SICK IN MY MIND~

I have come to a point in my life that I am so sick of it! Seriously, it is hitting the limit for me. Nothing bad has happen but the routine of my life is weighing me down. I do not seem to have a life at all. Out of the things I am doing now, how many of it am I seriously feeling happy when I am doing it?

I have no idea what is going over me. Hormonal imbalance? Emotional upsurge? Arghz. I hate it I hate it I hate it! I want my freedom, I want back the times when I am just 5 yrs old! Relationship between human is such a bitch! WHy is it that when a person grow up, one has to do thing with absolute motive? I am thinking yet too much again.

I need a calming pill, I need a good rest, I need my gummy bears! I need to go to the beach and listen to the nature and not the ugly sound of human! I need a day of absolute fun and relax! I need a good cry! I need a good laugh! and lastly give me a good shoulder to rely on to cry and laugh!

Enough of lamenting, back to my routine life. Pubmed, journal literature, studies.... blah blah blah.. ARGHZ!

Chinese new year comes and go. I had a good start in the year, winning a bit of money via gambling.Baby and I went to the Ang Pao River during CNY eve! Had a wonderful time with Baby and went to catch a movie aftermath. Time for me to collect myself and ready to charge all ahead for my schoolwork from now on. Baby and I had decided to work HARD! We have started on our saving plan, although it is not going to be some big bucks but everything has to start somewhere right? *wink*

Priscilla and me

Valentine Day is coming! How are u peep going to celebrate the special day? A simple heartwarming dinner with my baby is more than enough. Besides that I received my early V-day gift, a new addition to my family: KorilaKuma~~[ Ko meaning Baby, rila meaning relax and kuma meaning Bear!] Saw this bear first in the arcade machines in Marina Square during CNY eve, knowing how much I like the cute little bear, baby went to search online for the name of the bear and the place that sell them in s'pore. Thereafter, the cute bears are welcomed into my hugs! =D

Happy 2009! Holiday is coming to an end and school is starting for me again the coming week. I totally enjoyed my holiday with baby. Activities done were kite-flying, bbq, strolling at the beach, cycling to come too. Life was never so fulfilling in any of my past relationship. Promises made were carried out and I am living everyday with the widest smile on my face every single day.

Spent a quiet christmas eve with baby, went out for dinner with baby's family, then went back to his house and snuggle up in the bed counting down to christmas between both of us only. Christmas gift from him was a U.R.S bag that I wanted and a surprise that will be kept between us only. All I can say I am shocked once again! lol~ New year eve was spend having bbq with baby's friend at Pris condo! All the preparation and smoke were crazily fun just becos he is by my side =D. Afterwhich , me and baby, allan and gf plus louis wth gf headed to ECP to see the red flares that are shot out from the ships at the strike of 12am. Ended the day with porridge for supper b4 heading home to slp! Was so tired! =D

I have decided to take up my honours year since I can predict that the economy for 2009 is going to be very bleak and hopefully by 2010 it will get much much better! CNY is coming and I cannot wait to spend it with baby. Every quiet and simple moments are made to be so magical just becos of his presence! DUn tell me that I am in love, becos I clearly know it myself I am SO in LOVE! Take a peek at the photos below:

Sorry for the lack of posts in these recent month. I have been busy enjoying my holiday. This holiday may simply be the very last holiday that I will get to enjoy in my studying life. Results are going to be out in another 1 or 2 days time and I guess all NUSrians are all equally nervous. Hopefully everything will go on fine and I can make my decision to either to enter the working life or continue my studying path.

Busy enjoying my holiday with my boy. Every moment spend with him is simply so wonderful. Security was never a close friend in the dictionary of my past relationships, but in this relationship, it simply come so naturally. I really do not know if this feeling is going to be there forever, but all I know I am really enjoying myself. I hate people to stick their nose into my choice of my bf. There is a reason why I choose Shawn as my bf and reject others, there is something special in him that others do not have. Recalling how I met him to how i get together is really a wild roller coaster ride, so exciting yet so thrilling. I think I am so addicted to him! One month 12 days since we got together and still ongoing! =D

An advanced merry christmas to all my dear friends!

Exams are finally over and I am officially a free girl now! The one week was terrible but becos of the presence of that someone care and concern and never ending sweetness, I endure through it pretty well. Will not say that I am really confident with my exam, but what done is done and all I can say is that I had tried my best! And like what my dad say, as long as I have done my best! =D

Friends to lovers , Lovers to friends. I guess destiny simply has its way to play around with us. I am with Shawn now and I have never felt as more blissful ever. The type of security, the amount of caring and understanding, the way he protect over me, simply make me feel like a princess. He kept to his words, I do feel like the happiest girl in the world. When I am with him, I simply felt that I am in my own world and nothing else matter. People tell me that I am in love and i guess I really am. I love Baby! =D

I am sorry toward somebody. SOrry if I inflicted any hurt on you. I am attached and I know this fact affect you drastically. Thanks for the care and concern you showered on me. Thanks for the times where you worried about me when I was having gastric pain. I guess being friend is definately the best solution between us. Time will heal up your wound hopefully. I am sorry once again.

On the side note, I am having a major brain block on my world history essay. I need some plumbling in my brain! Damn it. It is simply not a good feeling to reject someone! I need my CONCENTRATION! *focus*

Btw, Happy birthday Fabius! Next birthday on the line: MINE!!!!! I want to eat seafood!!!

10 years of friendship and still going strong. =D

I had an emotional ride these few days. Is it just me that is feeling it or is the toil of the long hours of activities hitting on us? Friendship can something be so fragil. I dun wanna to mention or try to mend it, if it is meant to, it will meant to be. What are friends exactly? Maybe I am too soft and easy to be manipulate. There is a reason why I am so to friends, but I guess time has come to decide which friends to be harsh to then.

I need a few long hours of sleep, with a long nice warm bath and a a trouble free mind for the next 12 hours to ease my tensed up body and mind. I am frustrated plus exhausted. I need my peace, my inner peace. I am going to lock myself up from the world of entertainment and friends temption for the coming one month, only people that deserve my attention will get my attention. PEROID.

"Lovers who love truly do not write down their happiness."

Wonderful saturday! =D Although I was still not feeling well, I still turn up to teach tuition. Another two weeks and I will say Bye Bye to the tuition center. I will be free on Saturday!! Friends that want to date me out! Now I can finally make it on a saturday afternoon~~, you people must be happy right! =D

Met RJ dear for dinner after tuition. I got my dougnuts, have been carving for it for sometime. Plus the fact I promise to buy for my younger sis to eat. Tomorrow is gonna be a LONG day of dance and assignments~! Looking forward to thursday for SENTOSA~~ it better dun rain.

Had a talk with my tuition boss and my decision on my future seem to get clearer as the days go by. With the economy going in the downfall , I doubt the timing of me coming out into the society is going to be the best choice. But we shall see yea, thanks a lot to all my friends that had given be suggestion and opinions on the science industry. I miss you peeps.

~ Life is never easy, we just have to take it in out stride. ~

P.s: For those that are interested in the post below. I never mention that the story happen on me AGAIN! haha~! thanks for all the concerns though!=D

The consequence of hectic time table, burning midnight oil to study and lecture everyday is to be sick. I have been sneezing for the past two days like nobody business! I have a premonition I am so gonna be down with fever soon! Been stuffing myself with vitamin C these two days, hopefully it works!

Tuitions are all coming to an end soon. And it is my turn to start studying for my exams! Half a year more before entering the working society. Is it good or bad? Hmm.

History of me and L has been repeating again and again in my life. Nat laopo, stay strong yea! Remember, you are doing just great. For those people that do not understand what I am trying to say.. you can try asking me, provided I am willing to fill you in with details! =p

Thanks to someone for listening to all my blabbering and patient enough to ease my stress, though I am still very stress! Thanks for bringing my happy pills! =D I really appreciate it.

Shall only return for a longer post after all my crazy week! Take care meanwhile folks~~

------------ ---NOVEMBER BABY ------------ --------

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate anddangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towardsyour inner and outer beauty and independentpersonality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in acrowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, thegreatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

I am missing someone's hugs! Boy, you make me dizzy!

On the side note, I will really like Ophionos to reveal who are you! I have a person in mind possible of him. Thanks for the motivation and support no matter who are you . I will live happy and well for sure! Once again, please tell me who are you!

Went for the fish spa + foot massage with nessa, Doreen and Henry that day. What an invigorating first time experience. But this is really fun, despite the ticklish part as I am super scared of that. Simply look at the face of mine in the pic below, I am trying hard to bear the tickling!!!!The aftermath of it, a pair of super smooth feet! haha!

Went through my tuition center interview smoothly and the only thing left to decide is if I want to take up my Honours studies. Hmm, mind too blocked up to think so I shall just keep in view first. I think I will just attend the student physco course first~! =D

On the side note: Happy one month darling~! (dated back to yesterday) Haa~! Irritating me decide not to greet that stupid boy the whole day until he tell me first. Anyway, be ready to tolerate more of my nonsense! =D

"Rome was not built in a day" =) Jia you!!!

All the stress from my tutees, assignment, test and upcoming exams are making me sick. And I really mean sick. The sore throat, fever, headaches are haunting me down! I am really afraid history will repeat itself. I certainly do not hope to be seriously sick again during my exam period! Not only it cause trouble to my mum but I am sure I will screw up my exam. So from today onward, I shall me a good girl to take my daily dosage of vitamin B complex and tonnes and tonnes of water! I will drink like a HIPPO!

My primary 6 students had their last session of tuition with me just now and I really hope that they will do well for their PSLE! My lovely students, I will pray for you all! lol~! Now, I will have to concentrate on my Pri 4 and 5 classes and sec 3 cousin!

I had a good day with my laopos last night. Had yet another wonderful night out, outing alway seem to be fun with them by my side. Anyway, 3 of us went for KTV and we only paid for 2 person worth! The waiter really seem quite pervert though! haha! Nat laopo, learn to smile k! We will support whatever decision you made and stand by you! *hUgGies* Wen laopo, good luck for ur FYP and I really hope you will find your true love soon! And I will heed your advices to not bother the comments made by some sick puppies! =D

I need a good sleep soon or I will break down! Time, give me more time!

I want my escapade again~~!

Tough time comes and go. But things seem to hit on hard for my dear nat laopo. My dear, stand up high and strong. Let the man know that he had made a wrong decision. You are a wonderful girl and I am not the only one that commented on it. I know it must be hard but trust me you will have my support and I know you will be smiling in no time again right? Love ya babe. Remember what you told lao po wen:"You can live without somebody" We will live for ourselves ok? *hUggies* Ditch that Bleeding love!

Wednesday comes and go. Simple as it may seem to a lot of people, the time spend together is precious to me though. Friends ask me if I am sure with my decision, friends get worried about me. But all I want to say, trust me my friends, let me fall hard and strong if my decision is wrong, but I know all of you will still be there for me. =D

I have been through many r/s and I have seen a lot fo r/s through my friends. One thing I see is that all exs have negative thoughts about their ex. But I don't understand why some of them simply want to make thing difficult for the current gf of their ex. Is saying things to make the person irritated pleasing to you? hmm~! I never know. I bless you Andy and Iris. Stay happy and sweet together.

Why am I so busy when this is suppose to be a recess week for me? Busy but happy! COntridicitng right? But thats me! okay, back to Microbiology b4 heading to Sentosa!!!!

Parts of my beloves in my life! Ain't I glad I met them ! =)

Love is two sided, it depends on how you look at it!

Finally a recess week to all NUS-rians. Enjoy your week my beloves! As much as we understand that once the week is over, the exam craze will be chasing us behind, the feeling of not waking up early and the long traveling time make me elate for a spontaneous moment! WooHoo! So much said, I will be going back to be studying for my Human Physio revision after blogging this post~

A very Happy 22nd birthday to my Doreen darling! Babe, I know you must have enjoyed your celebration with Henry. Really hope everything goes smoothly and I shall see you two engage next year yea! *loVes you* and let meet up real soon~~~

I am looking forward to Wednesday~! =D

Small gestures, unintended sweet nothings. Everything are enough for me to fall into this man.

Trust is what I behold now. I pray that this fragil belief is there to stay.

Wedding dinner, absoutely love the atmosphere. I am happy for my cousin, may them stay blissful for the rest of their lives! New additions to our family yet again! =D


Small boys do not excite me. Oh man! Do I look like i am 16 or 17? Whatever! My term break excite me more! Despite the fact I still gonna mug for my human physio and microbio test and assignment. But at least I do not need to wake up early and travel all the way back to school and I will get to meet my nat and wen laopos! miss them dearly!

Down the road, we shall walk hand in hand! =D

Cramps and mugging seriously is the worst combination that someone can get in the divine world. If I faint upon tomorrow test, somebody please get me an ambulance! I totally do not know how to describe tiredness now as it is not something i can explain in words! Give me my weekend fast!!!!

I need a supporting shoulder now to lean on!

1. Immunology test down by tomorrow ,
2. Microbiology report to rush by friday
3. Microbiology and Human physiology test upcoming weeks
4. World History CA essay upcoming
5. Human Physio Assignment nagging down my neck!

What a mess I have gotten myself into!

Breath!!! ~~~Stay strong KITTY! O.o

..::All about actions::..

A lot of times, love is about action and not just speaking of it. A surprise and it is enough to make my heart melts and smiles all day. Thanks RJ Dear~! You made my gloomy day into one that I have sweet memories with! Induglence received today!

Is it just me, or is she really a threat?

..:: Blackie reporting::..

I swear that when I say that I am a sun uv ray absorber, I am not lying. I went swimming with my sis for an hour this afternoon and I turn out to be tanner by one grade again. Arghz! It took me near to 5 to 6 years to get fairer then, now one hour of swimming return everything thing to me. WONDERFUL! It is high time to find another exercise to burn the bloody fats in my body beside swimming.Maybe I can try running like RJ dear, but to start with, I dun even have a decent running shoe! lol~! But to come to think of it, will I have the determination? No matter what i will try it out. =D And anyone has any recommendation of any body whitening cream???

I was pretty emo yesterday. Guessed the stress of school had taken over me yet again. This kind of thing happen to me every sem at least once when all the reports, tests, assignment, reading, lecture notes and deadlines just simply come piling and crashing down on me. Pardon me my friends, to those that tried to talk to me yesterday I snapped back at. =p But I am feeling all righty now with the swim to destress myself and my optimistic character to start off with [I made this choice to study this bloody life science course anyway O.o]. No matter how stress or hard the route is in front of me, I am gonna smile and perform well! I believe in myself!

Although much said, I need my ice cream to destress !!! Which kind soul wanna date me out for ice cream!!???? Ice cream nv fail to make me happy! =D

GO KITTY!!!!!!

..:: Alive and Kicking::..

A lot of people have been asking if I am okay and why is that I have not been updating blog.

Don't worry my beloved! I am alive. Alive and kicking.

Sorry for the lack of updates as I have been busy with school and some stuffs.

In fact, I have been experience happiness a lot recently! =D

I will try my very evry best to update yea! Meanwhile, remember to continue to miss and love me my beloves!

Alrighty, I should be back to my immunology notes! Damn, they are just so killing me!!
Btw, I am still thinking if I should take my honours year! The contridicting opinions I have been getting are meshed up in my puny brain!

Is jealousy the source of all troubles in a relationship?