..:: Treat or Trick::..

A lot of people will be celebrating Halloween today, so it would either be a treat or trick. But i think god has chosen trick for me. A lot of thing wen through my mind yesterdea and today, why is it that bf has to be so possessive and suspicious of everything. I promise myself, I shall never look for another boyfriend that live in the shadows of his ex. Celeste lied to you going out with another guy, two timing you. Well, I told u i am going out with my friends.

Now i start to realised that I am spending a lot of time bwing with his friends and hanging out with his friends. In turn, I neglected my own friends. I put in the effort and nv grudge when you ask me to meet ur friends, why can't you do it to me too? you choose to go out with your friends, clubbing, enjoying, for 3 consecutive nights, while i am studying at home. No girls will keep mumb about it. Now that i only went out with my friends for a dinner and some fun, you keep saying i lie to you.

You say i turn back on my words. How about you? you promised me not to smoke but yet you did. I argued with you over it then i give in, cos i am scare of losing you. Do you feel the same way too. Is it that I choose to give in and that is how you treat me yet after. Life is rather tiring . Maybe his lifestyle is more to clubbing, knowing more girls, flirt around, have fun and being single. More and more now that the friends that he hang around with are all single now. you rather be single?

WHat excatly is that you want? making me confused and suffocated. I am very miserable here but do you know? I am lost and i need a listening ear, a helping hand, a shoulder to lean on. can u? but instead all i hear and experience is arguments and quarreling. My tears has run dry, where is the andy that is so understanding and willing to put in effort to make me happy? where is the andy that is caring and seem to be alway by my side? Is it true that guy dun treasure once they own it? God, please tell me what to do? Dun call me unless you have something sensible and definite to tell me... ... i am dead.. gone and vanised.

GONE