In life as in dance: Grace glides on blistered feet

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

..::HoLidaYS::..

Life cannot be any happier for me now!! haha~! HOliday, thats the big event. Finally, a whole 3 weeks of torture are gone. And there is something that I learned in this process and that is that birthday, sickness and examination really make a super duper bad combination. Neverthless, I am 20 years old le!! haha~! and I got my Anna Sui perfume!! haha, with courtsey from my boy friend! yippie... Btw, Thanks Catherine darlIng for still remembering my burfday, haha! I mISs ya a lot ger! *muacks*

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mY pREsSie!!

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burfday Ger wiTh preSsie

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I love yoU babY!

Anyway, I was super sick, sown with fever and flu during the 3 days when I am having my 3 major papers, gRrRRr, it is really a torture man. But was really touched by my mum. She gotta work but still take care of me like a little princess, and so worried that I cannot go for my paper... *awW* thanKs muMmy, I loVe ya!! *muacks*

Now that the examinations are over, I am so going to relax and slack man. But the next sem aka battle start. Seriously I think Uni is super duper stressed, kinda of regretted going in. But thanks a lot to a lot of my friends that encourage me when I was feeling so down while studying for my examination. People like Angie, Wenyan, you gers are the best. I am going to continue my slacking period right now... lol!

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*lOve loVe*

..::signing off witH HUgs anD KiSses::..
KiTty

Saturday, October 28, 2006

..:: Treat or Trick::..

A lot of people will be celebrating Halloween today, so it would either be a treat or trick. But i think god has chosen trick for me. A lot of thing wen through my mind yesterdea and today, why is it that bf has to be so possessive and suspicious of everything. I promise myself, I shall never look for another boyfriend that live in the shadows of his ex. Celeste lied to you going out with another guy, two timing you. Well, I told u i am going out with my friends.

Now i start to realised that I am spending a lot of time bwing with his friends and hanging out with his friends. In turn, I neglected my own friends. I put in the effort and nv grudge when you ask me to meet ur friends, why can't you do it to me too? you choose to go out with your friends, clubbing, enjoying, for 3 consecutive nights, while i am studying at home. No girls will keep mumb about it. Now that i only went out with my friends for a dinner and some fun, you keep saying i lie to you.

You say i turn back on my words. How about you? you promised me not to smoke but yet you did. I argued with you over it then i give in, cos i am scare of losing you. Do you feel the same way too. Is it that I choose to give in and that is how you treat me yet after. Life is rather tiring . Maybe his lifestyle is more to clubbing, knowing more girls, flirt around, have fun and being single. More and more now that the friends that he hang around with are all single now. you rather be single?

WHat excatly is that you want? making me confused and suffocated. I am very miserable here but do you know? I am lost and i need a listening ear, a helping hand, a shoulder to lean on. can u? but instead all i hear and experience is arguments and quarreling. My tears has run dry, where is the andy that is so understanding and willing to put in effort to make me happy? where is the andy that is caring and seem to be alway by my side? Is it true that guy dun treasure once they own it? God, please tell me what to do? Dun call me unless you have something sensible and definite to tell me... ... i am dead.. gone and vanised.

GONE

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

::In LivinG wiTh cHemistry Lecture::

I am doing updating in a lecture now, mainly for one reason, the lecture is so damn boring. My study break is coming finally, but as the name implies, it is a study week and there are so many projects, assignment, essays and term papers coming up. I should seriously tell myself to study, too much slacking is not goof for moi.


Mummy has done her operation and i think that she is having a fast recovery. However, the financial problem int he family is still not solved yet. Hmm, I had just made a decision this moning and that is to prepare to hold a group tuition at home. The transport fee for going around to give tuition is just too wasteful and tiring for myself. More planning has to be done and I need to contact my childhood tuition teacher for some help in printing the paper and my boyfriend to help in getting those paper up around the few block around my neighbourhood. I shall now go back to my lecture and be a good ger. Will update again when I have the time k!

Friday, September 15, 2006

..::Life is Tiring::..

After so many days of not meeting my baby, I finally got to meet him today. He is being very sweet, despite my constant unreasonable action recently. His actions and his words really tell me that he loves me a lot a lot. Dearie, I am so sorry for all the temper as there is really a lot of thing happening within my family. I ensure that you are the one I loved and one that I really wanna treasure in my whole life.


School examinations are coming for all my tutees and all the parents are requesting to increase the number of tuition session. I am so tired everyday after dragging myself to school everyday and going to teach tuition after that. My friends say that I am crazy to slog myself so much, but all I can say is that if I am given the choice, I will also wanna be like them. To take money from parents and have no worries at all. But every family has their own problems and all I can say is that instead of procrastinating, I will learn to live with the problem and pursue my education just like how I had dreamt myself of doing university studies since young. To be able to study is like fulfilling my own dreams, so no qualms. I am suppose to go sleep now cos I have lesson tomorrow. Nevertheless, I am looking forward to tomorrow cos I will get to see my dearie. Hee, Good night my dear friends!
..::Life is so tiring::..

After so many days of not meeting my baby, I finally got to meet him today. He is being very sweet, despite my constant unreasonable action recently. His actions and his words really tell me that he loves me a lot a lot. Dearie, I am so sorry for all the temper as there is really a lot of thing happening within my family. I ensure that you are the one I loved and one that I really wanna treasure in my whole life.


School examinations are coming for all my tutees and all the parents are requesting to increase the number of tuition session. I am so tired everyday after dragging myself to school everyday and going to teach tuition after that. My friends say that I am crazy to slog myself so much, but all I can say is that if I am given the choice, I will also wanna be like them. To take money from parents and have no worries at all. But every family has their own problems and all I can say is that instead of procrastinating, I will learn to live with the problem and pursue my education just like how I had dreamt myself of doing university studies since young. To be able to study is like fulfilling my own dreams, so no qualms. I am suppose to go sleep now cos I have lesson tomorrow. Nevertheless, I am looking forward to tomorrow cos I will get to see my dearie. Hee, Good night my dear friends!

Monday, September 11, 2006

Life is A chore...

I finally understand that schooling is indeed more tiring than working. Assignments and projects are breathing down my neck currently. I am suppose to be preparing for an oral presentation right now and yet here am i updating my blog! OMG~! well, I do need some enjoyment anyway. SOrry peeps for not updating my blog recently as I had some problem logging into blogger recently.

School has really been really busy and tiring. Tests are coming again . It is just so irony that when you are working you feel like studying and yet when you are studying, you feel like working again. Mum going for the operation tomorrow, may god bless her that everything will go smoothly for her. I am really worried about the situation in my family now, but I guess the best that I can do right now is to believe that thing will smoothen out as time goes by.

Baby has really been a sweet love recently and we are coming to 6 months in another 2 hours and 6 minutes. It is such a miracle how we got to know each another then (close friends would know how) and still be together for so long. This is the first time I have a boyfriend that make me feel so emotionally attached to him and make me feel that I cannot do without him. Darling, I really love you and I will learn to treasure you much better de.

HappY Advanced( 2 hours and 4 minutes) Half a Year aNNiversaRy!!!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

fInalLy some UpdATe.. LOl

School has started for me once again. Moving on from poly life to university life is really a nerve wreaking process. Seriously, I would have thought that Republic Poly system was bad enough, but when I start to work around with NUS balloting and bidding system, I simply nearly committed sucide. School had started for about 3 days now. Today is Wednesday and I am at home, having no lesson, hee! Poor Vivian still has to go back for a 2 hours lecture.

Lectures are simply boring, maybe it could be due to the fact that it is the first lesson and all the lecturers seem to be propaganding me about how important is Chemistry, thinking skills, genetics, blah blah blah. But I really do thanks a lot of people in order for me to sucessfully get into university and I have promised myself that I will not let down these people. Saying so, I will work hard and try to get into the honours programs, doing my best and trying my best! Darling has been really supportive toward me attending school. Thanks a lot love!

Five months with my boy and he surprised me with a bouquet of 12 roses. Gee! *shy* I was really surprised as I alway have conversation with him on how he did not get me any flower before. And to date, that is the biggest bouquet of flower I have ever received. We went to took some neo print at Cineleisure after that, met Sharon, Jeffery , Doreen and Alvin there. We 6 kukus tried to take neoprint together despite we did not really know how that particular machine works! LOL, in the end, hmm, you can guess the quality of the masterpiece. Anyway, I will post up the photos as soon as my darlign scan them and send to me. HaPpy 5 MonThnivessary darlIng... Looking forward to more!

I have stopped working at Pool fusion then, gotten my pay yesterday. Thus, I have decided to wash off any matter with regard with that stupid company. Despite so, I truly hope that the case of the lost IC can finally come to an end. My life can revolved around my school, giving tuition, my family, my friends and of course my beloved Boy. I will also be updating more often now that I have more time in front of my lappy! Life is getting better but stressful as I can foresee, may my passion and strength lie with me to overcome the obstacles.

To dear Angie, Congrats on the engagement girl. Hope Remy can really give you the happiness that you have been searching for so long. One more thing, try to understand him yea, staying i hostel do post a lot of problem to couple, but work with him to solve them. May you two have a blissful future.

To the woof woof in the tagboard, whom I have no idea the person is. If you want to woo girls such as angie from my blog. I am sorry, she is engaged. I do not appreciate non constructive comments too. Be it my english is good enough, it is my business and maybe you really think yours english is really good? Think twice yea! Do not throw your own face. One more thing, this is MY blog, I can choose the type of english I want to type the entry, so what I like internet language and singlish leh? what can u do lehz? BUZZ OFF!

Friday, June 23, 2006

**University UpdaTes**

Time for some updates again. Hee, sorry folks for the lack of updates!! Anyway, I have received the reply from NUS and I am posted to Arts and Social Science. Apperently, I was ready to give up a month ago, thinking of taking physocology if I am going to take up Arts and social science. But I decided to try out appealing even though the chances is so slim. I was so happy when the Vice-dean of Biological Science called me up and asked me to go down for a talk. Hope sparked up again after the long hours of discussion with him and advices. I had to make a trip back to Republic Polytechnic to retrieve some documents and I must really thanks Dr Jasmine Heng and the other staffs for their prompt reaction and helps in my appeal. Just last week, I received that my appeal is Successful!!!! I am so happy, I am admitted in Life Science of NUS. Thats excatly what I want to pursue. Thinking about the whole event, I really got a lot of people that helped me in this appeal.

I got to thanks Hui Ying for the so many times to accompany to NUS to hand the so many damn appeals and forms, thats what a true friend for! *winks* Thanks Professor Chan for the chances given to me. Thanks Dr Jasmine Hang and the RP staffs to help me in my appeal in a way or another. Thanks my bao bei for being there for me to encourage me throughout the whole process when I am feeling low and negative. I feel so blessed! gee

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

**I havE gRadUAteD!!!!**
I have graduated! haha~! yea finally, I have received my diploma. Really glad that my effort paid off for the last semester of my three years in Republic Polytechnic. Managed to graduate with a diploma with distinction, my advanced diploma and also a module award for genomics, was rather surprised, but an unexpected monies of $100. => Went for the ceremony and saw a lot of my friends there, think it is going to be pretty long before all of us have any chance to meet out together again like that. The school played some video that made all of us so emotional. Really enjoyed my poly friends, made some real friends and gone through some up and down in it. Think I am not gonna forget about this memories yet so far. Some pics below took with moi friends.

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tHe dance Gers!

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tHe gers With two Army Props! lOL!

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mE and JoaNne~

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Jia LoNg and mOi!

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tHe preTty gers

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MosT of The SAS people!!

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me ANd naTalIe laoPo!! *muacks*

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Me N vaNessa!

Another thing, Happy 21st birthday my darling boy!! I am sorry that there is only so little I can do fro ur birthday yea! Hope you will enjoy my company and also the cake. Anyway, I cannot wait for spend tomolo with him. Shall update more about it tomorrow yea. Hopefully we will take more photos.

Before I close this entry, just something for the girls in Australia. I know all of ya are being very stressful to keeping up the standard for ya high distinction and everyone of ya are stressed. But I really hope things are going well for all of u. It is so difficult for all of us to meet together and get to know each another, we spend so much time in SIngapore struggling while everyone is having holiday, and that where our bond is build. I really hope that if there is anything displeased within all of ya , talk thing out and treasure the friendship and the bond it took time and pains and efforts for us to build for two years! I really miss all of ya and good luck for ur exams! Work hard and I believe that your efforts will be paid off! (",)

Saturday, May 13, 2006

**lEt Me COMPLAIN**

Come to think of it, no one seem to understand the agony of me working at this stupid company. Not my family, not even my boyfriend. All they tell me is how bad the company systemis how shrewd the boss is and stuff. COme on, I mean, I can see and feel all these myself too can't I. WHy can't anyone of you stand in my shoe and understand why is it that I am biting my teeth and still go to work everyday.It is not about choosing to do the thign I like to do anymore, it is to support for my family in any tiny part I can. Is it helping that theya re angging around my ears every single time they see me? I doubt so. Rather, wun it be comforting to have someone by your side to encourage and comfort you instead. ENough nonsense from work and in turn i becoem the one to comfort them that I know what I am doing and ask them not to worry about me. *gRrR* I need a breather too!

Spent the two month anniversary with him. Everything on the surface look so wonderful, he did a lot of sweet things. But why do I feel a tinge of unieasiness the whole night? He sighed a total of 7 times, when asked it is alway nothing. *haIx* I dun deny that I am tired, but who dun when you chatted into the wee hours of 3am the previous night and wake up at 9 to work till night? I am only human. I hated it when he sensed something is wrong and all he do is to sms other people. He thinks I did not know that, well simply, my observational skill is not that bad. What the need to sms other people when the person of concern is just lying beside you? Feeling bored, tell me what you wanna me to do? I am really speechless and I really dunno how to handle this situation. He seem like a deep ocean, there is so much of him I do not know, his past and stuffs. He is feeling bored, sad and uneasy, all I feel is useless. I cannot make him happy any time I want just like his ex, with just the choice of words she use.

I think I am not useless, I am who I am. Accept or release it. I am not one that allow other to push me and manipulate me with. Darn irriatted by the whole thing. Come to think of it, is there a hidden meaning behind the question he asked me last night in the cinema? " Are we compaitable?" Darn him!

..:: If I lay here, would you just lie with me and forget about the world?::..

Thursday, May 11, 2006

**New LIfe New ConTentmeNts**

On the demand of my cute boyfriend, I gotta post a photo of him and me together here. Btw, we are coming to two months and I am feeling really happy together with him. Really sorry about the lack of updates my friends, been really caught up with working and spending time with my dearie. I gotta my acedemic transcripts and I passed with diploma with distinction. Haa, I am so happy, at least all the hard work I had put in was not gone to waste.


I went for the SIA interview and now left with the last round. Pretty much ina dilemma, but think I would go for the last interview before deciding on what to choose for my future. Sorry for the short update, but let me compensate with some photos k! Gee..


Btw, ANgie, Wenyan and Clar, if you three see this entry, remember to inform me when u gers are back in singapore k! We go makan so singapore food and I miss u gers so much. Bring some photos back and good luck for all ya exams. Soar with your dreams! =>


Now for some photos:


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thats me and him!


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Thats me in KabaYa!!


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Thats all Folks!!!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Living On bravely~

The worst way to miss somebody is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can't have them.

For those who understand what I am saying, good for you~! Anyway, I have learnt to move on after all the threatens from Xian Keng. Thank Jie Mei!! and forget about the dumpster k! hOhohO! All I am asking now is to concentrate on moi studies, get into university and get myself busy with dancing bahz, in this way my life will be happier.

p.s : xk ah... forget about mx too k! u deserve better too!! haha~! thanks for travelling down all the way to seng keng to find me!! *touched*

Deep down inside I know i will not give up, but maybe friends is stilla better choice for both of us. God has all the plans for us bahz! Things are getting complicated in moi life and I feel it is only going to get worst, but thanks Pig, Ngee Jie, Janice and Xian Keng to be alway there for me. Like what all peoplesay, you will only know who is ur true friends when you are in need. =)