank you list:

1. Darling for being so sweet and organise the suprise cake cutting ceremony! *muacks*
2. My family members who are alway so dear to me!! ( jie for the bag and ray for the Fox T-shirt!
3. Catherine dear for calling me all the way from Thailand to wish me happy birthday!
4. Wenyan and ANgie for coming down for the celebration so late and the PooH!!
5. Celine and DIana for the sweet pink top and celebrating with me.
6. Vincent, Andrew, Angelina, Nana, SImon, Wilson, Junyi for coming down and celebrating with me.
7. Weixun kor for the sms greeting!
8. Lynal for the waffle as cake?!? *gee*
9. Sham, Vanessa for working with me and ur greetings.
10. Markus for the msn greeting.
11. Wei Hong for the late greeting. =P
12. All that wish me and I really cannot remember le... really thanks a lot friends, you all made my day special!! *muacks*
    
    

..::WondErFUl 2nd AnniVersaRy::..

First of all.. Happy 2nd anniversary my love!! yep.. two years had flown and I am still happily attached to my boyfriend !!! hehe... and he gave me a total sweetness, total surprise celebration. He booked a room at The Gallery Hotel. Well, it is said to be awarded the Hippest hotel in Singapore. The design of the exterior and the interior of the hotel is really nice but the only thing is that the toilet and the size of the hotel room is rater small.

hMm.. okay.. at first dear told me that we are going to a poolside resturant to eat our lunch and it is at the 5 floor, while we are walking to the pool, we brought me to the room. This is not the most surprising part, the most surprising part is that he went there much earlier and uses rose petals and design a heart shape on the bed.. it is really so sweet, realled melted... hee!! After that we exchanged our gift,

his gift to me: a plant tree, it is something grown sithin the capsule, named victo representing luck and victory. The cute part to it is that it actually grow, we will just need to water it once every three days. Darling bought two and each of us has one each and we hung them on our handphones.. so nice... i simply will stare blankly at it haha!~ The other gift my hunny gave me, a handmade closet that store the whole set of the winnie the pooh family, it is simply so adorable, imagine a guy make it himself, the effort of him to even think of the idea is simply endearing... dear asked me to write how I felt about the surprise he prepared for me at the back of the closet, but my house has no nice marker to write, so I gotta buy one soom.

My gift to him: a box which comprises of a tin of sweet, a total of 484 handfolded swans (we counted it together.. hee) , and a sweet cross stitch for him. SInce it is our anniversary, I am think of doing something together ahh, and thus I did not fram the cross stitch and instead we are going to have it framed together and put it in his roomy!! Really glad that dear dear like what I made for me, being financially bounded, this is the best I can do le!! hee..

we went to makan the Bu KU TaU at mohammad sultan road, the one famous for all the clubbers.. haha~! it is really yummy, full le, we bought some snacks and two bottle of Barcardi Peach and went back to the hotel room and slack le. I had so much fun bathing too, I got my bubble bath, to add spice to it, I added the rose petal *winks* smells wonderful~!!! haha!! Really had a loving and wondeful day with lovey that day!! The morning next day, I finally ate my longed craved breakfast buffet after some hiccups, but overall, I will think the hotel is pretty goodie... and best of all, I spent an unmemorable anniversary with my love one....

pixs we took:

mE anD darlIng

Rose petals on the bed

cuTey Victo =p

poOhy pressie

wIth DoOr opEn... ...

rosy petals in bath tub!!!

roOm.. ...

Overall, I will really love to thanks my darling for being with me for the past two years, enduring all my nosense and temper. Noone understand much better than he does and he alway has his own ways to make me laugh and be happy when I am feeling down and sad. Really glad to find a boyfriend like him, can settled down le.. haha =p... hope my darling really like the gifts I made for him. We will be together with more anniversaries to come and I will stick to him forever!!!! *muacks*

+[[models are ugly!!!]]+

My sister is one of the organisers for the annual elite models competition. Watching the tv show like American Next Top Model and other shows, I alway had the impression that models are women that have wonderful body and angelica face, BUT!! But after looking at the photos of the finalists of the Elite Top Models, I really think that the standard of the women are really.... hmm, only one or two are pretty. Come to think of it, the models are normally extreme thin till they look like slogging their back, so ugly,with some super drmatic make-up, is it due to their ugly faces? bleahs, ok.. I have nothing against model and I do admit I had saw some really pretty models, but the standards I see now... hmm!! Go and take a look my friends: http://www.elitemodellooksingapore.com/blog_main.htm

Think you can look at their blogs too, some pretty funny with nice photos too.. Go take a look~!!

Preview of some of the finalist:

Tan Yuxiu

Renee

Shi Yun

Sarah

Samantha

XiaoYun

Jessica

Amber

Brenda

Amanda

Kayleigh

Watching the Cancer charity show now while typing this entry, come to think of it the nkf issue had been over for a long time, but i think that the memory of what happen still linger on people minds, cause looking at the figures jumping on the television now, it is like so slow. Hopefully the show can be success bah, can really see that the celebrities put in a lot of effort into this show.

By the way,

ANYONE STAYING OR KNOW PEOPLE STAYING AT PASIR RIS DRIVE 3 TO 10 BLOCK 633 TO 737 OR BEDOK RESERVOIR BLOCK 726 TO 738 ??? please contact me... my dad is doing this job on conducting sort of a survey and need to find people staying at these places. Please help me k!! *winkz*

..:: dUsty PosT ::..

Think I am being cursed and swared by a lot of people of being lazy to update my blog... gee... how everyone know what a lazy blogger I am... =P Furthermore, I am addicted to a Korean show, DA CHANG JIN... so damn nice and touching.. *sob soB* but anyway, I think i will update my blog before someone hold a chopper and run after moi!! *hOhoHo*

First thing first, Think i really very long never update my blog le, why the page for the create post become so weird. The option portion is so blardy long and weird... is it the blogger is down or is it only myself is weird? hMm...

Anyway I have handed in my FYP first draft le...one big burden off my shoulder, that why I have so much time to watch my vcd.. hOhoHo.. Hopefully Doreen can faster correct and hand it back to us... though I dun have much faith in her though!! Even thought my FYP is more or less done, the next thing to do will be PP, but somehow i just cannot find the motivation to start doing it.. haiz... plus my tutee PSLE and final year examination are all coming up.. so worried for them... *pRAY haRd*

When to do protein treatment for hair again with Clarissa, Wenyan and Sham... I kana the weird weird stylist but he seem quite nice even though he like dunno what to talk man.. *lOlx* But the funny thing is that the stylist manager, D*****, sms me and ask me out for a movie... I was like "what the" ... haha!! Now I really must have the second thought when I am going down there again.... I must go down with one BIG group... wahahah!!

School going to reopen next week le, but the strange thing is that the result for the last semester till now is still not out yet.. I really hope that I can get at least 2As for the result. Proteomics understanding test 4 result is out le... and I get a ... *drumroll* A .. yippy... now I can forfeit the first C i gotten for the UT 1... Phew... now really hope to get into a good class for next semester, din really enjoy some of the classes I attended last semester, torturing to even think back.. but anyhow... good luck to myself bah!! *cross finger*

Anyway, befor I end this post I wanna dedicate somthing to ANgie:

Ger... I know that you wanna people to encourage you so that you have the strength to hold on to your decision to hope that Shuan will turn around one day. But seriously, like I told you, it is really very heartache to see my dear friend to be so sad and heart broken... I really hope that you can be happy and lead your way. This might not be what you wanna to hear but seriously my dear... listen to your heart k...but whatever you choose, I will support you. But the main thing, is dun regret your choice and follow ur heart. Without a man.. there are still a lot of sistas outta standing by your side de!! *jia You*

Not going to update soon until I finish my fyp report... I am really stressed now, meeting with lots of datelines and plus ipbms!! *bless me with the strength to conquer all these*

ANyway I have a wonderful day with my boyfriend today, sweet sweet him!! =D

Okay.. check back here in three weeks time bahz!! *bleah*

+ uPdatEs... upDaTEs..UpdAtes...+

Hi peeps... long time no see le.. I have been pretty lazy in updating my blog, mainly because of the busy and hectic life I am living in now. Everyday to go school, after that gotta do my fyp lab session, when I reached home after the long day, the moment I lied on my bed, my eyes seem to close automatically. Nothing wow happened between these long peroid, all that happen are school, fyp, dance, study understanding test, sleep, eat, and do nothing....

Anyway, I realised that time really flies really fast, another 5 months or so, I might be not in Singapore and at Australia to pursue my degree. The plan of internation program of biomedical science seem to have offered to me like a year so ago and now, all the planning at takeing place now. Asked my dad about the bank loan, knowing about the financial problem that my parents are undergoing now, I really do kind of thinking twice before really deciding to go ahead with the plan. However, daddy say by sept he would know if there is a need for bank loan, seeing if his business deal work out or now.. *prAY haRd*

School has been pretty tiring, the problems are getting more and more labour intensive.... and more thinking involved. Nothing much to say in school, but thanks to a bunch of great friends, school is not that irking afterall:

Angie: my forever gossiping and talking buddy... been teaching me to pon school!! *tsk tsk tsk*

Clarissa: being in the class mean more talking, been fun talking to her.. loVe yOu ger...

my FYP mates( beside clarissa, there is wenyan, wanyan and sham):

Gers.. you guys made my days... times when we fall down in the planning and execution of our fyp.. we are alway together and work together.. I will nv forget you guys...

And to all the friends in my different classes, been great learning with you people, get to know some new people this sem too, such as jialong and kelly.. they are fun... The semester is ending already le, in a flash of light, my three years of poly life is coming to an end.. i will really really miss these day!!! *mUacKsSSss*

why is it that all boyfriends will expect their girlfriend to go their house and pei them? I dun understand why is it that Eugene cannot even think of a simple thing like angie boyfriend... to see dogs?? or even plan a day for picnic? All he think is to go his house? oh Man.. I understand that he has no much money, me too! if ever he will understand how I feel... i feel like i am alway the guilty one and alway the one not putting in effort. Is it my wrong that I have dance, have UT, i am not feeling well, I have to do FYP that I cannot accompany him? I thought we have already thought about it during our second year that I am gonna be super busy if I am going to take up the ipbms, plus all the PP and FYP we have to do in order to gradate.. he say he understand ! I mean come on.. so this is the way he understand and will support me? i cannot only say one thing! BULLSHIT~!!! arghz!!!!

+[[stressful SchOoling]]+

Weekend has just passed in a wink of eye. Another round of week with early wake up and stressful classes. Bioinformatic test tomorrow, I had already studied le, hopefully it really did paid off worh!! Somehow I feel that the test is going to be very difficult. The past understanding tests grades are mostly out le .. and seriously, they are not up to my expectation a bit ... Told my boyfriend that somehow I felt too stressed and I cannot study well under such conditions. I feel so useless and stupid all of a sudden. Luckily he is alway there for me, comforting me and telling me to work harder and not to give up. I guess what he said is right too, everyone has their up and down in their life. I hope that my understanding tests grades can be better in round 2!! I am gonna work hard for it~~

Another 13 days, and it is the day for the prestation for my final year project. What is the worse thing, I feel so unprepared.. is everyone feeling this way too?? We have not even gone through a round of trial presentation at all.There are so many back ground knowledges that I haven read up on and reading up on the literature at all too. Gonna be a busy week ahead for the preparation for the final year project le.. But one thing good is that after the preaentation, thing will not be so tense le.. I just gonna prepare to do my PPM and also my final lab report. I am changing my PPM subject though. Hopefully I can still change the submitted proposal. =p

I am giving up one of my tutee le, somehow I felt that teaching too many students does affect my result and my preparation for my final year project. I cannot afford to risk any possible failures for this year, thus I gave up le. Instead, I will be teaching dancing at my primary school bahz.. I will not be getting much money, however, I will be doing something I enjoyed and I will be gaining experience if I wanna be a dance instructor next time.. Mum is pretty vexed over the financial problem that the family is facing now and that hopefully dad can clinched the deal so mum will not be so stressed! *praY haRD*

I pray hard that everything will go smoothly for me.. seriously not hoping for more, good grades for myself.. family can settle down ... me and darling can still be as sweet as now... hopefully I will be able to get a scholarship.. if possible, to get in a local university, if not Monash... but really feel bad that dad and mum is spending so much on me! I really must prove myself and not let them down!!

+sOme uPdates+

Haven been blogging, and wenyan is complaining! My dear princess, I am updating now~!! wahah~! okok, basically holiday has ended, and what have I been doing in the holiday? one word: studying.. so pathetic loh, luckily I have a fun class and we were crazy during lesson, although we gotta study, we had fun too eh!!

okay... some back updating for my weekend!

Saturday:

woke up early cos I had a performance early in the morning 11am, and there is a rehersal early in the morning 8am.. hmm, luckily daddy fetched me over, back in my primary school performing, kinda of bring back a lot of sweet memories, from the childhood spent there to all the bad times, quarreling with my classmates and such. To think back now, we were all so childish, but I think everyone has their share on this yea!

The performance went on well, although very rushed, but can see that it is still a sucess and I finally did not make a mistakes in my jump routine!! wahaha~! Maybe stress does help my instructor was near to curse me in the rehersal le! bleah =p Saw my junior dancing, they were just so cute, can you imagine? they are wearing the costume I wore when I was in primary 4 taking part in SYF.. really nothing to say, but tears really did welled up in my eyes thinking back, how much I miss those times, where i was so carefree and study was a breeze.. hmm..

After performance, I was so damn tired, darling came over my house and pei me... dad and mum and my younger sis went over to KL with my uncle till so sunday, so that left me and jie at home only. Slack the whole day with baby, cuddling and resting the whole day. Thanks love, I really had a great day ! with you, every moment is precious!

Sunday:

Woke up early with jie saying she is going out le, the whole house left me only.. suddenly I feel that I miss the normally hated nagging from my mum, the normally detested irritating younger sister and the normally bullying daddy come and ka jiao me... The whole hopuse just feel so weird without them. I started to realised how much I need my mum and dad... feeling so lonely, but what to do, so I decided to play some game after studying for my Proteomics UT.. the stupid game made me restarted the whole game for full 3 times, just becos I forget to save or I died... slacked the whole day at home myself, ate my dinner and my family is FINALLy back...

While I was bathing just now, I heard the nagging from my mum and I can't help smiling to myself. I love this family, although other people find it nothing special, they are so dearing to me... If some one is to exchange them with the whole fotune the world have, I still want them! School gonna start tomolo again, hectic lifestyle gonna go on and on for the next few months, haha! be back on blogging again worh! For now, I am tired le, going to rest soon and call my baby to tok to him, I miss him again.. geez (=P)

++wOnderfUl suNday++

Had a lazing but wonderful Sunday today. It is really a blessing to just have your sweetheart to be just by your side and laze around the day with you! gee~! Darling come over my house as I cannot go over his due to my grandfather pass away, hmm.. anyway save the explanation. But this piggy took so long to come till I fall asleep waiting for him!! wahah~! Anyway.. the main purpose to come down is to prepare the sambal sotong for the BBQ tomorrow. It is the NIG camp tomorrow and baby seem so nervous about it.. silly him, I am sure everything is going to be just great!

After darling reached my house, we went over cold storage to buy the ingredients, hmm, although it is a simple trip but we had lot of fun buying thing together, it kinda of remind me of the old times when both of us are more free and we alway prepare dishes together.. it is real fun!! haha~! In the end, we realised that we bought too little sotong, so everyone gotta snatch tomolo loh!! *cover mouth and laugh loud loud* looking forward to the BBQ session tomolo worh!! wahaha~!

After that we just slack in my room, while busy darling get busy with his camp admin things. Was rather sad that he is so busy and cannot pei me, but sweet sweet him put down his things and came over and accompany me.. cuddling with him make me feel so wonderful and loved!! hmm~! so xin fu.... Had KFC as our dinner and a simple conversation was going on. Everything today seem so simple and plain, yet this has a sugar coating all around it, so sweet and wonderful! A simple SUnday yet so many emotions pack in it!! Lazy darling is only packing his bag now when his camp is tomorrow!! why am I not surprise?? wahaha! hopefully he will miss anything! and i look forward for more sweet weekends spent with him!! I really really love him!! Tomorrow has lesson again!! haiz... but a day with my baby made me feel motivated again!! HerE I come!!! (",)

++ sOme updateS!!++

Holiday come le... but lesson is as per usual for me... Dunno what to type here also.. no mood to write.. All I can say is stress is overwhelming me ahhz~! Hopefully that I can pass by this period smoothly, hmm.. may the god bless me..

The lab work for FYP is finally coming to an end.. hmm.. *relieve* but more to come, we still have a presentation to work on and a personal report for myself to work on.. but somehow I think the relationship with my team mates can be better.. there is no reason that if you do a lot of work you have to show an attitude to other people.. although we all understand the hard work you had put in and that you know a lot of stuffs, it is no choice that I cannot come ah.. would like like people to treat you like an outcast just becos you did most of the work? what is a team for? I wonder you u all understand~! haiz...

Got dance soon le.. will update again if I have the time... really little update recently.. but overall I am getting on well and I am rather happy with my relationship, my studies, my dance and my family.. Hopefully daddy can get the business deal so mum will not be so xin ku!! Hopefully god will bless the whole family ah!! On the last note~, I miss my grandpa.. I hope that he is getting on well on the other side of the world! Ciaoz..! and I love my boYfriEnd!! *muacks*

=[[ May tHe foRce be With yOu]]=

Starwar craze now, nv watched science fiction shows before, but dar dar intro to me and damn! now i am addicted to it already, watching episode 1,2,3,4,5,6.. all crash tutorials from my boyfriend, but it is really nice, people! you all should go and watch!! *anakin is so cute when he was young!*

I realised that love can be hurting too, talked to my boyfriend at esplandna yesterdea, and I dunno y i suddenly cry. but the thing is that, although it maybe hurting, what matter is after that, we are still as sweet and loving. my silly boyfriend decided to come my house and pei me.. I really can see the effort he is trying to make to come my house and pei ever since I complained to him last time. so sweet horhz.. geez* i still love him! *muacks*

wiLL update more when I have the mood worh!! at the mean time, may the force be with all of you! *lightsaber show up* i am rdy to fight and fight on on my studies!! oh my, I dunno what I am talking about~ ciaOz...

=[[ swEet swEet whIspers]]+

out of respect to my boyfriend, I decided to keep the past post private... Thanks for all the kind words from angie and clar.. =) you guys make my day.. But thing has clear up between boyfriend and me, we are still as loving as ever.. something he say that make me so touched:

Boyfriend:

dear...do u noe how much i love u mah?

Boyfriend:

my love for u exceed any of my ex-gfs..n more than any other person i ever loved

What he say make me ponder for a moment, and I realised how much i actually depend on him. ANd how much sunshine he has brought into my life when I was at my most depressed peroid of time. How he encourage and love me like a princess, how he make me believe in love again.. how he shower me with love and alway give in to me, how we enjoy doing things together, how we talk, laugh, joke, play and do everything together.. it kind of rekindle and remind me why and how much i love him and need him~! SorRY babY~~ i love you!!

Tomolo is the genomic test le, I screwed up my proteomics test le, hopfully genomics will nto be that bad!! *cross my fingers and hope for the best* I hope wenyen and clarissa will be crazy together again~ there is no overnight hatred in close friends my sisters~~ open ur hearts and allow other people to go in k! i love you two too!! *muacks*

+[[aLl i caN saY is I aM tiRed!]]+


FinaLLy the week is ending and all the frenzy seem to be going to end.. this whole week is a disaster.. one CCA launch and all my dance mates and I are tired to the max.. Have been staying in school for MOnday and tuesday to clean up our steps, as late as up to 10pm in school... luckily it all pay off, our steps are much better and that the performance yesterdea was nice except for the hiccups from the technical side, i somehow dun understand why the school can't plan a proper stage performance, making everything so confused and disorganised. we were all prepared on time, being 12pm, and have to wait for a full 30 to 45 minutes for a stupid mike!!
-_-'' oH well, anyway, well done for my dance members, will try to stream in the video we took into my blog and let everyone see k!!


CCA launch might be coming to an end, but my FYP is gonna be busy again.. Haiz, all that we have done that time seem to be giving us a very good results and doreen is complaining that we are not being initiative enough. oh wEll, think we gotta meet out one day and discuss all the detail my team members, hopefully we can come up with a good one, going to start the experiments frenzy once again, all the cell culture all the nicotine treatment! geez... might be tored but kinda of looking forward to it as we team members are fun.. and miss them tonnes, now being all of us in the different class! I miss wenyan crazy talk and gossipign with her, I miss sham crazy tokking and screaming.. i miss clarissa ger talk.. i miss wanyan hugging with me.. i miss all of them!!


School is busy as usual, third year is really tough .. oh man, all the modules getting tougher and tougher, more and more competitive... a whole day down the road after finishing lesson, I am really dead tired, but gotta push myself for my tuition lessons or for dance and stuffs. my tutee are all having their mid year exam soon, i hope they can score well.. Mei mei is okay, a hardworking ger, love her to bites.. shuan is good too, better now than last time.. my another tutee, shall not go into detail but all i can hope is that he can pass his exam =X


I am gonna have another performance for my dance outside at suntec for Vesak day... hmm, all the cheorograph gotta finish in 4 lessons, can i do it? i hope so!! *wee* in June there will be another performance for my chinese dance, preparation have already started since months ago. School is going to have a performance at substation during june too.. oh man!! all the performance coming up le~~ hmm...


Sorry that i have not been updating moi blog recently , cos I am really really very busy and by the time i reached home, I dun even feel like on-ing my lap top and just feel like sleeping... Will try to update more often ok my friends? meanwhile, take care and enjoy urself i miss all of you!!!

+[[SuPer sHag]]+

Haven been blogging even since school start, all I can say is super shag. I have been having lesson for every day from mon to friday. No free days, no holiday.... recently, I just feel so tired whenever I reach home and I seem to be able to sleep in anywhere i go to. Nothing much to blog now cos I am super tired again and tomolo have lesson again. haiz... am I right in choosing ipBMS?? will I be able to take it for the whole year?? i will break down?? and man.. i love my darling and miss him so much!!! will blog again when I more awake bahz!! bye peeps!

+[[heCTic HolidaY]]+

lOoking at all the year one in the school today, it is like an indication that holiday is coming to an end.. but i am questioning.. did holiday even started in the first place... been busy with my final year project the whole holiday and yet it is still in a mess now.. hai!! nuthing to say.. somemore have to rush out lab report and stuffs in two weeks time.. god blesS me.. have really been really stress recently.. but at least I still have my boyfriend with me.. supporting me and encouraging me.. thanks huNny!!

scHool is going to start next week le, it is also the commencing of hectic year 3 in a week time, no holiday, rush for report and my PP and also advanced diploma... sometime really wonder if I really can do all these time, and wonder if it is the correct choice of me to choose the option, not only I have to suffer to work harder, but I also dragged my parents down too, the advanced diploma is not cheap.. recently family is also having soem finacial problem, although dad ask me not to worry, but how not to?? =( *worRy*

No mInd to think so much le... just lighted my scent... lavendar scent floating in my room now, with my air con on,radio on, with curtain drawn... really have to relax myself before the battle start.. sinking into the atmosphere in my room and feel much better le! I miss year 1.. i miss the leisure time and happy moments! blesS me WiTh the stRength to go through what will be coming toward me~~!!

+[[sOmthIng for The gUys!!]]+

if a girl cries in front of u,

it means that she couldnt take it anymore.

If u take her hand,

she would stay with u for the rest of ur life;

If u let her go, she couldnt go back to

being herself anymore.

A gal wont cry easily,

except in front of the person whom she

loves the most, she becomes weak.

A gal wont cry easily,

only when she love u the most,

she put down her ego.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,

please hold her hands firmly

,coz she's the one who is willing to stay

with u 4 for the rest of ur life.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,

please dont give her up,

maybe bcoz of ur decision,u ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of u,

When she cry bcoz of u,Look into her eyes,

Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.

Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,

In front of u,And bcoz of u?

She cries not because she is weak,

She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,

She cries,Because crying silently is no longer possible,

the pain, hurt n agony have bcome too

big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,Think about it,

If a gal cry her heart out to u,And all because of u,

Its time to look back on wat u have done,

Only u will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,

Coz one day,

It may b too late for regrets,

It may b too late to say "im sorry".

i HaviNg an eye infection now.. oh man... I scared sia.. pain pain de!! mUm say if not okia in a few days time I have to go see doctor le... now a little bit swollen le.. i So poor thing.. haiz.. *sOb soB* lAb is really a dirty place man.. now I also scared le.. must be like Wenyan like that ehenever change glove and go out of lab confirm must wash hand with HIbiscrub le... hmm... or is it moi contact lenses?? aiya.. i dun care le.. me going to slp le..!!

+[[ sInfUl]]+

first of all.. i wanna say sorry to wenyan... ger, dun take it to heart lah ok?? I really just kidding de, I nv thought any one of you all to be stupid..hmm, think i really went a bit too far far saying you are stupid, my dear, there is a reason why I am doing fyp with you beside me able to talk to you and communciate well with you.. that bcos you are hardworking and clever ahh.. all becos of that stupid clarissa lah.. add oil to fire... keep mentioning about!! *stRanGle claRisSa* but i still love all of you.. dun angry le worh.. give you 3 smooches!! *sMoOch SmoOcH smoOch*

anyway we wasted our two effort in preparing the glass slide le, hai, all becos of the microscope spoiled.. haiz.. stored our cells in PBS( phosphate buffer solution) hopefully they will still show result well tomorrow and we will not ahve to drag too long also de!!! *praY hard* I thInk i better be like what wenyan said, be more benevolence to the other people, I shall not curse and swear and create sins le... have to take note of my temper le worhz.. btw people, if I ever throw temper on you guys for the past few weeks, it is becos of PMS.. hmm.. it is ok to provoke me le now!! heez!!!

..:: hMm ::..

I change my blog skin again le, hee nice?? I find it very cute... heez..

Went to school today for lab again and heard some gossips.. abt a ger and a guy relationship le... hmm, what the story is about is too long le, i not going to type here, but people who know will know it bahz.. what I am thinking is that does a person prefer to go into a relationship more for money or for the emotion? for Me, I will go for the latter, but I do know a lot of gers going for rich guys, but do they feel happy de mahz?? hmm.. I wonder... if really wanna buy something, then is'nt it better ti earn it urself and spend?? hmm.. oh well,

Went to buy a T-shirt for my boyfriend yesterdea, but in the end, his reaction: nag at me. haiz... he said that he xin tong i spend forty dollars on a t shirt for him, when I need the money for my bills and other uses. hmm.. In my opinion, I am thinking that it is not wrong to buy something for my bf ahhz.. but I know he said all those cos he dote on me.. hee.. in the end he bought me a T-shirt from giodarno also to make me happy and treat me donner at BaoS and BoaS.. really nice worhz, got chinni crab sauce somemore.. hee... so tired now, I am going to go and sleep le, dear is hard at work on his work now, so all I wanna say to him now is dear JIa You worhz..!!

btw, I am thinking I will start another blog that I will post my photos using the hello from blogspot! like that easier to post photos bahz... no need photobucket and can let my jie use that.. hehee! NitEs pEeP!!

trying to act jap.. wahah.. andrew say like actress pose.. hmm! =p 

(,") neW skIn (",)

yIp, I finalLy chanGe my blOg skin and I can proudly say this myself that I did it all by myself worhz. well, ok.. maybe a little tip from my boyfriend here and there, I did 90% lehz... actually wanna surprise my boyfriend that I did the skin all my myself.. then wonder why the words dun appear at first. Bo Bian~~ have to ask him -_-'''. aNyway, I wanna say sorry to him as I was a bit frustrtaed witht he coding just now when it dun workz.. I still find this blog a bit "colourless" and boring, am thinking of adding songs, pixs .. will ask my boyfriend to teach me.. at the same time.. i wanna ask CARIE to teach em to change the colour... have to ask for the web site.. hehee!!

okay.. me gtg le, having my dance training soon, now that the framework is up, I can go bath and prepare le, will update more tonight!! Love ya peEps!! *muacks*

trying out 

+[[ 2 gOod News anD 1 Bad News]]+

okie.. let say about the good news first. I got back my module grade for this semester le, and guess what~ I improved again!! my grades as follows:

Anatomy and Physiology = B+

Microbiology = B+ ( I thought I can only get B for this.. so haPPy and surprised.. I love Nachama!)

Medical Technology = A

Immunology = A

And my GPA is.... *drum roll* 3.75.. hee~~ so happy... dear got the same GPA as me.. but damn it, his grade look nice, he got 3As and 1 B.. hmm... *siLly me* so proud of my man!! keep it up hunny~~ As for people that did not do that well, work harder for next semester!! I believe you guys can do it one!! I will help you guys to jia You...

okay.. as for the second good news... I got winnie the pooH today!! wahah~ ok.. i know this sound silly... got a beanie pooh from my boyfriend today, he so sweet de loh.. suddenly took out the pooh and rubbed against my face while we watching movie, spongbob squarepants. I still thought why his hands suddenly become so rough sia.. then i turned around And to my surprise it is a pooh!! wah~~ so happy de loh.. thanks love.. ReallY love it alot.. another thing~~ Wenyan is giving me a BIG winnie the pooh sticker to paste on my log book!! wah... lOve weNyan tO bits!! *muacks muacks muacks* you are the best!! haha!!=D

okay.. enough of good news, the bad new is that the lab report I tried to do the pervious days, was all in waste.. apperently, all the stuffs I did is of no use and whatever, the fac wanna us to report on, I dun have much research on it.. oH man.. how how how?? I gotta finish 10 over literatures review, with million of alien words in a words and type a report out.. arghz... how how how??? hahaz!! gotta be a good ger and stay at home tomolo and do intensive research le... bleSs me with The StreNgtH!!

btw.. I saW this tip somewhere, but I dunno how true it is, it says drinking honey drink every night before sleep can help in improving sleepness and even jian fei eh!! hmm.. dunno true a not.. hahaz!! you peeps try le then tell me bahz~~

+[[ haPpy liKe a FaiRy]]+

Got this from one of moi friend bloggie, I think it is really tru and inspirating, be it if you are in a relationship already or afraid to go into one, have a read and know what are something you should look out and know what you really know in your better half.. Really glad my dear is one of the best I ever have, if not the best!! Had a great day today with him and I pray for more!!

By the way, I just did a hair mask, face steam and a face mask just now, feel so relaxed now!! *woot* Wenyan, the aleo vera mask very shu fu u know, really very relaxing!! I am going to buy a few more and try out the tomato one.. you go try also ahh!!

"If Men Were Like Buses, How Do I Catch One?"

by Michelle McKinney Hammond.

If men were like buses, how do you catch one? A more important question is - how do you catch the RIGHT one? Simple: You take only the bus that's headed the RIGHT direction. First we must be truly conscious when we do the picking. And second, the decision for a mate must be made on a spiritual and intellectual basis before its made on an emotional one. What about love? you ask. I'll tell you why. The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? The heart is willful and is driven by its own agenda. It does not consider things rationally and intelligently - it just loves to love! Therefore you have to point it in the right directions. Whenever you meet a man, you need to get clearance, check out his attributes, and then allow your heart to engage.

Dating exists not for mating; it exists for collecting data. I believe that the better design would be friendship, courtship and then marriage. Friendship is two people walking together in agreement and accountability, learning and growing together. Courtship follows the mutual agreement to commit to one another exclusively - it is the decisive turning toward the agreed-upon goal of the marriage altar. It is a period of laying foundation and preparing your life together after marriage. But dating? Well, if you do date, use the time wisely to gather facts.So when you do gather facts, let us compare the process to clothes shopping.

1. Check out the fabric. Is the person mate material?

It is imperative to maintaining a committed relationship. You need to have common interest and values and agree on the essentials of living day to day. You have a similar spiritual walk. You eat the same diet. You enjoy a lot of similar things. You have like interests, like goals in life, like opinions on basic life issues. You have had like experiences in your background. Though there is some truth to the idiom that opposites attract, like-minded folks fare better together.Furthermore, does he want to get married? If you want to be married and your dreamboat isn't interested, don't waste your time. Remember, women fall in love and get married. Men decide to get married and then look for a wife. Note the difference in order. So if a guy says he's not looking for anything serious, take his words seriously. If he's not going your direction, get off the bus & wait for the right one.

2. Does this man want you? Is he pursuing you?

The man who is right for you will pursue you. No guessing, no fleeces, no dead ends. At the RIGHT TIME, you will be brought forth that man on the scene and he will find you. You do not need to strategically place yourself anywhere. You don't have to help a guy out because he's shy. Men will do whatever they have to do to get what they truly want. The man in your life should recognise you as the pearl of great price in his life and be willing to do whatever he must in order to gain your hand. If he is passive about gaining your affections, take it as a sign that he is not interested. Many a woman's mother has suggested that it is a good idea to marry a man who loves you more than you love him. Until then, take the ultimate chill pill. You don't need a bunch of men in your life to make you feel all right about yourself. You need only one man - your man, the right one, to select you. And trust me, the right man at the wrong time can be just as awful as the wrong man at any time. So relax, sit pretty and allow yourself to be found.

3. The man in your life should not desire to move into your house, only into your heart.

A man who prepares for your future has made his intentions clear. A man who is husband material has the means to take care of a wife. He is a responsible human being who understands he needs to have something to offer. In short, a man should have the means to be a suitable lover for you.

4. Check out his buddies.

Everyone knows birds of the same feather flock together, yet most women fail to see the connection between a man and his friends. A man's pals tell you a lot about the person that you haven't seen yet. They reveal things about the guy's character that might be hidden when he is on good behaviour. Everyone knows how to put his best foot forward. Don't stay focused on the foot, check out the rest of the body!

5. Check out his relationship with his mother. How does he treat her?

This is your preview of how he will treat you. There are lots of men who, because of a negative relationship with their mothers, really don't like women, yet say they do. Unresolved issues between mother and son continue between husband and wife.

6. Remember that a man's family reveals the cloth from which he's cut.

Take note and decide whether you want your future with the man in your life to look like his present family situation.

7. Check out the patterns of his life.

Do you see repeated cycles of drama in his personal kingdom? Broken relationships? Problems in making commitments? Including the job market? Mood swings? Is a problem always someone else's fault? Does he embrace responsibility or shirk it? Does he keep his promises? Is he a man of good reputation? Remember all garments look wonderful hanging in the store, but with wear, some begin to unravel. Give yourself time and space to check out the man in your life. Time will always reveal whether or not he is made of the right stuff.

8. Does this man have a vision for his life? Is he running with that vision? Is your guy guided by a sense of destiny and purpose, or does he just allow life to happen around him?

A man who is not certain of his mission can be a most miserable person - and you'll be miserable too if you know where YOU want to go in life. A man who has vision is not intimidated by a woman whose mission statement is clear. He will be your best ally, cheerleader and assistant because he wants you both to make it! A man who cannot be supportive of your achievements because he is floundering in a sea of uncertainty over his own life is not a healthy partner to have and to hold forever. Creating dependencies or feelings of obligation is not the way to get the best out of your man. Somewhere along the way, he will resent you and flee from the smothering burden of obligation he associates you with.

9. Complementary

Do your talents and gifts complement his? Do his gifts complement yours? What about your temperaments? Do you see the two of you as an effective team? Do your futures mesh? Can you co-ordinate your gifts in an attractive and effective way? This is why knowing your purpose is so important. Make sure your hearts beat for mutual causes. When I go shopping always consider the fabric, the fit and what I already have in my closet. Will my next purchase be a complementary addition to what I already have? If I find that I am going to have to buy shoes and matching accessories to go with a new outfit, I leave it right on the rack. It is too expensive a proposition. If the man you meet makes you feel that you need to completely reinvent yourself, something is wrong. This is where I ask you to consider the relationship in terms of cost. Is this relationship expensive spiritually, emotionally or physically? Does your longing for a mate make you willing to forfeit who you are in the process? Or does he see you as the gift that you are? The man in your life should consider you a rare find, a priceless jewel - because of you he is getting ready to get blessed big-time! Any relationship that causes you to feel unworthy, unlovely, unacceptable, undesirable or that you have to work for love, is too expensive! The man should cover, protect and provide not only materially for a woman, but emotionally and spiritually as well. You should be richer in mind, body and spirit for your union with the man of your dreams. The man in your life should make rich deposits into your heart and spirit, not withdrawals.

10. Does he have a healthy love & acceptance of himself?

Make sure the man in your life has taken time to heal from past relationships and has made peace with himself. How he cares for himself is how he will care for you. This is not something that you can impart. You cannot be his saviour or teacher. That is out of spiritual order. So you decide. How much is your life worth? How much is your love worth? You will be able to accept only what you believe you deserve. If think you deserved to be loved, should you expect anything less from a man? If a man truly loves you, he should be willing to pay the cost for the hand that they desired. The truth of the matter is, everyone knows that anything worth having, costs. And no one gets a ride in this life for free. From time to time, your desire for love might have caused you to leave your heart in the wrong hands. Never settle for less than what you think you are worth.

+[[stUpid tuTee]]+

Today has no lab session in school,haha!! so happy, wanted to do some lab report update since more and more are stacking up.. haiz.. but I got some lazy to sit down and do thing thus went to read my story book!! finish reading le, is a very nice book worhz.. ok lah, at least I did some reading up on cell culture media and also a bit of the lab report le, tomorrow no lab again!! *woot* so happy.. but the dilemma now is that I dunno to do lab report tomorrow or to meet dear out.. hmm *scratch head* ask him later bahz!! *bOo*

Went ot teach tuition just now and I was SO ANGRY with the boy loh... he is really driving me nuts manx.. I nearly screamed at him and complain to his mother but in the end, still give him chance and hope he will not be like this again le... tell him something, he will have to tok back to me, thinking that I am there I will alway give him answer, dun understand why he has a brain when he dun even bother to try and use it loh!! *arghx!!* he better give me better attitude next time sia.. if not I think I really cannot take it le ahhz!!

Just now I was looking at my msn list, I have so many bloodly contacts, so many so that my list is going to be full and cannot add another contacts le loh, but why is it that I dun tok with them then?? hmm.. come to think of it, maybe i make a bad friend bahz, thats y people dun tok to me much de!! friends, any comment what kind of friend I make?? give me a message on msn if u have or tag me bahz.. thanks a lotl.. really appreciate ~~! btw, I really love all moi friends and jasmine if you are reading this, i wanna tell you this, I dunno what is the barrier between us and maybe you think i did something wrong, but the fact, I do treasure our friendship, so dun make some ugly or rude face whenever you see me k?? anything we can tok it out de, no use showing me face~~ i really hope we can be like last time like that de!! *loVe Ya*

+[[ I waNNa chaNge bLogskiN!! ]]+

Which kind soul outta can show me and find me some nice nice blogskin?? wahaha!! I am simply too lazy to go and find myself..=p Maybe I should find boyfriend to do it for moi ahhz!! wahaha!!

Woke up early today to go for dance training, so early loh, lesson start at 930.. but what is the ebst thing?? I woke up at 9 and only left my house at 935.. wahaha!! which meant~ I am late!! hahaz!! But at least I made the effort to go down mahz!! haha~~ so tired, but rush home for lunch and bath before meeting dear and his friends to SUntec, the exhibition for study at Australia...

Yupex.. we are more or less settled for Australia, but dear seem a bit interested in RMIT.. hmm, and another problem cropped up with the timing where they can enter for the feb intake, hopefully they can figure out everything with the school bah! really hope we can go together worhz!!

fyp is a killer now, when I first enter republic poly, I was wondering why is it that in first year it is so "eh" one.. like nothing to do de, second year is ok... still got free time, but now third year le.. like suddenly no time to use for relaxation le.. aiyo... *faintx* next wee through, everything gonna have lab again, plue i gotta teach tuition then still got dance!! god... bless me with the strength to survive through this year!! oH yeah.. dear's mum bought me a winnie the pooh ankle sock from China!! so cute de worhz.. is not winnie the pooh print only eh, is the whole winnie the pooh plush head at the top of the sock!! so cute de loh@~ ThaNkS a lOts aUntie!! *muacks*

+[[stRessFul]]+

Holiday finally came and I thought I could have a good rest at first~ until wenyan told me the bad news.. haiz... I have to go back to school to do my lab for Monday to Friday for aLl the 5 weeks, oh man.. and what is the worst thing?? If I miss 5 lab or meeting, I will be downgraded. If I miss 10 labs or meetings, I will faIl the project immediately.. *faintx* what about my dance?? and my tuition date? In the end I will still be busy and tired and stressful...

Met up with my FYP team mate today and settle out some protocol and finally get some ideas on what the project that we are doing ... went shopping with them for a while while I wait for my dearie to come meet me.. heez... also met the auction person to pass me moi bag.. wahaha!! I have a new bag and it is very nice worhz.. anyway, darling and I went Harbour Front to makan then came my house to hang out, so long nv like that le, just hang out and have a good chat and snuggle up together, wooHoo~~ now I miss him so much again after he went home.. feel so loved once again.. 6_<... Gotta wake up early tomolo to meet up my fyp grp again to settle the last minutes protocol.. I am so tired!!! BTW... wanyan.. nice to meet u.. another shopping khaki found eh!! SAgittarian rOxs~~@ NIte people!!

(,") hApPy gEr (",)

Thing have not been very good in school, stressful lesson, not to mention nagging and long too.. and too, cos of somebody bahz.. but nvm lahz.. no point getting angry over just a useless and arrogant person, make yself angry only.. one thing good though, all the tests have finish!!!! no more stressful test.. hahaz, tomorrow is anatomy lesson and that stupid wenyan and clarissa say they wanna pontang.. Pigadoodoo lahz both of them, somemore dear will not be in school tomorrow also, no boyfriend, no friends also.. *bleah*

Was given the chance to go all the way to Pakistan to perform dance representing singapore and Republic poly but I decided not to go. Being the reason one,Parkistan is so dangerous now, what if I kanna caught? hahaz.. Secondly is due to the FYP bahz.. pretty busy now that I have to finish up the lab within the March holiday. Vanessa is going though, heard from her that the dance is pretty cool, some Singapore funky dance bahz.. hope she will have fun!!

Something came across my mind today, somebody are willing to give up their relationship that is already two years long and can still tell me that it is pretty short. I think that everyone have different expectation to the relationship and also whether it is long or short is up to one self. bUt is it really true that the one that give up the relationship will not be sad? or is it that they are not willing to face up the music... SoMe people just dunno how to treasure that they have.. like what Raj said, the grass alway look greener over the other side.. *hai* I miss my darling and love him!! *muacks*

..:: uPdatEs ::..

Okie, I admit.. i have been lazy to updat my blog and after dear install a new game into my lappy, I have been addicted ever since!! *guiLTy* ok.. i promised this update gonna have photos k...Decided on taking up the advanced diploma offered to me by the school le, gonna be a extremely busy third year for me.. but anything for moI future.. weNyan and cLarisSa, we will worK hard TogetHer.. we gO mOnash together ok!!! Dearie have handed in his application to Monash with Danie just now also le.. hmm.. we are going to Australia together.. *excited* but relieved that at least he is there with me!! *loVe hIm*

me and BabY

i loVe yOu baBy

Had a quarrel with boyfriend last few days again, yes.. I mention again.. I typed a complain letter to him and complained all that I am not happy with him.. not gonna mention the deatils here, cos it shall it shall be between both of us, sorry peeps!! =) but everything is fine now, we are as loving as before.. I just relaised something.. make up kiss is the sweetest thing ever in a relationship.. hmm.. maybe we should quarrel me ahhz?? wahaha.. *donk moiself* well, I think this quote is rather true : "Love is like a knife, it can stab you in the heart, but can also carve out the most wonderful memories". Anyway.. I changed my blog skin le, all thanks to boyfriend!! but after seeing Melissa looking through blog skin in class today again, i feel like changing again.. damn!! hahaz..

Ok.. I offically declare I wanna go on diet.. although I alway have fats.. I also manage to conceal them pretty well, and I found that recently, it is harder and harder for me to cover up those stupid lump of fats and that will mean diet.. More veggi, lesser rice, lesser meat, more plain water, No tidbits,more exercise.. okie.. i think i will give up in 2 days time.. hahaz.. I loVe riCe.. Oh man.. How??? * boiNk myself*.. dearie say he will support me and help me.. like morally?? hahaz!! By no mean.. i still love him!!

weNt over to my seconday school teacher house and had a hell out of the time there.. over 20 people attended the gethering outta of 40 in the class, can really say it is a good organising.. good work edmund!! *thumb uP* the gathering was good, seen a lot of my classmates and all of us changed.. hahaz.. people say i become prettier.. hahaz.. *fly up the sky le* the guys changed pretty much too and much of them are serving NS now.. good luck people.. do a good job in protecting the country yeah!! miss them tonnes and the catch up session was really good.. guys, we should have more of such meet up..my teacher daughter clar, oh man, she is so cute.. when I see her, feel like pinching her cheek and I had the honour of her kissing me on the cheek.. hahaz.. *honoured sia* below are some photos we took that day:

clar, so cute right?? *winkz*

clar again, with some silly pose... she love taking photos..

mE n Clar

claSs photo, though not all people are inside..

mE n HuipeNg

uS n QuIru

one More wiTh sweE laN

The GeRs iN tHe claSs..

Miss you gUys tonnes.. wish you all luck in whatever you all are doing in the future and everyone getting A level yeah!!

wow.. this seem like an extremely long post.. heez... ok.. to end off, some photo of myself.. trying to act cute.. hahaz...

welcOme

me, mYself & I

wInk and Tongue.. =p

Hi- Five

TryIng tO aCt cuTe stUpidLy

mE n PoOh!~ I am lovin'g it!~*mUaCks*

okok.. stop puking.. told u guys I am acting cute le mahz.. hahaz.. thats it folks.. will update again when I am free worhz.. miss you all!! I am going off to play moi game le... *vanish*

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires. And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek. You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships. It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?