**lEt Me COMPLAIN**

Come to think of it, no one seem to understand the agony of me working at this stupid company. Not my family, not even my boyfriend. All they tell me is how bad the company systemis how shrewd the boss is and stuff. COme on, I mean, I can see and feel all these myself too can't I. WHy can't anyone of you stand in my shoe and understand why is it that I am biting my teeth and still go to work everyday.It is not about choosing to do the thign I like to do anymore, it is to support for my family in any tiny part I can. Is it helping that theya re angging around my ears every single time they see me? I doubt so. Rather, wun it be comforting to have someone by your side to encourage and comfort you instead. ENough nonsense from work and in turn i becoem the one to comfort them that I know what I am doing and ask them not to worry about me. *gRrR* I need a breather too!

Spent the two month anniversary with him. Everything on the surface look so wonderful, he did a lot of sweet things. But why do I feel a tinge of unieasiness the whole night? He sighed a total of 7 times, when asked it is alway nothing. *haIx* I dun deny that I am tired, but who dun when you chatted into the wee hours of 3am the previous night and wake up at 9 to work till night? I am only human. I hated it when he sensed something is wrong and all he do is to sms other people. He thinks I did not know that, well simply, my observational skill is not that bad. What the need to sms other people when the person of concern is just lying beside you? Feeling bored, tell me what you wanna me to do? I am really speechless and I really dunno how to handle this situation. He seem like a deep ocean, there is so much of him I do not know, his past and stuffs. He is feeling bored, sad and uneasy, all I feel is useless. I cannot make him happy any time I want just like his ex, with just the choice of words she use.

I think I am not useless, I am who I am. Accept or release it. I am not one that allow other to push me and manipulate me with. Darn irriatted by the whole thing. Come to think of it, is there a hidden meaning behind the question he asked me last night in the cinema? " Are we compaitable?" Darn him!

..:: If I lay here, would you just lie with me and forget about the world?::..