..:: Blackie reporting::..

I swear that when I say that I am a sun uv ray absorber, I am not lying. I went swimming with my sis for an hour this afternoon and I turn out to be tanner by one grade again. Arghz! It took me near to 5 to 6 years to get fairer then, now one hour of swimming return everything thing to me. WONDERFUL! It is high time to find another exercise to burn the bloody fats in my body beside swimming.Maybe I can try running like RJ dear, but to start with, I dun even have a decent running shoe! lol~! But to come to think of it, will I have the determination? No matter what i will try it out. =D And anyone has any recommendation of any body whitening cream???

I was pretty emo yesterday. Guessed the stress of school had taken over me yet again. This kind of thing happen to me every sem at least once when all the reports, tests, assignment, reading, lecture notes and deadlines just simply come piling and crashing down on me. Pardon me my friends, to those that tried to talk to me yesterday I snapped back at. =p But I am feeling all righty now with the swim to destress myself and my optimistic character to start off with [I made this choice to study this bloody life science course anyway O.o]. No matter how stress or hard the route is in front of me, I am gonna smile and perform well! I believe in myself!

Although much said, I need my ice cream to destress !!! Which kind soul wanna date me out for ice cream!!???? Ice cream nv fail to make me happy! =D

GO KITTY!!!!!!

..:: Alive and Kicking::..

A lot of people have been asking if I am okay and why is that I have not been updating blog.

Don't worry my beloved! I am alive. Alive and kicking.

Sorry for the lack of updates as I have been busy with school and some stuffs.

In fact, I have been experience happiness a lot recently! =D

I will try my very evry best to update yea! Meanwhile, remember to continue to miss and love me my beloves!

Alrighty, I should be back to my immunology notes! Damn, they are just so killing me!!
Btw, I am still thinking if I should take my honours year! The contridicting opinions I have been getting are meshed up in my puny brain!

Is jealousy the source of all troubles in a relationship?

..:: I Love My MuM::..

Slacking at home the whole day today. As usual, Monday is alway a rest day for me after the crazy time table I have in the weekends. Was bored after watching like 5 episodes of Gossip girl, I decided to paint my finger nails and toe nails. My cute mother kept insisting that I am going on a date tomorrow since I am usually lazy to paint my nails myself. I love my mum! Maybe I shall date her out instead! Gee~! By the way, on the record, I am not going dating ! Maybe meeting nessa darling for a swim tomorrow morning so thatI can have a nice slp at night. Do not ask me what is bothering me that I cannot sleep cos I will not say. =p

..:: How lOng can the sweet Dream Last?::..

I find it funny how guys try to know gurls using the same old pick up line. "So, How have you been?". " Hey, you look like one of my friend". "Hey, not out on a fri night?". "Hey, how life?". Presently, I am really sick of entertaining those guys and I just want to be myself. Cum'on, I can live without guys. Furthermore, after a nasty ungentlemanly action of a guy to strand a girl out in the street at 5am, I had enough. Why can't some guy just take rejection gracefully! It is so frustratingly annoying when the person you want to have attention with just treat you like granted but people you wish not to have interaction with to pester you everyday. I do not agree I am downright pretty or attractive! Please leave me alone! I had enough~

Enough of some nonsensical babbering to sastisfy myself. I promised Doreen darling that I will update my blog and here I am. My life have been pretty routine, surrounded my lovely care and concern from my darlings and kor~ and also with my dance. Nothing much to update beside the additional bruises I got from the seeminly continuous non-stoppable cherography trainings. One more month to school start and I can forsee a harsh battle awaiting me with all the tough modules! Oh man!

The below paragraph is specially for Kalene:

Kalene dear, I have no idea if you do read my blog. Please thanks for being such a darling dear and stand by my side no matter what happen. If there is one true friend that I have found in my University life, that will be you. You have no idea what a gem you have been and how you alway lighten up my mood whenever I see you in the long hours of lab practicals and mindless tests and horrible exams! Seeing you sitting right in front of me and giving me the big sunshine smile nv fail to wipe off half of the anxiety I have when I enter the examination hall. My dear, do know that no matter what happen you have me by your side. I really love you girl! *hUg*

"Smiling seem luxurious to me"

..::Nonsensical whining~::..

At many times, there are some things or words that you feel like doing. But deep down in your heart you knew that it is not the right moment and patient should be your next best friend at this kind of moment. Though so, the anxiety inside myself is reaching a boiling point. Insomnia is something I experience. oH gosh! I simply have no idea what I am talking. I can only hope that life can be kinder to me! Happiness and committment seem to come hand in hand? But why is it that some people simply fear committment so much!

Whatever though, I received invitation to be social escort. Hmm, people guess if I agreed to be one? haha~! I need more happy moments in my life! Shall update on the outing with my secondary school gang when I got the photos! =D Being so, I am still happy with my life! Contridicting eh! Life is contridicting!

..::HapPy lUcky Day::..

I started off today with a wonderful notes and I think I will end it with a wonderful wonderful tune. *lalala* Nessa dear will know why! haha~! Anyway, I receive a call from Catherine, my long never contacted close friend in Seconday school. I am so glad that she is doing very well in term academically and also emotionally. Sorry dear that I was not around your side when you were in some serious emotion roller coaster in your previous relationship. I really hope that you will receive all the blessing in the current relationship k! Remember the overall package seem nice! haha~! Cannot wait to meet up with you next thursday, I am sure that we have a lot of things to talk about!

Another happy thing that happen to me is that I finally found the long lost book of my cousin! SO many long lost stuff today la! But seriously the book is some chinese novel and some old prints therefore, it is very difficult to find it in the book stores in town. I tried searching for the book in different bookstores for the past one week and none of them seem to be still holding the book! I am so glad that I found the book! The funny thing is guess where I found it? Under my bed! yes under my bed! Alright, I know I am very kuku!~ But my friends all should know that I am a very very blur person! so yea! I am so glad that I found the book.

Beside that I had a good talk with nessa dear and we are finally meeting doreen darling next tuesday when she is not flying. And nessa dear is staying over my house again next tuesday where we will go book our basic theory on wed! I am so excited! Woot~! so many things to do!!! Alrighty, I am off to prepare to go out le wor! my dear friends, Please enjoy the week and may God bless you all! Cos I certainly know he is blessing me with all the loves! =D

This is an old photo that me and nessa dear took a few year back! yea! Time to take new photo when I meet her again! Weet! =D

..:: Wonderful outing with wonderful company::..

I went on a very gentleman trip today with my god bro. When I say he is gentleman, I really mean it. Beside him paying for all the expenses from movie to dinner to sky train and the songs of the sea entry fee to sentosa, his every little gestures really show how much a gentleman he is. I really do think that his future gf or wife will be really a lucky and xin fu woman. So any of my single gf interested? I can intro! haha~ Anyway, the songs of the sea is really damn cool man, beside the lame story plot, I am really impressed with the standard of technology Singapore can put up with. After that went for a small walk with kor around sentosa, it was really fun la but it is really very humid. Therefore, I suggested to head back for vivo for some dessert before heading home. Wanted to treat him to ice cream, but silly him insisted for me not to spend so much and we settle for some sago ice in food court! [to say the truth, i din spend a cent the whole day man! -_-] Anyway I just want to thanks weiye kor for being there for me all the times. I have known for 7 years and ongoing and whenever i have trouble, he seem to just pop up like a genie. He understand me inside out and stand on the belief for me to be happy and not get hurt. Thanks kor! You are really important to me in my life!

Something random. I just got bitten by ONE stupid mosquito that I cannot kill in my room at 8 locations on my legs and hands in just one morning la! Stupid mosquito disfigure my hands and legs la! I am bent on finding the tootie mosquito and KILL it lah! this is so itchy!!

Some photos I took with kor! HapPy haPPy!!! =D

..::What does your bday say about you?::..

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

I think it speaks very true about me. My dear friends, you all can try it! =>

..::Happy happy!::..

I had an enjoyable day today. Made myself very happy for the following reasons:

1. I had enough rest after my tiring weekend of tuition and dancing.

2. I watch an enjoyable movie with an enjoyable company tonight[caught 21].

3. I am looking forward to watching the sea of song at sentosa! [kinda outdated that I nv watch it before since it started].

4. I am watching Zohan tomorrow with kor and chilling at Cafe Del Mal most probably.

5. I am feeling much light hearted and happier emotionally!

6. Received a sum of money from the govt!!! wahahaha!~

I just realised that I am really a busy person actually. Beside dance and tuition, I seem to have a lot of wedding and birthday celebration to attention in the coming months. All these are filling up my weeks very full. I cannot imagine what is going to happen once school start! oh man!! I still have so many people I wanna meet but I simply have no much time eh!

GOD, PLEASE MAKE MY WISH COME TRUE!! [confidential between god and me! =p]

..:: Come come, support me!::..

My intensive dance training is getting more and more intensive! Great. Now I have dance cheoro on both wed, thurs , sat and sunday . Bless my legs, I think that they are gonna rest in peace soon!!! But I am enjoying myself.

Nat lao po had a rough time in rs just like me. I shall not elaborate in the details as it is a long long long story. All I wanna tell her is that laopo, please stay strong and know that I and wen will alway be here for you just like how you were here for us all the time. Like I mentioned in the sms, you two are god sent gifts to me! If there is no one to appreciate you, I will definately be the first one to stand up for you! *hUGs*

I am so looking forward to Tuesday outing with Weiye kor la (you are finally back from Taiwan)! I can finally get to see the music fountain in Sentosa la! and watch movie!!!! =DDD Loving my life~

So much of me dancing:

Wu Yue Dance Studio Arts Troupe is proud to present our annual dance concert, Dance Image '08. This year, we have taken a bold step to incorporate the elements of media and dance to illustrate issues concerning the global climate crisis. We warmly welcome you to join us in this exciting venture and take the opportunity to appreciate chinese cultural dance in a whole new dimension.

Venue: Victoria Theatre
Date: 23rd (Saturday) and 24th August 2008 (Sunday)
Time: 800pm(23rd) & 300pm (24th)
Prices: $12, $15, $20
Do let me know if anyone is interested in going for the show k! =D I will be performing in 3 of the items. Come'on people, chinese dance is more than waving fans! =D

..::Emotional decision made::..

I am calming myself down today and decide upon my future route emotionally. Sadly I realised that for the past 10 over years, I have been constantly been attached. I devoted my time to my partner, yearning to be the good other part. But how is it individually have I grown? Where is the self confidence and comfort zone I once was so sure of last time?

I do not understand how I can get so insecure with myself. Therefore, I have decide to do things that I yearned and like. I am going to pamper myself for the sake of myself, learn things that I have longed for a long time. I am going to be more independent and the first step I am going to step out is to go learn driving.

In and out of relationships, it is amazing how guys can do bastard things and hurt girls. Not gonna elaborate on it, it sure be kept locked in my heart and with an iron lock, I have decide on what to do. I pray for myself to have the discipline and the courage to carry it out! I need to love myself more.

"Call me on the phone today

Said those words u always say

And I cry

Gotta figure out

what's going on inside this head of mine

I'll try "

..:: Shopping, Drinking at Clinic!!::..

I am alway thinking how come some guy never knew how to treasure a girl when she is there for him and caring about him. ANd yet when the girl start to give up on him, he keep saying that he loves her. What good is it to mention it just in words and no actions. I bet a lot of girls have gone through this kind of process. Oh well, guys, remember to treasure the girl that is there for you k! Because she really loves you den!

Went out with nessa darlingx for shopping and chill out session. Waited for her to complete waxing before shopping and somehow I got into the situation that I have to go with her the next time she is going for waxing again! OH man! what have I got myself into!!! Anyway, my raid of the day: 1 top, 1 hair mask, 1 hairband, 1 hair clip, 1 superduper big bag and my monthly dosage of contact lenses! wah!! This is so sinful ah!! I need to save MONEY!!!! =p

Nessa darling was not feel the best of her mood and wanted to drink. So we headed down to clarke quay (the clinic ) to chill out. We tried out the beer, cocktails and shots there. It has been so long since I drink hard liquor can but it feel good to relax myself sometime also. We had some crazy fun there, thats y I think girls outing is so fun (especially when it is me and vanessa, lol~!) Din managed to capture photo of both of us, but got a photo of the shots we drank, it is pretty la! And the waiter (the one that insisted that we cannot be single, lol!) was nice enough to give us a shot of pure chocolate to dip the strawberries! Heavenly! =D Hope my nessa darlingx is feeling better ! *hUgs*

Isn't it pretty?? =D

..::Photos::..

Alrighty, check up the crazy stuffs we did yesterday while waiting for our turn to take the shots!

Me and Yun Zhen Jumping!!!

JUmps and more JumPs!!! (this time with xiu ting)

Xiu Ting and I trying to act moronic !! (ANd we did it, lol~!)

After all the actions, we are finally hungry! Makan time!!!!

One of the shots for the lantern dance, Guess which one is me (no prize for correct guess though! =p)
There are more photos from other camera and I shall post more when I got hold of it! My dear friends enjoy ur week!!! I am now missing someone! SOMEONE~! O.o

..:: SuPer BackAche::..

Went for the performance photoshoot at NTU yesterday. What a long and tiring day. The consequence of that is that I am have a super back ache and whole body ache now. All I can do now is to lie on the bed and rest. It has been long since I have the kind of adrenaline rush due to a dance public performance. I like this kind of stress and business! haha~!

I took some crazy photo while waiting for my item to be shot yesterday, shall post it up when I got it from my dance mate. =D I need a long good rest now. Was talking to Benjamin on msn and it seem to a lot of people that chinese dance is the type of dance that require the million dollar smile (that is somehow so correct! lol~~). Up to then did I realised how many times I ask for my dance kids to smile, haa! Those brats seem to make it so easy but when I was taking the shots yesterday, it was so difficult to smile naturely. Oh man! I have no idea what I am talking abt!~

Alway remember, it is not what we do when we go out, but the company that matters a great deal!

smilex kitty SMilex!!!

..::I cannot make myself relax::..

Have you ever have the kind of feeling where you are trying to sleep but you simply cannot cos your mind is filled with a particular person or event. The anticipation, the memories of the person filled your mind so fully so much that you are unable to relax the brain and fall into the lala land. Every beep or sound of your handphone make you startled and jump straight to your fullest attention and there go the rest of your sleeping. That is what I am feeling. I am so pricky now! =X

..::New LIfe, New Me::..

Sorry that I have not been updating this blog for a LONG LONG time. I am currently in holiday before I am entering my third year in NUS. Nightmare is finally going to be over soon! Up to date, I am quite pleased with my results in year 2 and I shall continue to work harder for my third year.

Relationship wise, I am back to single. Many people ask me if I am sure about my decision about the break up. I dunno what to tell them, but that a break up really clear up a lot of doubts in my mind that lingered for a long time. Time shall tell, if we are really meant to be together, we will, even after 10 years! O.o I am now catching up with a lot of my friends that I have lost contact. True friends are really quiet angels that will alway be there for you when you have problem remembering how to fly. => I thank god to betroth me with many of those.

I am back to intensive dance trainings for the august concert and have been receiving many many blue black on my knees and leg. I get ugly feets and leg cos of dance!!!! oh man~~~~ I look like I was being abused~ lol..

I am free free free, in mind, in physical, in my dream , my passion! I am going to make myself to be happy in my mind and life. My friends~ DATE ME OUT!!!! =D

I wanna watch KUNGFU PANDA and i am rotting from all the waiting!!! DAMN IT!

..:: Dear DiaRy::..

One more week to Chinese New Year. I have certain feeling that time has been moving real fast and somehow everybody around me has either grown older or more mature. The past young childhood days has long become memories. Oh well, we all have to move on somehow right? =D

After this chinese new year beak , all that will flood me will be assignments and tests and reports. This is the right time for me to move back to my mountains and start my intensive revision very very soon! There is a question that has been surrounding me recently. I have alway wanted to work in goverenment sectors like Health Singapore Authority (HSA), A*star or AVA. However, I found out recntly that the job applicants for these few places must have at least a honour ( and a first class or second upper class one) and not a degree to meet the minimum requirement. Therefore, here I am thinking if I should continue my honours year. I have break my skull and my decision is I will depend on my current semester result. If I can still managed to pull my gpa, maybe I will take. If not I will finish my degree, go and work for 2 years and pursue my masters instead.However much details have to be found out on the masters before I can say anything more. My uncle asked me if I am willing to go and work in other countries if an opportunity knocked on my doore next time, I personally dun mind . But I dun think Andy will want me to go. I might just have to ask him one day! =S

It is funny how when you are young and you will do all sort of thing to make yourself work more mature and now that I have finally grown up I get affected when people say I dress maturely! lol~! Human are really weird creatures! Alrighty~, I got to go back and look at my gel result and do my analysis, while slowly tune myself back to the study mode. This semester is important!!! JIA YOU KITTY~!

If there is any ipbms students reading the blog, do give me some advice, it is so important to pursue a honours to obtain a good job in the society? thanks babes~! and I miss ya all! *muacks*

First Day Back to School

I have just changed the template of my blog. I have realised that since I set up this blog, I wanted to find and use a complicated template. However, now that I see again, I really prefer a simple template. So, I changed it! =D

First day of school has started and the battle is going to start once again. Went through the first lectures of "Molecular Biology" and "Metabolism and Regulation". Frankly speaking, both of the modules do seem boring but I decided to do my best and hope to pull up my GPA again. Hectic life is gonna continue, but I shall preserve for another 1.5 years. Now that I am thinking, should I take up Honours? hmm, CONFUSED!

Sometimes, I really wonder why girls can be so gossipy sometime. I mean there is a reason to why I fickle minded in my decision for what modules I want to take, but definately not because of companion. I wonder when they are talking about it then, did they think why is it that sometime people do not want to take the classes with them. Begones be begones, I shall not speak of another word now that I had bitch it out here! Tomorrow is another early lesson for me again! So off I go to my bed! Wee~!

Relationship is back on track. However, many of my friends have broken up due to all kinds of different reason. Be strong my dear friends, will alway be there for you! Love ya all~!

FeeLings

Maybe it is time for me to get back to blogging. University life is not as fun as I perceived it to be when I am in Poly. Relationship is not as smooth-sailing as I thought too.

Is being a responsible bf that difficult. Why is it that he does not understand the matter that it is not that he cannot go out with his friends, but much when it is the correct time to do so. Maybe my life is really full of discipline and rules, but his life is only filled with play and fun but no sense of responsibility. I admit he may be a very sweet bf toward gf, but is being sweet good enough? Am I going to spend the rest of my life with a only a sweet bf but no accomplisment and all he want is to go out late at night? I have no grudges if this relationship is really to be ended. People or friends around me can preceived me as a unreasonable or fierce gf, I have no guilt at all, because I know that all that I have done is to make him a better person. Being in a relationship is not all about having fun, but also to plan for the future too. If I am not good enough a gf for him, please god, tell him to go find another one. Not that I can put down this relationship so easily but what is the point of dragging it when I know that this problem will surface again and again with no solution.

Whether this relationship will end or continue, I have no idea and I do not want to think so much. But he is the first I see that to hoax people with only one sentence :" dun be angry lahz". Do he really think that just this one sentence will work? And when I want him to be here by 3pm, it is not that I am army; on the side note, I am very very sad that he is comparing to army. Why can't he just say ok and try but NO, every single time when thing is not going his way he will just throw a NO and not try at all. Is it the same for this relationship too? A "No" and that the end of it?

Memories are made to be .....

A few days of blissful that lead to a disaster?

When u lose it, u lose it forever

Disappoinment kills off every positive aspects in a relationship. I thought I have found the person I really love and keep by myself for the rest of my life. But the disappoinments are really filling me up to the brim. Maybe it is me, maybe it is him. It takes two hands to clap.. but I think he is losing one that is willing to clap with him.

Just a note for him:

I never expect you to fetch me about, never expect u to buy me dinner. All i ask for this past one month plus is ur attention, ur sweetness, ur careness. Your decision and ur action never fail to add on to the already a lot disappoinment that is trap in my heart. You have the ability to make me feel xinfu, but u have the capability to make me feel like a loser. Your friends, you may have all of them. I do not bother or matter anymore. Leave ur sweetness, attention, ur careness to them. Cos I will alway feel like a substitute in your life, only when u have nothing to do u will think of me. Last time, after ur friends is me. But now, after ur outside friends is ur army friends, after ur army friends, is ur game, after ur game is ur sleep, after ur sleep, is ur food. I never know where i stand. When i am free now t accompany u, u push me aside, telling me how important ur friends are. but when I am busy with school, u complain to me that i have no time for u. I really dunno what to do but let go. maybe that best for both of us.