FeeLings

Maybe it is time for me to get back to blogging. University life is not as fun as I perceived it to be when I am in Poly. Relationship is not as smooth-sailing as I thought too.

Is being a responsible bf that difficult. Why is it that he does not understand the matter that it is not that he cannot go out with his friends, but much when it is the correct time to do so. Maybe my life is really full of discipline and rules, but his life is only filled with play and fun but no sense of responsibility. I admit he may be a very sweet bf toward gf, but is being sweet good enough? Am I going to spend the rest of my life with a only a sweet bf but no accomplisment and all he want is to go out late at night? I have no grudges if this relationship is really to be ended. People or friends around me can preceived me as a unreasonable or fierce gf, I have no guilt at all, because I know that all that I have done is to make him a better person. Being in a relationship is not all about having fun, but also to plan for the future too. If I am not good enough a gf for him, please god, tell him to go find another one. Not that I can put down this relationship so easily but what is the point of dragging it when I know that this problem will surface again and again with no solution.

Whether this relationship will end or continue, I have no idea and I do not want to think so much. But he is the first I see that to hoax people with only one sentence :" dun be angry lahz". Do he really think that just this one sentence will work? And when I want him to be here by 3pm, it is not that I am army; on the side note, I am very very sad that he is comparing to army. Why can't he just say ok and try but NO, every single time when thing is not going his way he will just throw a NO and not try at all. Is it the same for this relationship too? A "No" and that the end of it?

Memories are made to be .....

A few days of blissful that lead to a disaster?