+[[ huGe FigHt]]+

Had a huge fight with my boyfriend just now, especially after what a wonderful time we had before that... i dun understand why he alway say things in his light, he said he stand in my position and see thing le, but whatever he say and whatever he do prove it in a other way instead. I do not know whether to feel disappointed now or to feel angry.. *haiz*

if you are ever reading this, pls think back at the time u wuarreled with me yesterdea, if dun feel like sleeping, I DO!!! you said why can't I even wait for you for a little while, I waited for you for a full show to finish on the tv and half a show le.. You say I am unreasonable and kicking a big fuss when you are doing serious thing, ask yourself.. Did I keep smsing you or calling you to disturb while you are on the line?? Did I force you to put down the phone. I was just smsing you cos it is getting pretty late and if you are going to be still on the line, just tell me and I can go to sleep first.. IS THIS WRONG???? plus when I am not feeling well?? I dunno what to say lahz.. your talking and ur quarreling style is very suffocating if you nv realised that... slamming down the phone is the only way to shut ur mouth, but I cannot believe that there is no communication at all after that and when I am online, you are just treat like nothing had happen.. what the hell have happen???

+[[ SinFul DeSserT]]+

Went to school as usual for lesson and attended a sucky lesson, I really dun understand why some facilitator have to be so fake in front of a camera.. it is the worst ANatomy and Physiology lesson I ever attend man... a sucky afternoon but end with a wonderful note...

Met hunny for dinner, he dun have lesson yesterday but he came out and meet me.. as sweet dear a usual, he bought me a new pooh comb, a pooh pouch with a mirror and comb and a baby legging to hold moi handphone.. love him to bits!!! *muacks* we went to Marche to makan dinner, I ate the grilled cod fish, really fresh and nice worhz.. but i gave dear a mouthful got bones de then he dun dare to eat the fish.. wahahah, dear ate the grilled boneless chickenleg , also very very nice, with a side dish of calamari, the sauce has a tinge if hotness and numbness one, which we figure out to be garlic inside.. hahaz... ate my sinful dessert!!!! MAngO ice cream crepe.. it is damn nice man...*slurp SluRp* the mango is sweet, the combination of a mouthful of icecream, crepe with hot fudge and the mango is heavenly man... though it is pretty ex .. dear say two months can only eat once, that make my next dessert treat at April.. I am marking it down~~ *wOo* Went walk walk and end my tired but loving night... *aww*

Today dear going to see doctor regarding his knee, hopefully everything will be okay~~ *pray*

~~sPeciAlly For moI baBy~~

My DearESt ... ...

The times I have wiTh you is Very SpeciAL

To reach out to you and know you will be there -

ThaT MeaNs aLl tHe worLd to mE.

My HEarT iS wiTh yOu wHerever YOu go, My loVe is yoUrs nO maTter whAt.

WheN yoU smIle at me, I knOw iTs frOm youR heaRt.

I kNow you'Ll dO for Me whAT no One elSe woUld dO.

aNd If I don't Tell you I loVe you

As Often As i ShoulD... ... It's bEcauSe

I hOpe That, DeEp dOwnInsiDe,

You kNow I do!!

I loVe you Baby... *muacks*

+[[FrEe daY]]+

Having my free day for this week today.. but yet I am feeling sicky.. haiz.. Microbio test in the morning.. sux, I answered the problem off point.. there goes moi grade!! *stress* How am I going to maintain this standard of grade to go Monash.. haiz!!! Friday got Immunology test, but I have no mood to study yet~~ How hOw hOw??? *screaming for help!!!*

I miss darling boy now.. he was sick for the past week, glad that he is feeling better now le, but my turn to get sick.. -_-''' hahaz, but him and I will be having a very busy third year awaiting for us.. I am goingto be really caught up with moi FYP , lucky for me i Have a really fun team, consist of siao char bos!!! forever laughing one~~ haha, maybe can help me destress too~~ then i will still need to complete moi PPM, somthing that I have been to lazy to touch~ plus no vacation and free days at all for the whole year 3 cos of the advanced diploma of Monash Uni.. hmm hopefully I can pull through all these things.. Dear will have a course that stretches for the whole year too, it says to be very good for his emplyment next time, he will be able to get more pay than other people due to this cert.. hmm but one thing we are not going to forgo is our plan to go hongkong, no matter how busy we are we will still need to destress right?? and enjoy some time together!! hahaz! So many thing to do yet so little time.*ponder*

In another 11 days, it will be one year and 4 month anniversear for me and baby.. hee.. time seem to fly eh.. some many thing have happen recently... a lot of my friends have been giving up on their relationship.. hopefuly they will be happier this way, they will have moi blessing!! Sometime i wonder, is it better really to be lved than love somebody.. honestly I think this is more of a depressed person thinking.. when you are in love.. it should be a mutual give and take isn't it? But how many peopl actually do this?? I am thankful for all the happy moment given to me by hunny.. looking around in moi room and looking at what I wear whenever I go out, 8 out of 10 things are blessed with love little gifts given to me by him.. Catherine was laughing at me too! oh well, what can I say.. I am swimming in a big pool of love!! one that will support and not drown me~~ relationship with shuan and mei mei and darling's mother is improving tremendously, interacting is so much easier and more fun like I am really part of the family.. hee!! I feel like a princess!~~ dear digital cam is repaired le, I am going to play around it soon and take many many photos!! wahahaha~~ poor him is still studying now... *evil luff*

I wanna change my skin.. been mentioning it so long le yet nv do it.. gonna ask love to do it for me soon.. cos I am simply too lazy.. hahaz.. but dear you wun mind de right?? * muacks* Oh yeah!! today is madelyne birthday!! *haPpy BiRthdaY ger, May ManY haPpy RetUrns To you* going to teach tuition later to the indian boy later.. Poor clarissa had a hard time with her china boy last week, ger, relax k!! you can do it de~~

+[[ haPpy vaLenTine DaY]]+

Happy valentine day to all moi friends, hope you all will a tian mi miday with your loved one if you are attached and will have a wonderful day with ur friends if you are not attached.. whatever it is.. have a wonderful DAY!!!

WHile i was on my way to school today, I saw so many people buying flowers at the florists and so many couples are holding hand in hand and walking.. so sweet horhz.. make me miss my darling so much, so more he din come school today cos he having free day !!I miss him sO muCh!!!! *cry out loud* Raj just gave a bouquet of flower to Sham in class, so sweet.. hee, hope both of them will last forever!!! lesson starting, gotta go, will blog again!!!

i thInk i am falling into depression!! a deep pithole... anyone outta to pull me out?? =(

=- HaPpy CnY-=

Happy chinese new year to all moi friends, hope that the coming year will be a much better years for u all, to all studying, good grades for studies k~~ for those working, hope ya guys get promotion and pay rise ahh~~ This new year is going to be a super duper busy week for me~~ all the way from Monday till friday.. i am fully packed!! *goOdies*

Monday... is my bf birthday, dunno whether to say the celebration is special to him anot, but I am really glad that he look really happy. Went his house during morning, bought mac breakfast for him~~ then something happen when we are at his house, everything good, and memories to be kept within us!! *bleahx* Anyway, we went to eat at a hIgh class restuarant at Paragon, Lawry's the prime rib, if you guys know where is it bahz.. Went to wenyan house and bake a birthday cake for dear on last friday.. hahaz, kinda of ugly lahz.. but it is moi first try and it is the effort that matters ahhz.. plus i am broke so can only bake cake for him.. anyway, A really big THANK YOU to wenyan and clarissa to plan the whole event with me, specially to wenyan for her effort to make the reservation and brought the cake over for moi.. gonna post up the pics asap.. hehee.. anyway,when me and dear reach the place, we were like OMG... y so high class!! haha~ really a once a life time experience yeah!! but the food there is really nice. Dear din expect me to have a cake for him, well at least not one that I bake myself.. haha!! then the embarrassing moment came.. three waitress came out witht he cake and sang a birthday song to him.. he was blushing.. gee...hopefully he did enjoy ur birthday my darling boy!! =)

This new year... my timeline will be

Tuesday: Performance in the morning then reunion dinner

Wednesday: relatives visiting

Thursday: visiting over dearie side of relatives

Friday: BBQ at nite!!

Saturday: Visiting for lao shi house then ah ma birthday celebration at nite

Sunday: Gathering for friends at dearie house

haha, it is so going to be such a tiring yet crazy week for me.. haha!!

Dunno whether this is really a good year to what.. I really hope that my grandpa will get better, he got admitted to hospital just before reunion dinner.. got spasms due to the last stroke attack... My uncle told us that my grandpa is not going to last long le and that what we can do now is only to drag it as long as possible.. This is going to be my first experience to lost one of my grandparents... haiz... hope that the new year will bring good luck to the whole family!! mY cousin Is pregnant though~~ I am going to have a niece/nephew again!! wee!! Meanwhile my friends enjoy the chinese new year celebration, my jian fei plan is so going to fail with all the goodies placed in front of me whereever I go. haha.. maybe like Carie.. continue the plan after new year!! haha!~~

Me and Dearie toGetheR for 461 days!! (",)

+[[ anGry]]+

I hate it when somebody want to challenge me, if she jolly well want to work well with me, get her respect up first.. if she think is the queen and in control, she is so damn wrong. If she wanna try some dirty game, I am all game for it.. If she thinks that it is fun to boss around.. go ahead, my paitence will reach its limit one day and she intend to break it through, she can jolly well suffering the consequences then.. sometime, acting cute will not bring you any further, cos the main fact that you are not cute at all... thinking you are popular is absurd.. cos no one actually like you at all but that dumb boyfriend of yours!!! only asking stupid qns and answering unrelated answer is your forte lahz!!

Sorry friends, I just have to let out of my anger.. damn her, piece of shit!!