LiFe caN be BeautIfuL

2010-02-22T10:20:00.004+08:00

Chinese New Year come and go in a blink of eye! March is gonna to be a tiring month for both me and shawn! Intensive timetable from monday to friday all the way to JUNE! Not to mention the crazy deadlines for the reports, essay, presentations, etc! May god bless me!

On a side note, my driving test has been booked and will be on the end of April. Hopefully I will pass my driving test with just one try! =D *cross fingers*

I did a personality test which I think is pretty accurate. It seem that that I really should not be bother with so much what people think about me. Whether they like me as a friend a not depend how superficial they are. Did they ever make the effort to know me better as a friend or did they just make use of me? Therefore, as long as my consience is clear, so shall it be. I am happy with my current groups of close friend!

2009-09-20T10:18:00.003+08:00

Alrighty, I know I have not been posting any post since eons. Pardon my laziness my dear friends. Current status reporting: I am still lovingly in love my with my baby boy, someone who never never fail to be by myside at all times! 10 months into the relationship and I really felt he is the one to settle down with! I have finally graduated from NUS ( I know it is a bit long already) and is currently working as a contract teacher in Bowen secondary school.

A lot of people have been asking me why I chose to go into the education line when I am taking a science course. Well, all I can say is I am looking at the future promotion in my career and I really do enjoy my current job. So yea, people embrace the job you love. =D Kids can be really naughty but they are really adorable too!

I have been realising that a lot of my friends are getting engaged and settled down in their love life. COngrats wen yan on getting engaged, again, I know it is a bit late, but still best wishes from my side !

The next time I am looking forward to is the dec getaway with my bf to thailand! With the all food and shopping to do, which girl will not get excited? Furthermore, this is the first time since Primary 4 that I will be getting on a plane! WOoHOo!!! I just simply cannot wait~~ DEc come faster Dec come faster!!!!!! =D

2009-05-13T15:52:00.003+08:00

I have finally finish my 3 years of studies in NUS! After much struggle, I finally took up the offer of contract teaching from MOE. I will be trying out the teaching line and determine if it is the route that I want to go through for the rest of my life. I have heard a lot of negative comments being a teacher, long working hours, unreasonable parents, naughty student, blah blah blah. But I am going to experience all those myself before I rule out the possibility of being a teacher. Plans to further my studies will be ongoing, but I think I will step into the society and learn the harsh life lessons first! Honestly, I am scared about the change in my life, I am a person that hate changes in my life. But I shall take thing in the stride and face them bravely.

As for now, I am enjoying my holiday. Meanwhile, I am also settling the loans, and alot of small small admin stuffs that are nagging down my neck. =D I am loving my life to the max now! Next event to keep me busy in my family: my sister wedding!!! Shall go down and see her gown next week! I wanna get married too! what is my bf doing!?! lol ~ I still love you Baby !!

2009-04-07T22:11:00.002+08:00

SICK IN MY MIND~

I have come to a point in my life that I am so sick of it! Seriously, it is hitting the limit for me. Nothing bad has happen but the routine of my life is weighing me down. I do not seem to have a life at all. Out of the things I am doing now, how many of it am I seriously feeling happy when I am doing it?

I have no idea what is going over me. Hormonal imbalance? Emotional upsurge? Arghz. I hate it I hate it I hate it! I want my freedom, I want back the times when I am just 5 yrs old! Relationship between human is such a bitch! WHy is it that when a person grow up, one has to do thing with absolute motive? I am thinking yet too much again.

I need a calming pill, I need a good rest, I need my gummy bears! I need to go to the beach and listen to the nature and not the ugly sound of human! I need a day of absolute fun and relax! I need a good cry! I need a good laugh! and lastly give me a good shoulder to rely on to cry and laugh!

Enough of lamenting, back to my routine life. Pubmed, journal literature, studies.... blah blah blah.. ARGHZ!

2009-02-06T18:41:00.003+08:00

Chinese new year comes and go. I had a good start in the year, winning a bit of money via gambling.Baby and I went to the Ang Pao River during CNY eve! Had a wonderful time with Baby and went to catch a movie aftermath. Time for me to collect myself and ready to charge all ahead for my schoolwork from now on. Baby and I had decided to work HARD! We have started on our saving plan, although it is not going to be some big bucks but everything has to start somewhere right? *wink*

Priscilla and me

Valentine Day is coming! How are u peep going to celebrate the special day? A simple heartwarming dinner with my baby is more than enough. Besides that I received my early V-day gift, a new addition to my family: KorilaKuma~~[ Ko meaning Baby, rila meaning relax and kuma meaning Bear!] Saw this bear first in the arcade machines in Marina Square during CNY eve, knowing how much I like the cute little bear, baby went to search online for the name of the bear and the place that sell them in s'pore. Thereafter, the cute bears are welcomed into my hugs! =D

2009-01-08T12:07:00.003+08:00

Happy 2009! Holiday is coming to an end and school is starting for me again the coming week. I totally enjoyed my holiday with baby. Activities done were kite-flying, bbq, strolling at the beach, cycling to come too. Life was never so fulfilling in any of my past relationship. Promises made were carried out and I am living everyday with the widest smile on my face every single day.

Spent a quiet christmas eve with baby, went out for dinner with baby's family, then went back to his house and snuggle up in the bed counting down to christmas between both of us only. Christmas gift from him was a U.R.S bag that I wanted and a surprise that will be kept between us only. All I can say I am shocked once again! lol~ New year eve was spend having bbq with baby's friend at Pris condo! All the preparation and smoke were crazily fun just becos he is by my side =D. Afterwhich , me and baby, allan and gf plus louis wth gf headed to ECP to see the red flares that are shot out from the ships at the strike of 12am. Ended the day with porridge for supper b4 heading home to slp! Was so tired! =D

I have decided to take up my honours year since I can predict that the economy for 2009 is going to be very bleak and hopefully by 2010 it will get much much better! CNY is coming and I cannot wait to spend it with baby. Every quiet and simple moments are made to be so magical just becos of his presence! DUn tell me that I am in love, becos I clearly know it myself I am SO in LOVE! Take a peek at the photos below:

2008-12-22T00:08:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of posts in these recent month. I have been busy enjoying my holiday. This holiday may simply be the very last holiday that I will get to enjoy in my studying life. Results are going to be out in another 1 or 2 days time and I guess all NUSrians are all equally nervous. Hopefully everything will go on fine and I can make my decision to either to enter the working life or continue my studying path.

Busy enjoying my holiday with my boy. Every moment spend with him is simply so wonderful. Security was never a close friend in the dictionary of my past relationships, but in this relationship, it simply come so naturally. I really do not know if this feeling is going to be there forever, but all I know I am really enjoying myself. I hate people to stick their nose into my choice of my bf. There is a reason why I choose Shawn as my bf and reject others, there is something special in him that others do not have. Recalling how I met him to how i get together is really a wild roller coaster ride, so exciting yet so thrilling. I think I am so addicted to him! One month 12 days since we got together and still ongoing! =D

An advanced merry christmas to all my dear friends!

2008-12-01T23:36:00.004+08:00

Exams are finally over and I am officially a free girl now! The one week was terrible but becos of the presence of that someone care and concern and never ending sweetness, I endure through it pretty well. Will not say that I am really confident with my exam, but what done is done and all I can say is that I had tried my best! And like what my dad say, as long as I have done my best! =D

Friends to lovers , Lovers to friends. I guess destiny simply has its way to play around with us. I am with Shawn now and I have never felt as more blissful ever. The type of security, the amount of caring and understanding, the way he protect over me, simply make me feel like a princess. He kept to his words, I do feel like the happiest girl in the world. When I am with him, I simply felt that I am in my own world and nothing else matter. People tell me that I am in love and i guess I really am. I love Baby! =D

2008-10-29T23:44:00.006+08:00

I am sorry toward somebody. SOrry if I inflicted any hurt on you. I am attached and I know this fact affect you drastically. Thanks for the care and concern you showered on me. Thanks for the times where you worried about me when I was having gastric pain. I guess being friend is definately the best solution between us. Time will heal up your wound hopefully. I am sorry once again.

On the side note, I am having a major brain block on my world history essay. I need some plumbling in my brain! Damn it. It is simply not a good feeling to reject someone! I need my CONCENTRATION! *focus*

Btw, Happy birthday Fabius! Next birthday on the line: MINE!!!!! I want to eat seafood!!!

10 years of friendship and still going strong. =D

2008-10-16T20:38:00.006+08:00

I had an emotional ride these few days. Is it just me that is feeling it or is the toil of the long hours of activities hitting on us? Friendship can something be so fragil. I dun wanna to mention or try to mend it, if it is meant to, it will meant to be. What are friends exactly? Maybe I am too soft and easy to be manipulate. There is a reason why I am so to friends, but I guess time has come to decide which friends to be harsh to then.

I need a few long hours of sleep, with a long nice warm bath and a a trouble free mind for the next 12 hours to ease my tensed up body and mind. I am frustrated plus exhausted. I need my peace, my inner peace. I am going to lock myself up from the world of entertainment and friends temption for the coming one month, only people that deserve my attention will get my attention. PEROID.

"Lovers who love truly do not write down their happiness."

2008-10-11T22:49:00.002+08:00

Wonderful saturday! =D Although I was still not feeling well, I still turn up to teach tuition. Another two weeks and I will say Bye Bye to the tuition center. I will be free on Saturday!! Friends that want to date me out! Now I can finally make it on a saturday afternoon~~, you people must be happy right! =D

Met RJ dear for dinner after tuition. I got my dougnuts, have been carving for it for sometime. Plus the fact I promise to buy for my younger sis to eat. Tomorrow is gonna be a LONG day of dance and assignments~! Looking forward to thursday for SENTOSA~~ it better dun rain.

Had a talk with my tuition boss and my decision on my future seem to get clearer as the days go by. With the economy going in the downfall , I doubt the timing of me coming out into the society is going to be the best choice. But we shall see yea, thanks a lot to all my friends that had given be suggestion and opinions on the science industry. I miss you peeps.

~ Life is never easy, we just have to take it in out stride. ~

P.s: For those that are interested in the post below. I never mention that the story happen on me AGAIN! haha~! thanks for all the concerns though!=D

2008-10-09T21:46:00.003+08:00

The consequence of hectic time table, burning midnight oil to study and lecture everyday is to be sick. I have been sneezing for the past two days like nobody business! I have a premonition I am so gonna be down with fever soon! Been stuffing myself with vitamin C these two days, hopefully it works!

Tuitions are all coming to an end soon. And it is my turn to start studying for my exams! Half a year more before entering the working society. Is it good or bad? Hmm.

History of me and L has been repeating again and again in my life. Nat laopo, stay strong yea! Remember, you are doing just great. For those people that do not understand what I am trying to say.. you can try asking me, provided I am willing to fill you in with details! =p

2008-10-05T10:48:00.002+08:00

Thanks to someone for listening to all my blabbering and patient enough to ease my stress, though I am still very stress! Thanks for bringing my happy pills! =D I really appreciate it.

Shall only return for a longer post after all my crazy week! Take care meanwhile folks~~

2008-09-30T20:23:00.003+08:00

------------ ---NOVEMBER BABY ------------ --------

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate anddangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towardsyour inner and outer beauty and independentpersonality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in acrowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, thegreatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

I am missing someone's hugs! Boy, you make me dizzy!

On the side note, I will really like Ophionos to reveal who are you! I have a person in mind possible of him. Thanks for the motivation and support no matter who are you . I will live happy and well for sure! Once again, please tell me who are you!

2008-09-29T22:59:00.007+08:00

Went for the fish spa + foot massage with nessa, Doreen and Henry that day. What an invigorating first time experience. But this is really fun, despite the ticklish part as I am super scared of that. Simply look at the face of mine in the pic below, I am trying hard to bear the tickling!!!!The aftermath of it, a pair of super smooth feet! haha!

Went through my tuition center interview smoothly and the only thing left to decide is if I want to take up my Honours studies. Hmm, mind too blocked up to think so I shall just keep in view first. I think I will just attend the student physco course first~! =D

On the side note: Happy one month darling~! (dated back to yesterday) Haa~! Irritating me decide not to greet that stupid boy the whole day until he tell me first. Anyway, be ready to tolerate more of my nonsense! =D

"Rome was not built in a day" =) Jia you!!!

2008-09-27T22:18:00.003+08:00

All the stress from my tutees, assignment, test and upcoming exams are making me sick. And I really mean sick. The sore throat, fever, headaches are haunting me down! I am really afraid history will repeat itself. I certainly do not hope to be seriously sick again during my exam period! Not only it cause trouble to my mum but I am sure I will screw up my exam. So from today onward, I shall me a good girl to take my daily dosage of vitamin B complex and tonnes and tonnes of water! I will drink like a HIPPO!

My primary 6 students had their last session of tuition with me just now and I really hope that they will do well for their PSLE! My lovely students, I will pray for you all! lol~! Now, I will have to concentrate on my Pri 4 and 5 classes and sec 3 cousin!

I had a good day with my laopos last night. Had yet another wonderful night out, outing alway seem to be fun with them by my side. Anyway, 3 of us went for KTV and we only paid for 2 person worth! The waiter really seem quite pervert though! haha! Nat laopo, learn to smile k! We will support whatever decision you made and stand by you! *hUgGies* Wen laopo, good luck for ur FYP and I really hope you will find your true love soon! And I will heed your advices to not bother the comments made by some sick puppies! =D

I need a good sleep soon or I will break down! Time, give me more time!

I want my escapade again~~!

2008-09-25T09:02:00.008+08:00

Tough time comes and go. But things seem to hit on hard for my dear nat laopo. My dear, stand up high and strong. Let the man know that he had made a wrong decision. You are a wonderful girl and I am not the only one that commented on it. I know it must be hard but trust me you will have my support and I know you will be smiling in no time again right? Love ya babe. Remember what you told lao po wen:"You can live without somebody" We will live for ourselves ok? *hUggies* Ditch that Bleeding love!

Wednesday comes and go. Simple as it may seem to a lot of people, the time spend together is precious to me though. Friends ask me if I am sure with my decision, friends get worried about me. But all I want to say, trust me my friends, let me fall hard and strong if my decision is wrong, but I know all of you will still be there for me. =D

I have been through many r/s and I have seen a lot fo r/s through my friends. One thing I see is that all exs have negative thoughts about their ex. But I don't understand why some of them simply want to make thing difficult for the current gf of their ex. Is saying things to make the person irritated pleasing to you? hmm~! I never know. I bless you Andy and Iris. Stay happy and sweet together.

Why am I so busy when this is suppose to be a recess week for me? Busy but happy! COntridicitng right? But thats me! okay, back to Microbiology b4 heading to Sentosa!!!!

Parts of my beloves in my life! Ain't I glad I met them ! =)

Love is two sided, it depends on how you look at it!

2008-09-22T17:28:00.002+08:00

Finally a recess week to all NUS-rians. Enjoy your week my beloves! As much as we understand that once the week is over, the exam craze will be chasing us behind, the feeling of not waking up early and the long traveling time make me elate for a spontaneous moment! WooHoo! So much said, I will be going back to be studying for my Human Physio revision after blogging this post~

A very Happy 22nd birthday to my Doreen darling! Babe, I know you must have enjoyed your celebration with Henry. Really hope everything goes smoothly and I shall see you two engage next year yea! *loVes you* and let meet up real soon~~~

I am looking forward to Wednesday~! =D

Small gestures, unintended sweet nothings. Everything are enough for me to fall into this man.

Trust is what I behold now. I pray that this fragil belief is there to stay.

2008-09-20T00:57:00.002+08:00

Wedding dinner, absoutely love the atmosphere. I am happy for my cousin, may them stay blissful for the rest of their lives! New additions to our family yet again! =D

Small boys do not excite me. Oh man! Do I look like i am 16 or 17? Whatever! My term break excite me more! Despite the fact I still gonna mug for my human physio and microbio test and assignment. But at least I do not need to wake up early and travel all the way back to school and I will get to meet my nat and wen laopos! miss them dearly!

Down the road, we shall walk hand in hand! =D

2008-09-17T22:52:00.003+08:00

Cramps and mugging seriously is the worst combination that someone can get in the divine world. If I faint upon tomorrow test, somebody please get me an ambulance! I totally do not know how to describe tiredness now as it is not something i can explain in words! Give me my weekend fast!!!!

I need a supporting shoulder now to lean on!

Immunology test down by tomorrow ,
Microbiology report to rush by friday
Microbiology and Human physiology test upcoming weeks
World History CA essay upcoming
Human Physio Assignment nagging down my neck!

What a mess I have gotten myself into!

Breath!!! ~~~Stay strong KITTY! O.o

2008-09-16T22:02:00.004+08:00

..::All about actions::..

A lot of times, love is about action and not just speaking of it. A surprise and it is enough to make my heart melts and smiles all day. Thanks RJ Dear~! You made my gloomy day into one that I have sweet memories with! Induglence received today!

Is it just me, or is she really a threat?

2008-09-15T19:17:00.002+08:00

..:: Blackie reporting::..

I swear that when I say that I am a sun uv ray absorber, I am not lying. I went swimming with my sis for an hour this afternoon and I turn out to be tanner by one grade again. Arghz! It took me near to 5 to 6 years to get fairer then, now one hour of swimming return everything thing to me. WONDERFUL! It is high time to find another exercise to burn the bloody fats in my body beside swimming.Maybe I can try running like RJ dear, but to start with, I dun even have a decent running shoe! lol~! But to come to think of it, will I have the determination? No matter what i will try it out. =D And anyone has any recommendation of any body whitening cream???

I was pretty emo yesterday. Guessed the stress of school had taken over me yet again. This kind of thing happen to me every sem at least once when all the reports, tests, assignment, reading, lecture notes and deadlines just simply come piling and crashing down on me. Pardon me my friends, to those that tried to talk to me yesterday I snapped back at. =p But I am feeling all righty now with the swim to destress myself and my optimistic character to start off with [I made this choice to study this bloody life science course anyway O.o]. No matter how stress or hard the route is in front of me, I am gonna smile and perform well! I believe in myself!

Although much said, I need my ice cream to destress !!! Which kind soul wanna date me out for ice cream!!???? Ice cream nv fail to make me happy! =D

GO KITTY!!!!!!

2008-09-14T14:24:00.002+08:00

..:: Alive and Kicking::..

A lot of people have been asking if I am okay and why is that I have not been updating blog.

Don't worry my beloved! I am alive. Alive and kicking.

Sorry for the lack of updates as I have been busy with school and some stuffs.

In fact, I have been experience happiness a lot recently! =D

I will try my very evry best to update yea! Meanwhile, remember to continue to miss and love me my beloves!

Alrighty, I should be back to my immunology notes! Damn, they are just so killing me!!
Btw, I am still thinking if I should take my honours year! The contridicting opinions I have been getting are meshed up in my puny brain!

Is jealousy the source of all troubles in a relationship?

2008-07-21T23:54:00.002+08:00

..:: I Love My MuM::..

Slacking at home the whole day today. As usual, Monday is alway a rest day for me after the crazy time table I have in the weekends. Was bored after watching like 5 episodes of Gossip girl, I decided to paint my finger nails and toe nails. My cute mother kept insisting that I am going on a date tomorrow since I am usually lazy to paint my nails myself. I love my mum! Maybe I shall date her out instead! Gee~! By the way, on the record, I am not going dating ! Maybe meeting nessa darling for a swim tomorrow morning so thatI can have a nice slp at night. Do not ask me what is bothering me that I cannot sleep cos I will not say. =p

2008-07-19T01:02:00.004+08:00

..:: How lOng can the sweet Dream Last?::..

I find it funny how guys try to know gurls using the same old pick up line. "So, How have you been?". " Hey, you look like one of my friend". "Hey, not out on a fri night?". "Hey, how life?". Presently, I am really sick of entertaining those guys and I just want to be myself. Cum'on, I can live without guys. Furthermore, after a nasty ungentlemanly action of a guy to strand a girl out in the street at 5am, I had enough. Why can't some guy just take rejection gracefully! It is so frustratingly annoying when the person you want to have attention with just treat you like granted but people you wish not to have interaction with to pester you everyday. I do not agree I am downright pretty or attractive! Please leave me alone! I had enough~

Enough of some nonsensical babbering to sastisfy myself. I promised Doreen darling that I will update my blog and here I am. My life have been pretty routine, surrounded my lovely care and concern from my darlings and kor~ and also with my dance. Nothing much to update beside the additional bruises I got from the seeminly continuous non-stoppable cherography trainings. One more month to school start and I can forsee a harsh battle awaiting me with all the tough modules! Oh man!

The below paragraph is specially for Kalene:

Kalene dear, I have no idea if you do read my blog. Please thanks for being such a darling dear and stand by my side no matter what happen. If there is one true friend that I have found in my University life, that will be you. You have no idea what a gem you have been and how you alway lighten up my mood whenever I see you in the long hours of lab practicals and mindless tests and horrible exams! Seeing you sitting right in front of me and giving me the big sunshine smile nv fail to wipe off half of the anxiety I have when I enter the examination hall. My dear, do know that no matter what happen you have me by your side. I really love you girl! *hUg*

"Smiling seem luxurious to me"

2008-07-07T18:15:00.002+08:00

..::Nonsensical whining~::..

At many times, there are some things or words that you feel like doing. But deep down in your heart you knew that it is not the right moment and patient should be your next best friend at this kind of moment. Though so, the anxiety inside myself is reaching a boiling point. Insomnia is something I experience. oH gosh! I simply have no idea what I am talking. I can only hope that life can be kinder to me! Happiness and committment seem to come hand in hand? But why is it that some people simply fear committment so much!

Whatever though, I received invitation to be social escort. Hmm, people guess if I agreed to be one? haha~! I need more happy moments in my life! Shall update on the outing with my secondary school gang when I got the photos! =D Being so, I am still happy with my life! Contridicting eh! Life is contridicting!

2008-07-03T17:28:00.004+08:00

..::HapPy lUcky Day::..

I started off today with a wonderful notes and I think I will end it with a wonderful wonderful tune. *lalala* Nessa dear will know why! haha~! Anyway, I receive a call from Catherine, my long never contacted close friend in Seconday school. I am so glad that she is doing very well in term academically and also emotionally. Sorry dear that I was not around your side when you were in some serious emotion roller coaster in your previous relationship. I really hope that you will receive all the blessing in the current relationship k! Remember the overall package seem nice! haha~! Cannot wait to meet up with you next thursday, I am sure that we have a lot of things to talk about!

Another happy thing that happen to me is that I finally found the long lost book of my cousin! SO many long lost stuff today la! But seriously the book is some chinese novel and some old prints therefore, it is very difficult to find it in the book stores in town. I tried searching for the book in different bookstores for the past one week and none of them seem to be still holding the book! I am so glad that I found the book! The funny thing is guess where I found it? Under my bed! yes under my bed! Alright, I know I am very kuku!~ But my friends all should know that I am a very very blur person! so yea! I am so glad that I found the book.

Beside that I had a good talk with nessa dear and we are finally meeting doreen darling next tuesday when she is not flying. And nessa dear is staying over my house again next tuesday where we will go book our basic theory on wed! I am so excited! Woot~! so many things to do!!! Alrighty, I am off to prepare to go out le wor! my dear friends, Please enjoy the week and may God bless you all! Cos I certainly know he is blessing me with all the loves! =D

This is an old photo that me and nessa dear took a few year back! yea! Time to take new photo when I meet her again! Weet! =D

2008-07-02T00:26:00.005+08:00

..:: Wonderful outing with wonderful company::..

I went on a very gentleman trip today with my god bro. When I say he is gentleman, I really mean it. Beside him paying for all the expenses from movie to dinner to sky train and the songs of the sea entry fee to sentosa, his every little gestures really show how much a gentleman he is. I really do think that his future gf or wife will be really a lucky and xin fu woman. So any of my single gf interested? I can intro! haha~ Anyway, the songs of the sea is really damn cool man, beside the lame story plot, I am really impressed with the standard of technology Singapore can put up with. After that went for a small walk with kor around sentosa, it was really fun la but it is really very humid. Therefore, I suggested to head back for vivo for some dessert before heading home. Wanted to treat him to ice cream, but silly him insisted for me not to spend so much and we settle for some sago ice in food court! [to say the truth, i din spend a cent the whole day man! -_-] Anyway I just want to thanks weiye kor for being there for me all the times. I have known for 7 years and ongoing and whenever i have trouble, he seem to just pop up like a genie. He understand me inside out and stand on the belief for me to be happy and not get hurt. Thanks kor! You are really important to me in my life!

Something random. I just got bitten by ONE stupid mosquito that I cannot kill in my room at 8 locations on my legs and hands in just one morning la! Stupid mosquito disfigure my hands and legs la! I am bent on finding the tootie mosquito and KILL it lah! this is so itchy!!

Some photos I took with kor! HapPy haPPy!!! =D

2008-07-01T13:08:00.002+08:00

..::What does your bday say about you?::..

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

I think it speaks very true about me. My dear friends, you all can try it! =>

2008-07-01T01:41:00.005+08:00

..::Happy happy!::..

I had an enjoyable day today. Made myself very happy for the following reasons:

1. I had enough rest after my tiring weekend of tuition and dancing.

2. I watch an enjoyable movie with an enjoyable company tonight[caught 21].

3. I am looking forward to watching the sea of song at sentosa! [kinda outdated that I nv watch it before since it started].

4. I am watching Zohan tomorrow with kor and chilling at Cafe Del Mal most probably.

5. I am feeling much light hearted and happier emotionally!

6. Received a sum of money from the govt!!! wahahaha!~

I just realised that I am really a busy person actually. Beside dance and tuition, I seem to have a lot of wedding and birthday celebration to attention in the coming months. All these are filling up my weeks very full. I cannot imagine what is going to happen once school start! oh man!! I still have so many people I wanna meet but I simply have no much time eh!

GOD, PLEASE MAKE MY WISH COME TRUE!! [confidential between god and me! =p]

2008-06-29T18:29:00.003+08:00

..:: Come come, support me!::..

My intensive dance training is getting more and more intensive! Great. Now I have dance cheoro on both wed, thurs , sat and sunday . Bless my legs, I think that they are gonna rest in peace soon!!! But I am enjoying myself.

Nat lao po had a rough time in rs just like me. I shall not elaborate in the details as it is a long long long story. All I wanna tell her is that laopo, please stay strong and know that I and wen will alway be here for you just like how you were here for us all the time. Like I mentioned in the sms, you two are god sent gifts to me! If there is no one to appreciate you, I will definately be the first one to stand up for you! *hUGs*

I am so looking forward to Tuesday outing with Weiye kor la (you are finally back from Taiwan)! I can finally get to see the music fountain in Sentosa la! and watch movie!!!! =DDD Loving my life~

So much of me dancing:

Wu Yue Dance Studio Arts Troupe is proud to present our annual dance concert, Dance Image '08. This year, we have taken a bold step to incorporate the elements of media and dance to illustrate issues concerning the global climate crisis. We warmly welcome you to join us in this exciting venture and take the opportunity to appreciate chinese cultural dance in a whole new dimension.

Venue: Victoria Theatre
Date: 23rd (Saturday) and 24th August 2008 (Sunday)
Time: 800pm(23rd) & 300pm (24th)
Prices: $12, $15, $20
Do let me know if anyone is interested in going for the show k! =D I will be performing in 3 of the items. Come'on people, chinese dance is more than waving fans! =D

2008-06-27T00:57:00.005+08:00

..::Emotional decision made::..

I am calming myself down today and decide upon my future route emotionally. Sadly I realised that for the past 10 over years, I have been constantly been attached. I devoted my time to my partner, yearning to be the good other part. But how is it individually have I grown? Where is the self confidence and comfort zone I once was so sure of last time?

I do not understand how I can get so insecure with myself. Therefore, I have decide to do things that I yearned and like. I am going to pamper myself for the sake of myself, learn things that I have longed for a long time. I am going to be more independent and the first step I am going to step out is to go learn driving.

In and out of relationships, it is amazing how guys can do bastard things and hurt girls. Not gonna elaborate on it, it sure be kept locked in my heart and with an iron lock, I have decide on what to do. I pray for myself to have the discipline and the courage to carry it out! I need to love myself more.

"Call me on the phone today

Said those words u always say

And I cry

Gotta figure out

what's going on inside this head of mine

I'll try "

2008-06-25T12:55:00.000+08:00

..:: Shopping, Drinking at Clinic!!::..

I am alway thinking how come some guy never knew how to treasure a girl when she is there for him and caring about him. ANd yet when the girl start to give up on him, he keep saying that he loves her. What good is it to mention it just in words and no actions. I bet a lot of girls have gone through this kind of process. Oh well, guys, remember to treasure the girl that is there for you k! Because she really loves you den!

Went out with nessa darlingx for shopping and chill out session. Waited for her to complete waxing before shopping and somehow I got into the situation that I have to go with her the next time she is going for waxing again! OH man! what have I got myself into!!! Anyway, my raid of the day: 1 top, 1 hair mask, 1 hairband, 1 hair clip, 1 superduper big bag and my monthly dosage of contact lenses! wah!! This is so sinful ah!! I need to save MONEY!!!! =p

Nessa darling was not feel the best of her mood and wanted to drink. So we headed down to clarke quay (the clinic ) to chill out. We tried out the beer, cocktails and shots there. It has been so long since I drink hard liquor can but it feel good to relax myself sometime also. We had some crazy fun there, thats y I think girls outing is so fun (especially when it is me and vanessa, lol~!) Din managed to capture photo of both of us, but got a photo of the shots we drank, it is pretty la! And the waiter (the one that insisted that we cannot be single, lol!) was nice enough to give us a shot of pure chocolate to dip the strawberries! Heavenly! =D Hope my nessa darlingx is feeling better ! *hUgs*

Isn't it pretty?? =D

2008-06-23T16:37:00.001+08:00

..::Photos::..

Alrighty, check up the crazy stuffs we did yesterday while waiting for our turn to take the shots!

Me and Yun Zhen Jumping!!!

JUmps and more JumPs!!! (this time with xiu ting)

Xiu Ting and I trying to act moronic !! (ANd we did it, lol~!)

After all the actions, we are finally hungry! Makan time!!!!

One of the shots for the lantern dance, Guess which one is me (no prize for correct guess though! =p)
There are more photos from other camera and I shall post more when I got hold of it! My dear friends enjoy ur week!!! I am now missing someone! SOMEONE~! O.o

2008-06-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

..:: SuPer BackAche::..

Went for the performance photoshoot at NTU yesterday. What a long and tiring day. The consequence of that is that I am have a super back ache and whole body ache now. All I can do now is to lie on the bed and rest. It has been long since I have the kind of adrenaline rush due to a dance public performance. I like this kind of stress and business! haha~!

I took some crazy photo while waiting for my item to be shot yesterday, shall post it up when I got it from my dance mate. =D I need a long good rest now. Was talking to Benjamin on msn and it seem to a lot of people that chinese dance is the type of dance that require the million dollar smile (that is somehow so correct! lol~~). Up to then did I realised how many times I ask for my dance kids to smile, haa! Those brats seem to make it so easy but when I was taking the shots yesterday, it was so difficult to smile naturely. Oh man! I have no idea what I am talking abt!~

Alway remember, it is not what we do when we go out, but the company that matters a great deal!

smilex kitty SMilex!!!

2008-06-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

..::I cannot make myself relax::..

Have you ever have the kind of feeling where you are trying to sleep but you simply cannot cos your mind is filled with a particular person or event. The anticipation, the memories of the person filled your mind so fully so much that you are unable to relax the brain and fall into the lala land. Every beep or sound of your handphone make you startled and jump straight to your fullest attention and there go the rest of your sleeping. That is what I am feeling. I am so pricky now! =X

2008-06-19T22:20:00.001+08:00

..::New LIfe, New Me::..

Sorry that I have not been updating this blog for a LONG LONG time. I am currently in holiday before I am entering my third year in NUS. Nightmare is finally going to be over soon! Up to date, I am quite pleased with my results in year 2 and I shall continue to work harder for my third year.

Relationship wise, I am back to single. Many people ask me if I am sure about my decision about the break up. I dunno what to tell them, but that a break up really clear up a lot of doubts in my mind that lingered for a long time. Time shall tell, if we are really meant to be together, we will, even after 10 years! O.o I am now catching up with a lot of my friends that I have lost contact. True friends are really quiet angels that will alway be there for you when you have problem remembering how to fly. => I thank god to betroth me with many of those.

I am back to intensive dance trainings for the august concert and have been receiving many many blue black on my knees and leg. I get ugly feets and leg cos of dance!!!! oh man~~~~ I look like I was being abused~ lol..

I am free free free, in mind, in physical, in my dream , my passion! I am going to make myself to be happy in my mind and life. My friends~ DATE ME OUT!!!! =D

I wanna watch KUNGFU PANDA and i am rotting from all the waiting!!! DAMN IT!

2008-01-28T10:22:00.000+08:00

..:: Dear DiaRy::..

One more week to Chinese New Year. I have certain feeling that time has been moving real fast and somehow everybody around me has either grown older or more mature. The past young childhood days has long become memories. Oh well, we all have to move on somehow right? =D

After this chinese new year beak , all that will flood me will be assignments and tests and reports. This is the right time for me to move back to my mountains and start my intensive revision very very soon! There is a question that has been surrounding me recently. I have alway wanted to work in goverenment sectors like Health Singapore Authority (HSA), A*star or AVA. However, I found out recntly that the job applicants for these few places must have at least a honour ( and a first class or second upper class one) and not a degree to meet the minimum requirement. Therefore, here I am thinking if I should continue my honours year. I have break my skull and my decision is I will depend on my current semester result. If I can still managed to pull my gpa, maybe I will take. If not I will finish my degree, go and work for 2 years and pursue my masters instead.However much details have to be found out on the masters before I can say anything more. My uncle asked me if I am willing to go and work in other countries if an opportunity knocked on my doore next time, I personally dun mind . But I dun think Andy will want me to go. I might just have to ask him one day! =S

It is funny how when you are young and you will do all sort of thing to make yourself work more mature and now that I have finally grown up I get affected when people say I dress maturely! lol~! Human are really weird creatures! Alrighty~, I got to go back and look at my gel result and do my analysis, while slowly tune myself back to the study mode. This semester is important!!! JIA YOU KITTY~!

If there is any ipbms students reading the blog, do give me some advice, it is so important to pursue a honours to obtain a good job in the society? thanks babes~! and I miss ya all! *muacks*

2008-01-15T22:47:00.000+08:00

First Day Back to School

I have just changed the template of my blog. I have realised that since I set up this blog, I wanted to find and use a complicated template. However, now that I see again, I really prefer a simple template. So, I changed it! =D

First day of school has started and the battle is going to start once again. Went through the first lectures of "Molecular Biology" and "Metabolism and Regulation". Frankly speaking, both of the modules do seem boring but I decided to do my best and hope to pull up my GPA again. Hectic life is gonna continue, but I shall preserve for another 1.5 years. Now that I am thinking, should I take up Honours? hmm, CONFUSED!

Sometimes, I really wonder why girls can be so gossipy sometime. I mean there is a reason to why I fickle minded in my decision for what modules I want to take, but definately not because of companion. I wonder when they are talking about it then, did they think why is it that sometime people do not want to take the classes with them. Begones be begones, I shall not speak of another word now that I had bitch it out here! Tomorrow is another early lesson for me again! So off I go to my bed! Wee~!

Relationship is back on track. However, many of my friends have broken up due to all kinds of different reason. Be strong my dear friends, will alway be there for you! Love ya all~!

2008-01-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

FeeLings

Maybe it is time for me to get back to blogging. University life is not as fun as I perceived it to be when I am in Poly. Relationship is not as smooth-sailing as I thought too.

Is being a responsible bf that difficult. Why is it that he does not understand the matter that it is not that he cannot go out with his friends, but much when it is the correct time to do so. Maybe my life is really full of discipline and rules, but his life is only filled with play and fun but no sense of responsibility. I admit he may be a very sweet bf toward gf, but is being sweet good enough? Am I going to spend the rest of my life with a only a sweet bf but no accomplisment and all he want is to go out late at night? I have no grudges if this relationship is really to be ended. People or friends around me can preceived me as a unreasonable or fierce gf, I have no guilt at all, because I know that all that I have done is to make him a better person. Being in a relationship is not all about having fun, but also to plan for the future too. If I am not good enough a gf for him, please god, tell him to go find another one. Not that I can put down this relationship so easily but what is the point of dragging it when I know that this problem will surface again and again with no solution.

Whether this relationship will end or continue, I have no idea and I do not want to think so much. But he is the first I see that to hoax people with only one sentence :" dun be angry lahz". Do he really think that just this one sentence will work? And when I want him to be here by 3pm, it is not that I am army; on the side note, I am very very sad that he is comparing to army. Why can't he just say ok and try but NO, every single time when thing is not going his way he will just throw a NO and not try at all. Is it the same for this relationship too? A "No" and that the end of it?

Memories are made to be .....

A few days of blissful that lead to a disaster?

2007-05-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

When u lose it, u lose it forever

Disappoinment kills off every positive aspects in a relationship. I thought I have found the person I really love and keep by myself for the rest of my life. But the disappoinments are really filling me up to the brim. Maybe it is me, maybe it is him. It takes two hands to clap.. but I think he is losing one that is willing to clap with him.

Just a note for him:

I never expect you to fetch me about, never expect u to buy me dinner. All i ask for this past one month plus is ur attention, ur sweetness, ur careness. Your decision and ur action never fail to add on to the already a lot disappoinment that is trap in my heart. You have the ability to make me feel xinfu, but u have the capability to make me feel like a loser. Your friends, you may have all of them. I do not bother or matter anymore. Leave ur sweetness, attention, ur careness to them. Cos I will alway feel like a substitute in your life, only when u have nothing to do u will think of me. Last time, after ur friends is me. But now, after ur outside friends is ur army friends, after ur army friends, is ur game, after ur game is ur sleep, after ur sleep, is ur food. I never know where i stand. When i am free now t accompany u, u push me aside, telling me how important ur friends are. but when I am busy with school, u complain to me that i have no time for u. I really dunno what to do but let go. maybe that best for both of us.

2007-01-05T16:45:00.000+08:00

..::tHings a BoyFriend shOuld do::..

- Sneak up behind her

- Grab her by the waist

- tell her shes beautiful

- tell her she has amazing eyes

- when your friends walk by say this is my girlfriend

- Say i love you to her face not overthe phone or myspace

- if shes sad take her in your arms andtell her everything will be okay

- kiss her on the forehead

- when you walk with her walk slowly.

- Tickle her even when she says stop

- Call her just to say I Love You.

- Don't be afraid to hold her hand in public.

- Dont say i love you Unless you MeanIt.

AnGie darling, if you are reading this, I dedicate the above to you ok! Please learn to stay happy in a relationship and dun let urself get hurt again and again. Find a guy that will really treat you well all the times and not the honeymoon period only. I know it is difficult to let go fo R... now but do you think you will gain more happiness being back to the happy, cheerful and confident Angie that I know and met in my Poly? Gurl, know that your friends are alway by your ur side no matter what happen okie! I still love you as much as last time, if it is so.. i will hold your hand in public and announce you proudly to my friends if we are walking on the street k! *cheer up my gem*

Christmas has came and gone, followed by new year, the next event, CHINESE NEW YEAR. hmm.. but CNY will never be the same as last time with my family problem and my grandfather passed away. Nevertheless, I have my boy to accompany me on those few days and not forgetting my weekend darlingxs.. haha! Let me see, Doreen, Diana, Darren, ALvin the joker... ... and many more. Hopefully my boy will not get guard duty on the few chinese new year, let me pray...Holidays are coming to an end and school is reopening yet again. haiz, talking about school made me sad seeig my result for semester 1 to be that bad. So bye bye slacking and it is serious time to work hard.. Pig and ngee jie advise me not to take up too many tuition assignments and concentrate more on my studies. Think it is pretty wise eh! lol! SO I am going to stick on to my tuition assignment and one more Primary 4 kid in TPY. A brand new start to a brand new year.

WELCOME 2007!!!

2006-12-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

..::HoLidaYS::..

Life cannot be any happier for me now!! haha~! HOliday, thats the big event. Finally, a whole 3 weeks of torture are gone. And there is something that I learned in this process and that is that birthday, sickness and examination really make a super duper bad combination. Neverthless, I am 20 years old le!! haha~! and I got my Anna Sui perfume!! haha, with courtsey from my boy friend! yippie... Btw, Thanks Catherine darlIng for still remembering my burfday, haha! I mISs ya a lot ger! *muacks*

mY pREsSie!!

burfday Ger wiTh preSsie

I love yoU babY!

Anyway, I was super sick, sown with fever and flu during the 3 days when I am having my 3 major papers, gRrRRr, it is really a torture man. But was really touched by my mum. She gotta work but still take care of me like a little princess, and so worried that I cannot go for my paper... *awW* thanKs muMmy, I loVe ya!! *muacks*

Now that the examinations are over, I am so going to relax and slack man. But the next sem aka battle start. Seriously I think Uni is super duper stressed, kinda of regretted going in. But thanks a lot to a lot of my friends that encourage me when I was feeling so down while studying for my examination. People like Angie, Wenyan, you gers are the best. I am going to continue my slacking period right now... lol!

*lOve loVe*

..::signing off witH HUgs anD KiSses::..

KiTty

2006-10-28T12:17:00.000+08:00

..:: Treat or Trick::..

A lot of people will be celebrating Halloween today, so it would either be a treat or trick. But i think god has chosen trick for me. A lot of thing wen through my mind yesterdea and today, why is it that bf has to be so possessive and suspicious of everything. I promise myself, I shall never look for another boyfriend that live in the shadows of his ex. Celeste lied to you going out with another guy, two timing you. Well, I told u i am going out with my friends.

Now i start to realised that I am spending a lot of time bwing with his friends and hanging out with his friends. In turn, I neglected my own friends. I put in the effort and nv grudge when you ask me to meet ur friends, why can't you do it to me too? you choose to go out with your friends, clubbing, enjoying, for 3 consecutive nights, while i am studying at home. No girls will keep mumb about it. Now that i only went out with my friends for a dinner and some fun, you keep saying i lie to you.

You say i turn back on my words. How about you? you promised me not to smoke but yet you did. I argued with you over it then i give in, cos i am scare of losing you. Do you feel the same way too. Is it that I choose to give in and that is how you treat me yet after. Life is rather tiring . Maybe his lifestyle is more to clubbing, knowing more girls, flirt around, have fun and being single. More and more now that the friends that he hang around with are all single now. you rather be single?

WHat excatly is that you want? making me confused and suffocated. I am very miserable here but do you know? I am lost and i need a listening ear, a helping hand, a shoulder to lean on. can u? but instead all i hear and experience is arguments and quarreling. My tears has run dry, where is the andy that is so understanding and willing to put in effort to make me happy? where is the andy that is caring and seem to be alway by my side? Is it true that guy dun treasure once they own it? God, please tell me what to do? Dun call me unless you have something sensible and definite to tell me... ... i am dead.. gone and vanised.

GONE

2006-09-19T14:21:00.000+08:00

::In LivinG wiTh cHemistry Lecture::

I am doing updating in a lecture now, mainly for one reason, the lecture is so damn boring. My study break is coming finally, but as the name implies, it is a study week and there are so many projects, assignment, essays and term papers coming up. I should seriously tell myself to study, too much slacking is not goof for moi.

Mummy has done her operation and i think that she is having a fast recovery. However, the financial problem int he family is still not solved yet. Hmm, I had just made a decision this moning and that is to prepare to hold a group tuition at home. The transport fee for going around to give tuition is just too wasteful and tiring for myself. More planning has to be done and I need to contact my childhood tuition teacher for some help in printing the paper and my boyfriend to help in getting those paper up around the few block around my neighbourhood. I shall now go back to my lecture and be a good ger. Will update again when I have the time k!

2006-09-15T02:04:00.000+08:00

..::Life is Tiring::..

After so many days of not meeting my baby, I finally got to meet him today. He is being very sweet, despite my constant unreasonable action recently. His actions and his words really tell me that he loves me a lot a lot. Dearie, I am so sorry for all the temper as there is really a lot of thing happening within my family. I ensure that you are the one I loved and one that I really wanna treasure in my whole life.

School examinations are coming for all my tutees and all the parents are requesting to increase the number of tuition session. I am so tired everyday after dragging myself to school everyday and going to teach tuition after that. My friends say that I am crazy to slog myself so much, but all I can say is that if I am given the choice, I will also wanna be like them. To take money from parents and have no worries at all. But every family has their own problems and all I can say is that instead of procrastinating, I will learn to live with the problem and pursue my education just like how I had dreamt myself of doing university studies since young. To be able to study is like fulfilling my own dreams, so no qualms. I am suppose to go sleep now cos I have lesson tomorrow. Nevertheless, I am looking forward to tomorrow cos I will get to see my dearie. Hee, Good night my dear friends!

2006-09-15T01:57:00.000+08:00

..::Life is so tiring::..

2006-09-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

Life is A chore...

I finally understand that schooling is indeed more tiring than working. Assignments and projects are breathing down my neck currently. I am suppose to be preparing for an oral presentation right now and yet here am i updating my blog! OMG~! well, I do need some enjoyment anyway. SOrry peeps for not updating my blog recently as I had some problem logging into blogger recently.

School has really been really busy and tiring. Tests are coming again . It is just so irony that when you are working you feel like studying and yet when you are studying, you feel like working again. Mum going for the operation tomorrow, may god bless her that everything will go smoothly for her. I am really worried about the situation in my family now, but I guess the best that I can do right now is to believe that thing will smoothen out as time goes by.

Baby has really been a sweet love recently and we are coming to 6 months in another 2 hours and 6 minutes. It is such a miracle how we got to know each another then (close friends would know how) and still be together for so long. This is the first time I have a boyfriend that make me feel so emotionally attached to him and make me feel that I cannot do without him. Darling, I really love you and I will learn to treasure you much better de.

HappY Advanced( 2 hours and 4 minutes) Half a Year aNNiversaRy!!!

2006-08-16T14:43:00.000+08:00

fInalLy some UpdATe.. LOl

School has started for me once again. Moving on from poly life to university life is really a nerve wreaking process. Seriously, I would have thought that Republic Poly system was bad enough, but when I start to work around with NUS balloting and bidding system, I simply nearly committed sucide. School had started for about 3 days now. Today is Wednesday and I am at home, having no lesson, hee! Poor Vivian still has to go back for a 2 hours lecture.

Lectures are simply boring, maybe it could be due to the fact that it is the first lesson and all the lecturers seem to be propaganding me about how important is Chemistry, thinking skills, genetics, blah blah blah. But I really do thanks a lot of people in order for me to sucessfully get into university and I have promised myself that I will not let down these people. Saying so, I will work hard and try to get into the honours programs, doing my best and trying my best! Darling has been really supportive toward me attending school. Thanks a lot love!

Five months with my boy and he surprised me with a bouquet of 12 roses. Gee! *shy* I was really surprised as I alway have conversation with him on how he did not get me any flower before. And to date, that is the biggest bouquet of flower I have ever received. We went to took some neo print at Cineleisure after that, met Sharon, Jeffery , Doreen and Alvin there. We 6 kukus tried to take neoprint together despite we did not really know how that particular machine works! LOL, in the end, hmm, you can guess the quality of the masterpiece. Anyway, I will post up the photos as soon as my darlign scan them and send to me. HaPpy 5 MonThnivessary darlIng... Looking forward to more!

I have stopped working at Pool fusion then, gotten my pay yesterday. Thus, I have decided to wash off any matter with regard with that stupid company. Despite so, I truly hope that the case of the lost IC can finally come to an end. My life can revolved around my school, giving tuition, my family, my friends and of course my beloved Boy. I will also be updating more often now that I have more time in front of my lappy! Life is getting better but stressful as I can foresee, may my passion and strength lie with me to overcome the obstacles.

To dear Angie, Congrats on the engagement girl. Hope Remy can really give you the happiness that you have been searching for so long. One more thing, try to understand him yea, staying i hostel do post a lot of problem to couple, but work with him to solve them. May you two have a blissful future.

To the woof woof in the tagboard, whom I have no idea the person is. If you want to woo girls such as angie from my blog. I am sorry, she is engaged. I do not appreciate non constructive comments too. Be it my english is good enough, it is my business and maybe you really think yours english is really good? Think twice yea! Do not throw your own face. One more thing, this is MY blog, I can choose the type of english I want to type the entry, so what I like internet language and singlish leh? what can u do lehz? BUZZ OFF!

2006-06-23T11:40:00.000+08:00

**University UpdaTes**

Time for some updates again. Hee, sorry folks for the lack of updates!! Anyway, I have received the reply from NUS and I am posted to Arts and Social Science. Apperently, I was ready to give up a month ago, thinking of taking physocology if I am going to take up Arts and social science. But I decided to try out appealing even though the chances is so slim. I was so happy when the Vice-dean of Biological Science called me up and asked me to go down for a talk. Hope sparked up again after the long hours of discussion with him and advices. I had to make a trip back to Republic Polytechnic to retrieve some documents and I must really thanks Dr Jasmine Heng and the other staffs for their prompt reaction and helps in my appeal. Just last week, I received that my appeal is Successful!!!! I am so happy, I am admitted in Life Science of NUS. Thats excatly what I want to pursue. Thinking about the whole event, I really got a lot of people that helped me in this appeal.

I got to thanks Hui Ying for the so many times to accompany to NUS to hand the so many damn appeals and forms, thats what a true friend for! *winks* Thanks Professor Chan for the chances given to me. Thanks Dr Jasmine Hang and the RP staffs to help me in my appeal in a way or another. Thanks my bao bei for being there for me to encourage me throughout the whole process when I am feeling low and negative. I feel so blessed! gee

2006-05-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

**I havE gRadUAteD!!!!**

I have graduated! haha~! yea finally, I have received my diploma. Really glad that my effort paid off for the last semester of my three years in Republic Polytechnic. Managed to graduate with a diploma with distinction, my advanced diploma and also a module award for genomics, was rather surprised, but an unexpected monies of $100. => Went for the ceremony and saw a lot of my friends there, think it is going to be pretty long before all of us have any chance to meet out together again like that. The school played some video that made all of us so emotional. Really enjoyed my poly friends, made some real friends and gone through some up and down in it. Think I am not gonna forget about this memories yet so far. Some pics below took with moi friends.

tHe dance Gers!

tHe gers With two Army Props! lOL!

mE and JoaNne~

Jia LoNg and mOi!

tHe preTty gers

MosT of The SAS people!!

me ANd naTalIe laoPo!! *muacks*

Me N vaNessa!

Another thing, Happy 21st birthday my darling boy!! I am sorry that there is only so little I can do fro ur birthday yea! Hope you will enjoy my company and also the cake. Anyway, I cannot wait for spend tomolo with him. Shall update more about it tomorrow yea. Hopefully we will take more photos.

Before I close this entry, just something for the girls in Australia. I know all of ya are being very stressful to keeping up the standard for ya high distinction and everyone of ya are stressed. But I really hope things are going well for all of u. It is so difficult for all of us to meet together and get to know each another, we spend so much time in SIngapore struggling while everyone is having holiday, and that where our bond is build. I really hope that if there is anything displeased within all of ya , talk thing out and treasure the friendship and the bond it took time and pains and efforts for us to build for two years! I really miss all of ya and good luck for ur exams! Work hard and I believe that your efforts will be paid off! (",)

2006-05-13T13:01:00.000+08:00

**lEt Me COMPLAIN**

Come to think of it, no one seem to understand the agony of me working at this stupid company. Not my family, not even my boyfriend. All they tell me is how bad the company systemis how shrewd the boss is and stuff. COme on, I mean, I can see and feel all these myself too can't I. WHy can't anyone of you stand in my shoe and understand why is it that I am biting my teeth and still go to work everyday.It is not about choosing to do the thign I like to do anymore, it is to support for my family in any tiny part I can. Is it helping that theya re angging around my ears every single time they see me? I doubt so. Rather, wun it be comforting to have someone by your side to encourage and comfort you instead. ENough nonsense from work and in turn i becoem the one to comfort them that I know what I am doing and ask them not to worry about me. *gRrR* I need a breather too!

Spent the two month anniversary with him. Everything on the surface look so wonderful, he did a lot of sweet things. But why do I feel a tinge of unieasiness the whole night? He sighed a total of 7 times, when asked it is alway nothing. *haIx* I dun deny that I am tired, but who dun when you chatted into the wee hours of 3am the previous night and wake up at 9 to work till night? I am only human. I hated it when he sensed something is wrong and all he do is to sms other people. He thinks I did not know that, well simply, my observational skill is not that bad. What the need to sms other people when the person of concern is just lying beside you? Feeling bored, tell me what you wanna me to do? I am really speechless and I really dunno how to handle this situation. He seem like a deep ocean, there is so much of him I do not know, his past and stuffs. He is feeling bored, sad and uneasy, all I feel is useless. I cannot make him happy any time I want just like his ex, with just the choice of words she use.

I think I am not useless, I am who I am. Accept or release it. I am not one that allow other to push me and manipulate me with. Darn irriatted by the whole thing. Come to think of it, is there a hidden meaning behind the question he asked me last night in the cinema? " Are we compaitable?" Darn him!

..:: If I lay here, would you just lie with me and forget about the world?::..

2006-05-11T13:29:00.000+08:00

**New LIfe New ConTentmeNts**

On the demand of my cute boyfriend, I gotta post a photo of him and me together here. Btw, we are coming to two months and I am feeling really happy together with him. Really sorry about the lack of updates my friends, been really caught up with working and spending time with my dearie. I gotta my acedemic transcripts and I passed with diploma with distinction. Haa, I am so happy, at least all the hard work I had put in was not gone to waste.

I went for the SIA interview and now left with the last round. Pretty much ina dilemma, but think I would go for the last interview before deciding on what to choose for my future. Sorry for the short update, but let me compensate with some photos k! Gee..

Btw, ANgie, Wenyan and Clar, if you three see this entry, remember to inform me when u gers are back in singapore k! We go makan so singapore food and I miss u gers so much. Bring some photos back and good luck for all ya exams. Soar with your dreams! =>

Now for some photos:

thats me and him!

Thats me in KabaYa!!

Thats all Folks!!!

2006-01-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

Living On bravely~

The worst way to miss somebody is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can't have them.

For those who understand what I am saying, good for you~! Anyway, I have learnt to move on after all the threatens from Xian Keng. Thank Jie Mei!! and forget about the dumpster k! hOhohO! All I am asking now is to concentrate on moi studies, get into university and get myself busy with dancing bahz, in this way my life will be happier.

p.s : xk ah... forget about mx too k! u deserve better too!! haha~! thanks for travelling down all the way to seng keng to find me!! *touched*

Deep down inside I know i will not give up, but maybe friends is stilla better choice for both of us. God has all the plans for us bahz! Things are getting complicated in moi life and I feel it is only going to get worst, but thanks Pig, Ngee Jie, Janice and Xian Keng to be alway there for me. Like what all peoplesay, you will only know who is ur true friends when you are in need. =)

2005-12-02T13:11:00.000+08:00

** FRuITfUl dAYs**

I am been spending fruitful days for the past few week, mainly working at Big Boyz Toyz, training for my dance, having my dance examiniation, dance performances and not forgetting about celebrating my birthday!! hee!! Really busy but really well-spent!

I was working at the Big Boyz Toyz exhibition can Expo, pay is rather good, $10 dollar per hour. The experience is really fresh as I have to dress up as an angle, gee *stop luffing you!!* while my friends has to dress up as cowgirl, devil, cheerleader and nurse respectively, mainly characters that guy fantasy about. Expo is damn cold and so many of us fall sick, now getting better le hopefully. Anyway, if you dress up like this and walk aroung the IT exhibition to give out flyer, so many phtotgrapher will come and ask to take photos of you, it is so weird!! I even has people giving me cards of modelling agency and ask me to be model, but HELLO, I am like 160cm only?? hee... Some photos:

The gers without me~!

mE and sham

Dance has been super busy. I have been training like mad in preparation for my CHinese Dance grade examination, which took place at 24th November. A big burden seem to be off my shoulder once I had finish it, now what left is the result le. But news don't seem so well, apperently, my instructor has already got our grade and she mentioned that the examiner has super high expectation on my grade as it is the last grade of the CHinese Dance grades. Oh well, think I will not hold too high a hope to obtain good grade! =P On the other hand, school dance is fun, we just had a performance in school in view of hosting the Japanese students that came our school and that are all so cute. The guys and gers are simly so warm heatening, they are so not shy and kept asking the dance people to take photos with them, so kawaii!!!! Now the next upcoming performance will be the open house performance and it is also going to be the third years last performer in school yet.. so hmm, suddenly feel so sad!

SOme photo of us and the Jap students!!

My birthday was spent working in the morning and the afternoon, but I really want to thanks everyone that greeted me and make an effor to remember my borthday. I am so touched. AT night dear TRY to organise a surprise cake cutting but he did not realised his acting damn poor sia!! haha~! but I do appreciate his effort thanks alot!

Next up will be thank you list:

Darling for being so sweet and organise the suprise cake cutting ceremony! *muacks*
My family members who are alway so dear to me!! ( jie for the bag and ray for the Fox T-shirt!
Catherine dear for calling me all the way from Thailand to wish me happy birthday!
Wenyan and ANgie for coming down for the celebration so late and the PooH!!
Celine and DIana for the sweet pink top and celebrating with me.
Vincent, Andrew, Angelina, Nana, SImon, Wilson, Junyi for coming down and celebrating with me.
Weixun kor for the sms greeting!
Lynal for the waffle as cake?!? *gee*
Sham, Vanessa for working with me and ur greetings.
Markus for the msn greeting.
Wei Hong for the late greeting. =P
All that wish me and I really cannot remember le... really thanks a lot friends, you all made my day special!! *muacks*

2005-11-07T12:26:00.000+08:00

..::WondErFUl 2nd AnniVersaRy::..

First of all.. Happy 2nd anniversary my love!! yep.. two years had flown and I am still happily attached to my boyfriend !!! hehe... and he gave me a total sweetness, total surprise celebration. He booked a room at The Gallery Hotel. Well, it is said to be awarded the Hippest hotel in Singapore. The design of the exterior and the interior of the hotel is really nice but the only thing is that the toilet and the size of the hotel room is rater small.

hMm.. okay.. at first dear told me that we are going to a poolside resturant to eat our lunch and it is at the 5 floor, while we are walking to the pool, we brought me to the room. This is not the most surprising part, the most surprising part is that he went there much earlier and uses rose petals and design a heart shape on the bed.. it is really so sweet, realled melted... hee!! After that we exchanged our gift,

his gift to me: a plant tree, it is something grown sithin the capsule, named victo representing luck and victory. The cute part to it is that it actually grow, we will just need to water it once every three days. Darling bought two and each of us has one each and we hung them on our handphones.. so nice... i simply will stare blankly at it haha!~ The other gift my hunny gave me, a handmade closet that store the whole set of the winnie the pooh family, it is simply so adorable, imagine a guy make it himself, the effort of him to even think of the idea is simply endearing... dear asked me to write how I felt about the surprise he prepared for me at the back of the closet, but my house has no nice marker to write, so I gotta buy one soom.

My gift to him: a box which comprises of a tin of sweet, a total of 484 handfolded swans (we counted it together.. hee) , and a sweet cross stitch for him. SInce it is our anniversary, I am think of doing something together ahh, and thus I did not fram the cross stitch and instead we are going to have it framed together and put it in his roomy!! Really glad that dear dear like what I made for me, being financially bounded, this is the best I can do le!! hee..

we went to makan the Bu KU TaU at mohammad sultan road, the one famous for all the clubbers.. haha~! it is really yummy, full le, we bought some snacks and two bottle of Barcardi Peach and went back to the hotel room and slack le. I had so much fun bathing too, I got my bubble bath, to add spice to it, I added the rose petal *winks* smells wonderful~!!! haha!! Really had a loving and wondeful day with lovey that day!! The morning next day, I finally ate my longed craved breakfast buffet after some hiccups, but overall, I will think the hotel is pretty goodie... and best of all, I spent an unmemorable anniversary with my love one....

pixs we took:

mE anD darlIng

Rose petals on the bed

cuTey Victo =p

poOhy pressie

wIth DoOr opEn... ...

rosy petals in bath tub!!!

roOm.. ...

Overall, I will really love to thanks my darling for being with me for the past two years, enduring all my nosense and temper. Noone understand much better than he does and he alway has his own ways to make me laugh and be happy when I am feeling down and sad. Really glad to find a boyfriend like him, can settled down le.. haha =p... hope my darling really like the gifts I made for him. We will be together with more anniversaries to come and I will stick to him forever!!!! *muacks*

2005-10-24T11:48:00.000+08:00

+[[models are ugly!!!]]+

My sister is one of the organisers for the annual elite models competition. Watching the tv show like American Next Top Model and other shows, I alway had the impression that models are women that have wonderful body and angelica face, BUT!! But after looking at the photos of the finalists of the Elite Top Models, I really think that the standard of the women are really.... hmm, only one or two are pretty. Come to think of it, the models are normally extreme thin till they look like slogging their back, so ugly,with some super drmatic make-up, is it due to their ugly faces? bleahs, ok.. I have nothing against model and I do admit I had saw some really pretty models, but the standards I see now... hmm!! Go and take a look my friends: http://www.elitemodellooksingapore.com/blog_main.htm

Think you can look at their blogs too, some pretty funny with nice photos too.. Go take a look~!!

Preview of some of the finalist:

Tan Yuxiu

Renee

Shi Yun

Sarah

Samantha

XiaoYun

Jessica

Amber

Brenda

Amanda

Kayleigh

Watching the Cancer charity show now while typing this entry, come to think of it the nkf issue had been over for a long time, but i think that the memory of what happen still linger on people minds, cause looking at the figures jumping on the television now, it is like so slow. Hopefully the show can be success bah, can really see that the celebrities put in a lot of effort into this show.

By the way,

ANYONE STAYING OR KNOW PEOPLE STAYING AT PASIR RIS DRIVE 3 TO 10 BLOCK 633 TO 737 OR BEDOK RESERVOIR BLOCK 726 TO 738 ??? please contact me... my dad is doing this job on conducting sort of a survey and need to find people staying at these places. Please help me k!! *winkz*

2005-09-30T09:35:00.000+08:00

..:: dUsty PosT ::..

Think I am being cursed and swared by a lot of people of being lazy to update my blog... gee... how everyone know what a lazy blogger I am... =P Furthermore, I am addicted to a Korean show, DA CHANG JIN... so damn nice and touching.. *sob soB* but anyway, I think i will update my blog before someone hold a chopper and run after moi!! *hOhoHo*

First thing first, Think i really very long never update my blog le, why the page for the create post become so weird. The option portion is so blardy long and weird... is it the blogger is down or is it only myself is weird? hMm...

Anyway I have handed in my FYP first draft le...one big burden off my shoulder, that why I have so much time to watch my vcd.. hOhoHo.. Hopefully Doreen can faster correct and hand it back to us... though I dun have much faith in her though!! Even thought my FYP is more or less done, the next thing to do will be PP, but somehow i just cannot find the motivation to start doing it.. haiz... plus my tutee PSLE and final year examination are all coming up.. so worried for them... *pRAY haRd*

When to do protein treatment for hair again with Clarissa, Wenyan and Sham... I kana the weird weird stylist but he seem quite nice even though he like dunno what to talk man.. *lOlx* But the funny thing is that the stylist manager, D*****, sms me and ask me out for a movie... I was like "what the" ... haha!! Now I really must have the second thought when I am going down there again.... I must go down with one BIG group... wahahah!!

School going to reopen next week le, but the strange thing is that the result for the last semester till now is still not out yet.. I really hope that I can get at least 2As for the result. Proteomics understanding test 4 result is out le... and I get a ... *drumroll* A .. yippy... now I can forfeit the first C i gotten for the UT 1... Phew... now really hope to get into a good class for next semester, din really enjoy some of the classes I attended last semester, torturing to even think back.. but anyhow... good luck to myself bah!! *cross finger*

Anyway, befor I end this post I wanna dedicate somthing to ANgie:

Ger... I know that you wanna people to encourage you so that you have the strength to hold on to your decision to hope that Shuan will turn around one day. But seriously, like I told you, it is really very heartache to see my dear friend to be so sad and heart broken... I really hope that you can be happy and lead your way. This might not be what you wanna to hear but seriously my dear... listen to your heart k...but whatever you choose, I will support you. But the main thing, is dun regret your choice and follow ur heart. Without a man.. there are still a lot of sistas outta standing by your side de!! *jia You*

2005-09-07T14:32:00.000+08:00

Not going to update soon until I finish my fyp report... I am really stressed now, meeting with lots of datelines and plus ipbms!! *bless me with the strength to conquer all these*

ANyway I have a wonderful day with my boyfriend today, sweet sweet him!! =D

Okay.. check back here in three weeks time bahz!! *bleah*

2005-08-25T12:10:00.000+08:00

+ uPdatEs... upDaTEs..UpdAtes...+

Hi peeps... long time no see le.. I have been pretty lazy in updating my blog, mainly because of the busy and hectic life I am living in now. Everyday to go school, after that gotta do my fyp lab session, when I reached home after the long day, the moment I lied on my bed, my eyes seem to close automatically. Nothing wow happened between these long peroid, all that happen are school, fyp, dance, study understanding test, sleep, eat, and do nothing....

Anyway, I realised that time really flies really fast, another 5 months or so, I might be not in Singapore and at Australia to pursue my degree. The plan of internation program of biomedical science seem to have offered to me like a year so ago and now, all the planning at takeing place now. Asked my dad about the bank loan, knowing about the financial problem that my parents are undergoing now, I really do kind of thinking twice before really deciding to go ahead with the plan. However, daddy say by sept he would know if there is a need for bank loan, seeing if his business deal work out or now.. *prAY haRd*

School has been pretty tiring, the problems are getting more and more labour intensive.... and more thinking involved. Nothing much to say in school, but thanks to a bunch of great friends, school is not that irking afterall:

Angie: my forever gossiping and talking buddy... been teaching me to pon school!! *tsk tsk tsk*

Clarissa: being in the class mean more talking, been fun talking to her.. loVe yOu ger...

my FYP mates( beside clarissa, there is wenyan, wanyan and sham):

Gers.. you guys made my days... times when we fall down in the planning and execution of our fyp.. we are alway together and work together.. I will nv forget you guys...

And to all the friends in my different classes, been great learning with you people, get to know some new people this sem too, such as jialong and kelly.. they are fun... The semester is ending already le, in a flash of light, my three years of poly life is coming to an end.. i will really really miss these day!!! *mUacKsSSss*

2005-08-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

why is it that all boyfriends will expect their girlfriend to go their house and pei them? I dun understand why is it that Eugene cannot even think of a simple thing like angie boyfriend... to see dogs?? or even plan a day for picnic? All he think is to go his house? oh Man.. I understand that he has no much money, me too! if ever he will understand how I feel... i feel like i am alway the guilty one and alway the one not putting in effort. Is it my wrong that I have dance, have UT, i am not feeling well, I have to do FYP that I cannot accompany him? I thought we have already thought about it during our second year that I am gonna be super busy if I am going to take up the ipbms, plus all the PP and FYP we have to do in order to gradate.. he say he understand ! I mean come on.. so this is the way he understand and will support me? i cannot only say one thing! BULLSHIT~!!! arghz!!!!

2005-07-04T13:27:00.000+08:00

+[[stressful SchOoling]]+

Weekend has just passed in a wink of eye. Another round of week with early wake up and stressful classes. Bioinformatic test tomorrow, I had already studied le, hopefully it really did paid off worh!! Somehow I feel that the test is going to be very difficult. The past understanding tests grades are mostly out le .. and seriously, they are not up to my expectation a bit ... Told my boyfriend that somehow I felt too stressed and I cannot study well under such conditions. I feel so useless and stupid all of a sudden. Luckily he is alway there for me, comforting me and telling me to work harder and not to give up. I guess what he said is right too, everyone has their up and down in their life. I hope that my understanding tests grades can be better in round 2!! I am gonna work hard for it~~

Another 13 days, and it is the day for the prestation for my final year project. What is the worse thing, I feel so unprepared.. is everyone feeling this way too?? We have not even gone through a round of trial presentation at all.There are so many back ground knowledges that I haven read up on and reading up on the literature at all too. Gonna be a busy week ahead for the preparation for the final year project le.. But one thing good is that after the preaentation, thing will not be so tense le.. I just gonna prepare to do my PPM and also my final lab report. I am changing my PPM subject though. Hopefully I can still change the submitted proposal. =p

I am giving up one of my tutee le, somehow I felt that teaching too many students does affect my result and my preparation for my final year project. I cannot afford to risk any possible failures for this year, thus I gave up le. Instead, I will be teaching dancing at my primary school bahz.. I will not be getting much money, however, I will be doing something I enjoyed and I will be gaining experience if I wanna be a dance instructor next time.. Mum is pretty vexed over the financial problem that the family is facing now and that hopefully dad can clinched the deal so mum will not be so stressed! *praY haRD*

I pray hard that everything will go smoothly for me.. seriously not hoping for more, good grades for myself.. family can settle down ... me and darling can still be as sweet as now... hopefully I will be able to get a scholarship.. if possible, to get in a local university, if not Monash... but really feel bad that dad and mum is spending so much on me! I really must prove myself and not let them down!!

2005-06-27T13:12:00.000+08:00

+sOme uPdates+

Haven been blogging, and wenyan is complaining! My dear princess, I am updating now~!! wahah~! okok, basically holiday has ended, and what have I been doing in the holiday? one word: studying.. so pathetic loh, luckily I have a fun class and we were crazy during lesson, although we gotta study, we had fun too eh!!

okay... some back updating for my weekend!

Saturday:

woke up early cos I had a performance early in the morning 11am, and there is a rehersal early in the morning 8am.. hmm, luckily daddy fetched me over, back in my primary school performing, kinda of bring back a lot of sweet memories, from the childhood spent there to all the bad times, quarreling with my classmates and such. To think back now, we were all so childish, but I think everyone has their share on this yea!

The performance went on well, although very rushed, but can see that it is still a sucess and I finally did not make a mistakes in my jump routine!! wahaha~! Maybe stress does help my instructor was near to curse me in the rehersal le! bleah =p Saw my junior dancing, they were just so cute, can you imagine? they are wearing the costume I wore when I was in primary 4 taking part in SYF.. really nothing to say, but tears really did welled up in my eyes thinking back, how much I miss those times, where i was so carefree and study was a breeze.. hmm..

After performance, I was so damn tired, darling came over my house and pei me... dad and mum and my younger sis went over to KL with my uncle till so sunday, so that left me and jie at home only. Slack the whole day with baby, cuddling and resting the whole day. Thanks love, I really had a great day ! with you, every moment is precious!

Sunday:

Woke up early with jie saying she is going out le, the whole house left me only.. suddenly I feel that I miss the normally hated nagging from my mum, the normally detested irritating younger sister and the normally bullying daddy come and ka jiao me... The whole hopuse just feel so weird without them. I started to realised how much I need my mum and dad... feeling so lonely, but what to do, so I decided to play some game after studying for my Proteomics UT.. the stupid game made me restarted the whole game for full 3 times, just becos I forget to save or I died... slacked the whole day at home myself, ate my dinner and my family is FINALLy back...

While I was bathing just now, I heard the nagging from my mum and I can't help smiling to myself. I love this family, although other people find it nothing special, they are so dearing to me... If some one is to exchange them with the whole fotune the world have, I still want them! School gonna start tomolo again, hectic lifestyle gonna go on and on for the next few months, haha! be back on blogging again worh! For now, I am tired le, going to rest soon and call my baby to tok to him, I miss him again.. geez (=P)

2005-06-13T15:16:00.000+08:00

++wOnderfUl suNday++

Had a lazing but wonderful Sunday today. It is really a blessing to just have your sweetheart to be just by your side and laze around the day with you! gee~! Darling come over my house as I cannot go over his due to my grandfather pass away, hmm.. anyway save the explanation. But this piggy took so long to come till I fall asleep waiting for him!! wahah~! Anyway.. the main purpose to come down is to prepare the sambal sotong for the BBQ tomorrow. It is the NIG camp tomorrow and baby seem so nervous about it.. silly him, I am sure everything is going to be just great!

After darling reached my house, we went over cold storage to buy the ingredients, hmm, although it is a simple trip but we had lot of fun buying thing together, it kinda of remind me of the old times when both of us are more free and we alway prepare dishes together.. it is real fun!! haha~! In the end, we realised that we bought too little sotong, so everyone gotta snatch tomolo loh!! *cover mouth and laugh loud loud* looking forward to the BBQ session tomolo worh!! wahaha~!

After that we just slack in my room, while busy darling get busy with his camp admin things. Was rather sad that he is so busy and cannot pei me, but sweet sweet him put down his things and came over and accompany me.. cuddling with him make me feel so wonderful and loved!! hmm~! so xin fu.... Had KFC as our dinner and a simple conversation was going on. Everything today seem so simple and plain, yet this has a sugar coating all around it, so sweet and wonderful! A simple SUnday yet so many emotions pack in it!! Lazy darling is only packing his bag now when his camp is tomorrow!! why am I not surprise?? wahaha! hopefully he will miss anything! and i look forward for more sweet weekends spent with him!! I really really love him!! Tomorrow has lesson again!! haiz... but a day with my baby made me feel motivated again!! HerE I come!!! (",)

2005-06-12T05:02:00.000+08:00

++ sOme updateS!!++

Holiday come le... but lesson is as per usual for me... Dunno what to type here also.. no mood to write.. All I can say is stress is overwhelming me ahhz~! Hopefully that I can pass by this period smoothly, hmm.. may the god bless me..

The lab work for FYP is finally coming to an end.. hmm.. *relieve* but more to come, we still have a presentation to work on and a personal report for myself to work on.. but somehow I think the relationship with my team mates can be better.. there is no reason that if you do a lot of work you have to show an attitude to other people.. although we all understand the hard work you had put in and that you know a lot of stuffs, it is no choice that I cannot come ah.. would like like people to treat you like an outcast just becos you did most of the work? what is a team for? I wonder you u all understand~! haiz...

Got dance soon le.. will update again if I have the time... really little update recently.. but overall I am getting on well and I am rather happy with my relationship, my studies, my dance and my family.. Hopefully daddy can get the business deal so mum will not be so xin ku!! Hopefully god will bless the whole family ah!! On the last note~, I miss my grandpa.. I hope that he is getting on well on the other side of the world! Ciaoz..! and I love my boYfriEnd!! *muacks*

2005-05-22T04:55:00.000+08:00

=[[ May tHe foRce be With yOu]]=

Starwar craze now, nv watched science fiction shows before, but dar dar intro to me and damn! now i am addicted to it already, watching episode 1,2,3,4,5,6.. all crash tutorials from my boyfriend, but it is really nice, people! you all should go and watch!! *anakin is so cute when he was young!*

I realised that love can be hurting too, talked to my boyfriend at esplandna yesterdea, and I dunno y i suddenly cry. but the thing is that, although it maybe hurting, what matter is after that, we are still as sweet and loving. my silly boyfriend decided to come my house and pei me.. I really can see the effort he is trying to make to come my house and pei ever since I complained to him last time. so sweet horhz.. geez* i still love him! *muacks*

wiLL update more when I have the mood worh!! at the mean time, may the force be with all of you! *lightsaber show up* i am rdy to fight and fight on on my studies!! oh my, I dunno what I am talking about~ ciaOz...

2005-05-17T14:40:00.000+08:00

=[[ swEet swEet whIspers]]+

out of respect to my boyfriend, I decided to keep the past post private... Thanks for all the kind words from angie and clar.. =) you guys make my day.. But thing has clear up between boyfriend and me, we are still as loving as ever.. something he say that make me so touched:

Boyfriend:

dear...do u noe how much i love u mah?

Boyfriend:

my love for u exceed any of my ex-gfs..n more than any other person i ever loved

What he say make me ponder for a moment, and I realised how much i actually depend on him. ANd how much sunshine he has brought into my life when I was at my most depressed peroid of time. How he encourage and love me like a princess, how he make me believe in love again.. how he shower me with love and alway give in to me, how we enjoy doing things together, how we talk, laugh, joke, play and do everything together.. it kind of rekindle and remind me why and how much i love him and need him~! SorRY babY~~ i love you!!

Tomolo is the genomic test le, I screwed up my proteomics test le, hopfully genomics will nto be that bad!! *cross my fingers and hope for the best* I hope wenyen and clarissa will be crazy together again~ there is no overnight hatred in close friends my sisters~~ open ur hearts and allow other people to go in k! i love you two too!! *muacks*

2005-05-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

+[[aLl i caN saY is I aM tiRed!]]+

FinaLLy the week is ending and all the frenzy seem to be going to end.. this whole week is a disaster.. one CCA launch and all my dance mates and I are tired to the max.. Have been staying in school for MOnday and tuesday to clean up our steps, as late as up to 10pm in school... luckily it all pay off, our steps are much better and that the performance yesterdea was nice except for the hiccups from the technical side, i somehow dun understand why the school can't plan a proper stage performance, making everything so confused and disorganised. we were all prepared on time, being 12pm, and have to wait for a full 30 to 45 minutes for a stupid mike!!
-_-'' oH well, anyway, well done for my dance members, will try to stream in the video we took into my blog and let everyone see k!!

CCA launch might be coming to an end, but my FYP is gonna be busy again.. Haiz, all that we have done that time seem to be giving us a very good results and doreen is complaining that we are not being initiative enough. oh wEll, think we gotta meet out one day and discuss all the detail my team members, hopefully we can come up with a good one, going to start the experiments frenzy once again, all the cell culture all the nicotine treatment! geez... might be tored but kinda of looking forward to it as we team members are fun.. and miss them tonnes, now being all of us in the different class! I miss wenyan crazy talk and gossipign with her, I miss sham crazy tokking and screaming.. i miss clarissa ger talk.. i miss wanyan hugging with me.. i miss all of them!!

School is busy as usual, third year is really tough .. oh man, all the modules getting tougher and tougher, more and more competitive... a whole day down the road after finishing lesson, I am really dead tired, but gotta push myself for my tuition lessons or for dance and stuffs. my tutee are all having their mid year exam soon, i hope they can score well.. Mei mei is okay, a hardworking ger, love her to bites.. shuan is good too, better now than last time.. my another tutee, shall not go into detail but all i can hope is that he can pass his exam =X

I am gonna have another performance for my dance outside at suntec for Vesak day... hmm, all the cheorograph gotta finish in 4 lessons, can i do it? i hope so!! *wee* in June there will be another performance for my chinese dance, preparation have already started since months ago. School is going to have a performance at substation during june too.. oh man!! all the performance coming up le~~ hmm...

Sorry that i have not been updating moi blog recently , cos I am really really very busy and by the time i reached home, I dun even feel like on-ing my lap top and just feel like sleeping... Will try to update more often ok my friends? meanwhile, take care and enjoy urself i miss all of you!!!

2005-04-29T14:06:00.000+08:00

+[[SuPer sHag]]+

Haven been blogging even since school start, all I can say is super shag. I have been having lesson for every day from mon to friday. No free days, no holiday.... recently, I just feel so tired whenever I reach home and I seem to be able to sleep in anywhere i go to. Nothing much to blog now cos I am super tired again and tomolo have lesson again. haiz... am I right in choosing ipBMS?? will I be able to take it for the whole year?? i will break down?? and man.. i love my darling and miss him so much!!! will blog again when I more awake bahz!! bye peeps!

2005-04-15T05:46:00.000+08:00

+[[heCTic HolidaY]]+

lOoking at all the year one in the school today, it is like an indication that holiday is coming to an end.. but i am questioning.. did holiday even started in the first place... been busy with my final year project the whole holiday and yet it is still in a mess now.. hai!! nuthing to say.. somemore have to rush out lab report and stuffs in two weeks time.. god blesS me.. have really been really stress recently.. but at least I still have my boyfriend with me.. supporting me and encouraging me.. thanks huNny!!

scHool is going to start next week le, it is also the commencing of hectic year 3 in a week time, no holiday, rush for report and my PP and also advanced diploma... sometime really wonder if I really can do all these time, and wonder if it is the correct choice of me to choose the option, not only I have to suffer to work harder, but I also dragged my parents down too, the advanced diploma is not cheap.. recently family is also having soem finacial problem, although dad ask me not to worry, but how not to?? =( *worRy*

No mInd to think so much le... just lighted my scent... lavendar scent floating in my room now, with my air con on,radio on, with curtain drawn... really have to relax myself before the battle start.. sinking into the atmosphere in my room and feel much better le! I miss year 1.. i miss the leisure time and happy moments! blesS me WiTh the stRength to go through what will be coming toward me~~!!

2005-04-10T15:03:00.000+08:00

+[[sOmthIng for The gUys!!]]+

if a girl cries in front of u,

it means that she couldnt take it anymore.

If u take her hand,

she would stay with u for the rest of ur life;

If u let her go, she couldnt go back to

being herself anymore.

A gal wont cry easily,

except in front of the person whom she

loves the most, she becomes weak.

A gal wont cry easily,

only when she love u the most,

she put down her ego.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,

please hold her hands firmly

,coz she's the one who is willing to stay

with u 4 for the rest of ur life.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,

please dont give her up,

maybe bcoz of ur decision,u ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of u,

When she cry bcoz of u,Look into her eyes,

Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.

Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,

In front of u,And bcoz of u?

She cries not because she is weak,

She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,

She cries,Because crying silently is no longer possible,

the pain, hurt n agony have bcome too

big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,Think about it,

If a gal cry her heart out to u,And all because of u,

Its time to look back on wat u have done,

Only u will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,

Coz one day,

It may b too late for regrets,

It may b too late to say "im sorry".

i HaviNg an eye infection now.. oh man... I scared sia.. pain pain de!! mUm say if not okia in a few days time I have to go see doctor le... now a little bit swollen le.. i So poor thing.. haiz.. *sOb soB* lAb is really a dirty place man.. now I also scared le.. must be like Wenyan like that ehenever change glove and go out of lab confirm must wash hand with HIbiscrub le... hmm... or is it moi contact lenses?? aiya.. i dun care le.. me going to slp le..!!

2005-04-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

+[[ sInfUl]]+

first of all.. i wanna say sorry to wenyan... ger, dun take it to heart lah ok?? I really just kidding de, I nv thought any one of you all to be stupid..hmm, think i really went a bit too far far saying you are stupid, my dear, there is a reason why I am doing fyp with you beside me able to talk to you and communciate well with you.. that bcos you are hardworking and clever ahh.. all becos of that stupid clarissa lah.. add oil to fire... keep mentioning about!! *stRanGle claRisSa* but i still love all of you.. dun angry le worh.. give you 3 smooches!! *sMoOch SmoOcH smoOch*

anyway we wasted our two effort in preparing the glass slide le, hai, all becos of the microscope spoiled.. haiz.. stored our cells in PBS( phosphate buffer solution) hopefully they will still show result well tomorrow and we will not ahve to drag too long also de!!! *praY hard* I thInk i better be like what wenyan said, be more benevolence to the other people, I shall not curse and swear and create sins le... have to take note of my temper le worhz.. btw people, if I ever throw temper on you guys for the past few weeks, it is becos of PMS.. hmm.. it is ok to provoke me le now!! heez!!!

2005-03-30T14:45:00.000+08:00

..:: hMm ::..

I change my blog skin again le, hee nice?? I find it very cute... heez..

Went to school today for lab again and heard some gossips.. abt a ger and a guy relationship le... hmm, what the story is about is too long le, i not going to type here, but people who know will know it bahz.. what I am thinking is that does a person prefer to go into a relationship more for money or for the emotion? for Me, I will go for the latter, but I do know a lot of gers going for rich guys, but do they feel happy de mahz?? hmm.. I wonder... if really wanna buy something, then is'nt it better ti earn it urself and spend?? hmm.. oh well,

Went to buy a T-shirt for my boyfriend yesterdea, but in the end, his reaction: nag at me. haiz... he said that he xin tong i spend forty dollars on a t shirt for him, when I need the money for my bills and other uses. hmm.. In my opinion, I am thinking that it is not wrong to buy something for my bf ahhz.. but I know he said all those cos he dote on me.. hee.. in the end he bought me a T-shirt from giodarno also to make me happy and treat me donner at BaoS and BoaS.. really nice worhz, got chinni crab sauce somemore.. hee... so tired now, I am going to go and sleep le, dear is hard at work on his work now, so all I wanna say to him now is dear JIa You worhz..!!

btw, I am thinking I will start another blog that I will post my photos using the hello from blogspot! like that easier to post photos bahz... no need photobucket and can let my jie use that.. hehee! NitEs pEeP!!

2005-03-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

trying to act jap.. wahah.. andrew say like actress pose.. hmm! =p

2005-03-27T07:03:00.000+08:00

(,") neW skIn (",)

yIp, I finalLy chanGe my blOg skin and I can proudly say this myself that I did it all by myself worhz. well, ok.. maybe a little tip from my boyfriend here and there, I did 90% lehz... actually wanna surprise my boyfriend that I did the skin all my myself.. then wonder why the words dun appear at first. Bo Bian~~ have to ask him -_-'''. aNyway, I wanna say sorry to him as I was a bit frustrtaed witht he coding just now when it dun workz.. I still find this blog a bit "colourless" and boring, am thinking of adding songs, pixs .. will ask my boyfriend to teach me.. at the same time.. i wanna ask CARIE to teach em to change the colour... have to ask for the web site.. hehee!!

okay.. me gtg le, having my dance training soon, now that the framework is up, I can go bath and prepare le, will update more tonight!! Love ya peEps!! *muacks*

2005-03-26T15:32:00.000+08:00

trying out

2005-03-25T14:01:00.000+08:00

+[[ 2 gOod News anD 1 Bad News]]+

okie.. let say about the good news first. I got back my module grade for this semester le, and guess what~ I improved again!! my grades as follows:

Anatomy and Physiology = B+

Microbiology = B+ ( I thought I can only get B for this.. so haPPy and surprised.. I love Nachama!)

Medical Technology = A

Immunology = A

And my GPA is.... *drum roll* 3.75.. hee~~ so happy... dear got the same GPA as me.. but damn it, his grade look nice, he got 3As and 1 B.. hmm... *siLly me* so proud of my man!! keep it up hunny~~ As for people that did not do that well, work harder for next semester!! I believe you guys can do it one!! I will help you guys to jia You...

okay.. as for the second good news... I got winnie the pooH today!! wahah~ ok.. i know this sound silly... got a beanie pooh from my boyfriend today, he so sweet de loh.. suddenly took out the pooh and rubbed against my face while we watching movie, spongbob squarepants. I still thought why his hands suddenly become so rough sia.. then i turned around And to my surprise it is a pooh!! wah~~ so happy de loh.. thanks love.. ReallY love it alot.. another thing~~ Wenyan is giving me a BIG winnie the pooh sticker to paste on my log book!! wah... lOve weNyan tO bits!! *muacks muacks muacks* you are the best!! haha!!=D

okay.. enough of good news, the bad new is that the lab report I tried to do the pervious days, was all in waste.. apperently, all the stuffs I did is of no use and whatever, the fac wanna us to report on, I dun have much research on it.. oH man.. how how how?? I gotta finish 10 over literatures review, with million of alien words in a words and type a report out.. arghz... how how how??? hahaz!! gotta be a good ger and stay at home tomolo and do intensive research le... bleSs me with The StreNgtH!!

btw.. I saW this tip somewhere, but I dunno how true it is, it says drinking honey drink every night before sleep can help in improving sleepness and even jian fei eh!! hmm.. dunno true a not.. hahaz!! you peeps try le then tell me bahz~~

2005-03-24T15:23:00.000+08:00

+[[ haPpy liKe a FaiRy]]+

Got this from one of moi friend bloggie, I think it is really tru and inspirating, be it if you are in a relationship already or afraid to go into one, have a read and know what are something you should look out and know what you really know in your better half.. Really glad my dear is one of the best I ever have, if not the best!! Had a great day today with him and I pray for more!!

By the way, I just did a hair mask, face steam and a face mask just now, feel so relaxed now!! *woot* Wenyan, the aleo vera mask very shu fu u know, really very relaxing!! I am going to buy a few more and try out the tomato one.. you go try also ahh!!

"If Men Were Like Buses, How Do I Catch One?"

by Michelle McKinney Hammond.

If men were like buses, how do you catch one? A more important question is - how do you catch the RIGHT one? Simple: You take only the bus that's headed the RIGHT direction. First we must be truly conscious when we do the picking. And second, the decision for a mate must be made on a spiritual and intellectual basis before its made on an emotional one. What about love? you ask. I'll tell you why. The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? The heart is willful and is driven by its own agenda. It does not consider things rationally and intelligently - it just loves to love! Therefore you have to point it in the right directions. Whenever you meet a man, you need to get clearance, check out his attributes, and then allow your heart to engage.

Dating exists not for mating; it exists for collecting data. I believe that the better design would be friendship, courtship and then marriage. Friendship is two people walking together in agreement and accountability, learning and growing together. Courtship follows the mutual agreement to commit to one another exclusively - it is the decisive turning toward the agreed-upon goal of the marriage altar. It is a period of laying foundation and preparing your life together after marriage. But dating? Well, if you do date, use the time wisely to gather facts.So when you do gather facts, let us compare the process to clothes shopping.

1. Check out the fabric. Is the person mate material?

It is imperative to maintaining a committed relationship. You need to have common interest and values and agree on the essentials of living day to day. You have a similar spiritual walk. You eat the same diet. You enjoy a lot of similar things. You have like interests, like goals in life, like opinions on basic life issues. You have had like experiences in your background. Though there is some truth to the idiom that opposites attract, like-minded folks fare better together.Furthermore, does he want to get married? If you want to be married and your dreamboat isn't interested, don't waste your time. Remember, women fall in love and get married. Men decide to get married and then look for a wife. Note the difference in order. So if a guy says he's not looking for anything serious, take his words seriously. If he's not going your direction, get off the bus & wait for the right one.

2. Does this man want you? Is he pursuing you?

The man who is right for you will pursue you. No guessing, no fleeces, no dead ends. At the RIGHT TIME, you will be brought forth that man on the scene and he will find you. You do not need to strategically place yourself anywhere. You don't have to help a guy out because he's shy. Men will do whatever they have to do to get what they truly want. The man in your life should recognise you as the pearl of great price in his life and be willing to do whatever he must in order to gain your hand. If he is passive about gaining your affections, take it as a sign that he is not interested. Many a woman's mother has suggested that it is a good idea to marry a man who loves you more than you love him. Until then, take the ultimate chill pill. You don't need a bunch of men in your life to make you feel all right about yourself. You need only one man - your man, the right one, to select you. And trust me, the right man at the wrong time can be just as awful as the wrong man at any time. So relax, sit pretty and allow yourself to be found.

3. The man in your life should not desire to move into your house, only into your heart.

A man who prepares for your future has made his intentions clear. A man who is husband material has the means to take care of a wife. He is a responsible human being who understands he needs to have something to offer. In short, a man should have the means to be a suitable lover for you.

4. Check out his buddies.

Everyone knows birds of the same feather flock together, yet most women fail to see the connection between a man and his friends. A man's pals tell you a lot about the person that you haven't seen yet. They reveal things about the guy's character that might be hidden when he is on good behaviour. Everyone knows how to put his best foot forward. Don't stay focused on the foot, check out the rest of the body!

5. Check out his relationship with his mother. How does he treat her?

This is your preview of how he will treat you. There are lots of men who, because of a negative relationship with their mothers, really don't like women, yet say they do. Unresolved issues between mother and son continue between husband and wife.

6. Remember that a man's family reveals the cloth from which he's cut.

Take note and decide whether you want your future with the man in your life to look like his present family situation.

7. Check out the patterns of his life.

Do you see repeated cycles of drama in his personal kingdom? Broken relationships? Problems in making commitments? Including the job market? Mood swings? Is a problem always someone else's fault? Does he embrace responsibility or shirk it? Does he keep his promises? Is he a man of good reputation? Remember all garments look wonderful hanging in the store, but with wear, some begin to unravel. Give yourself time and space to check out the man in your life. Time will always reveal whether or not he is made of the right stuff.

8. Does this man have a vision for his life? Is he running with that vision? Is your guy guided by a sense of destiny and purpose, or does he just allow life to happen around him?

A man who is not certain of his mission can be a most miserable person - and you'll be miserable too if you know where YOU want to go in life. A man who has vision is not intimidated by a woman whose mission statement is clear. He will be your best ally, cheerleader and assistant because he wants you both to make it! A man who cannot be supportive of your achievements because he is floundering in a sea of uncertainty over his own life is not a healthy partner to have and to hold forever. Creating dependencies or feelings of obligation is not the way to get the best out of your man. Somewhere along the way, he will resent you and flee from the smothering burden of obligation he associates you with.

9. Complementary

Do your talents and gifts complement his? Do his gifts complement yours? What about your temperaments? Do you see the two of you as an effective team? Do your futures mesh? Can you co-ordinate your gifts in an attractive and effective way? This is why knowing your purpose is so important. Make sure your hearts beat for mutual causes. When I go shopping always consider the fabric, the fit and what I already have in my closet. Will my next purchase be a complementary addition to what I already have? If I find that I am going to have to buy shoes and matching accessories to go with a new outfit, I leave it right on the rack. It is too expensive a proposition. If the man you meet makes you feel that you need to completely reinvent yourself, something is wrong. This is where I ask you to consider the relationship in terms of cost. Is this relationship expensive spiritually, emotionally or physically? Does your longing for a mate make you willing to forfeit who you are in the process? Or does he see you as the gift that you are? The man in your life should consider you a rare find, a priceless jewel - because of you he is getting ready to get blessed big-time! Any relationship that causes you to feel unworthy, unlovely, unacceptable, undesirable or that you have to work for love, is too expensive! The man should cover, protect and provide not only materially for a woman, but emotionally and spiritually as well. You should be richer in mind, body and spirit for your union with the man of your dreams. The man in your life should make rich deposits into your heart and spirit, not withdrawals.

10. Does he have a healthy love & acceptance of himself?

Make sure the man in your life has taken time to heal from past relationships and has made peace with himself. How he cares for himself is how he will care for you. This is not something that you can impart. You cannot be his saviour or teacher. That is out of spiritual order. So you decide. How much is your life worth? How much is your love worth? You will be able to accept only what you believe you deserve. If think you deserved to be loved, should you expect anything less from a man? If a man truly loves you, he should be willing to pay the cost for the hand that they desired. The truth of the matter is, everyone knows that anything worth having, costs. And no one gets a ride in this life for free. From time to time, your desire for love might have caused you to leave your heart in the wrong hands. Never settle for less than what you think you are worth.

2005-03-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

+[[stUpid tuTee]]+

Today has no lab session in school,haha!! so happy, wanted to do some lab report update since more and more are stacking up.. haiz.. but I got some lazy to sit down and do thing thus went to read my story book!! finish reading le, is a very nice book worhz.. ok lah, at least I did some reading up on cell culture media and also a bit of the lab report le, tomorrow no lab again!! *woot* so happy.. but the dilemma now is that I dunno to do lab report tomorrow or to meet dear out.. hmm *scratch head* ask him later bahz!! *bOo*

Went ot teach tuition just now and I was SO ANGRY with the boy loh... he is really driving me nuts manx.. I nearly screamed at him and complain to his mother but in the end, still give him chance and hope he will not be like this again le... tell him something, he will have to tok back to me, thinking that I am there I will alway give him answer, dun understand why he has a brain when he dun even bother to try and use it loh!! *arghx!!* he better give me better attitude next time sia.. if not I think I really cannot take it le ahhz!!

Just now I was looking at my msn list, I have so many bloodly contacts, so many so that my list is going to be full and cannot add another contacts le loh, but why is it that I dun tok with them then?? hmm.. come to think of it, maybe i make a bad friend bahz, thats y people dun tok to me much de!! friends, any comment what kind of friend I make?? give me a message on msn if u have or tag me bahz.. thanks a lotl.. really appreciate ~~! btw, I really love all moi friends and jasmine if you are reading this, i wanna tell you this, I dunno what is the barrier between us and maybe you think i did something wrong, but the fact, I do treasure our friendship, so dun make some ugly or rude face whenever you see me k?? anything we can tok it out de, no use showing me face~~ i really hope we can be like last time like that de!! *loVe Ya*

2005-03-21T14:13:00.000+08:00

+[[ I waNNa chaNge bLogskiN!! ]]+

Which kind soul outta can show me and find me some nice nice blogskin?? wahaha!! I am simply too lazy to go and find myself..=p Maybe I should find boyfriend to do it for moi ahhz!! wahaha!!

Woke up early today to go for dance training, so early loh, lesson start at 930.. but what is the ebst thing?? I woke up at 9 and only left my house at 935.. wahaha!! which meant~ I am late!! hahaz!! But at least I made the effort to go down mahz!! haha~~ so tired, but rush home for lunch and bath before meeting dear and his friends to SUntec, the exhibition for study at Australia...

Yupex.. we are more or less settled for Australia, but dear seem a bit interested in RMIT.. hmm, and another problem cropped up with the timing where they can enter for the feb intake, hopefully they can figure out everything with the school bah! really hope we can go together worhz!!

fyp is a killer now, when I first enter republic poly, I was wondering why is it that in first year it is so "eh" one.. like nothing to do de, second year is ok... still got free time, but now third year le.. like suddenly no time to use for relaxation le.. aiyo... *faintx* next wee through, everything gonna have lab again, plue i gotta teach tuition then still got dance!! god... bless me with the strength to survive through this year!! oH yeah.. dear's mum bought me a winnie the pooh ankle sock from China!! so cute de worhz.. is not winnie the pooh print only eh, is the whole winnie the pooh plush head at the top of the sock!! so cute de loh@~ ThaNkS a lOts aUntie!! *muacks*

2005-03-14T16:11:00.000+08:00

+[[stRessFul]]+

Holiday finally came and I thought I could have a good rest at first~ until wenyan told me the bad news.. haiz... I have to go back to school to do my lab for Monday to Friday for aLl the 5 weeks, oh man.. and what is the worst thing?? If I miss 5 lab or meeting, I will be downgraded. If I miss 10 labs or meetings, I will faIl the project immediately.. *faintx* what about my dance?? and my tuition date? In the end I will still be busy and tired and stressful...

Met up with my FYP team mate today and settle out some protocol and finally get some ideas on what the project that we are doing ... went shopping with them for a while while I wait for my dearie to come meet me.. heez... also met the auction person to pass me moi bag.. wahaha!! I have a new bag and it is very nice worhz.. anyway, darling and I went Harbour Front to makan then came my house to hang out, so long nv like that le, just hang out and have a good chat and snuggle up together, wooHoo~~ now I miss him so much again after he went home.. feel so loved once again.. 6_<... Gotta wake up early tomolo to meet up my fyp grp again to settle the last minutes protocol.. I am so tired!!! BTW... wanyan.. nice to meet u.. another shopping khaki found eh!! SAgittarian rOxs~~@ NIte people!!

2005-03-09T14:27:00.000+08:00

(,") hApPy gEr (",)

Thing have not been very good in school, stressful lesson, not to mention nagging and long too.. and too, cos of somebody bahz.. but nvm lahz.. no point getting angry over just a useless and arrogant person, make yself angry only.. one thing good though, all the tests have finish!!!! no more stressful test.. hahaz, tomorrow is anatomy lesson and that stupid wenyan and clarissa say they wanna pontang.. Pigadoodoo lahz both of them, somemore dear will not be in school tomorrow also, no boyfriend, no friends also.. *bleah*

Was given the chance to go all the way to Pakistan to perform dance representing singapore and Republic poly but I decided not to go. Being the reason one,Parkistan is so dangerous now, what if I kanna caught? hahaz.. Secondly is due to the FYP bahz.. pretty busy now that I have to finish up the lab within the March holiday. Vanessa is going though, heard from her that the dance is pretty cool, some Singapore funky dance bahz.. hope she will have fun!!

Something came across my mind today, somebody are willing to give up their relationship that is already two years long and can still tell me that it is pretty short. I think that everyone have different expectation to the relationship and also whether it is long or short is up to one self. bUt is it really true that the one that give up the relationship will not be sad? or is it that they are not willing to face up the music... SoMe people just dunno how to treasure that they have.. like what Raj said, the grass alway look greener over the other side.. *hai* I miss my darling and love him!! *muacks*

2005-03-05T15:43:00.000+08:00

..:: uPdatEs ::..

Okie, I admit.. i have been lazy to updat my blog and after dear install a new game into my lappy, I have been addicted ever since!! *guiLTy* ok.. i promised this update gonna have photos k...Decided on taking up the advanced diploma offered to me by the school le, gonna be a extremely busy third year for me.. but anything for moI future.. weNyan and cLarisSa, we will worK hard TogetHer.. we gO mOnash together ok!!! Dearie have handed in his application to Monash with Danie just now also le.. hmm.. we are going to Australia together.. *excited* but relieved that at least he is there with me!! *loVe hIm*

me and BabY

i loVe yOu baBy

Had a quarrel with boyfriend last few days again, yes.. I mention again.. I typed a complain letter to him and complained all that I am not happy with him.. not gonna mention the deatils here, cos it shall it shall be between both of us, sorry peeps!! =) but everything is fine now, we are as loving as before.. I just relaised something.. make up kiss is the sweetest thing ever in a relationship.. hmm.. maybe we should quarrel me ahhz?? wahaha.. *donk moiself* well, I think this quote is rather true : "Love is like a knife, it can stab you in the heart, but can also carve out the most wonderful memories". Anyway.. I changed my blog skin le, all thanks to boyfriend!! but after seeing Melissa looking through blog skin in class today again, i feel like changing again.. damn!! hahaz..

Ok.. I offically declare I wanna go on diet.. although I alway have fats.. I also manage to conceal them pretty well, and I found that recently, it is harder and harder for me to cover up those stupid lump of fats and that will mean diet.. More veggi, lesser rice, lesser meat, more plain water, No tidbits,more exercise.. okie.. i think i will give up in 2 days time.. hahaz.. I loVe riCe.. Oh man.. How??? * boiNk myself*.. dearie say he will support me and help me.. like morally?? hahaz!! By no mean.. i still love him!!

weNt over to my seconday school teacher house and had a hell out of the time there.. over 20 people attended the gethering outta of 40 in the class, can really say it is a good organising.. good work edmund!! *thumb uP* the gathering was good, seen a lot of my classmates and all of us changed.. hahaz.. people say i become prettier.. hahaz.. *fly up the sky le* the guys changed pretty much too and much of them are serving NS now.. good luck people.. do a good job in protecting the country yeah!! miss them tonnes and the catch up session was really good.. guys, we should have more of such meet up..my teacher daughter clar, oh man, she is so cute.. when I see her, feel like pinching her cheek and I had the honour of her kissing me on the cheek.. hahaz.. *honoured sia* below are some photos we took that day:

clar, so cute right?? *winkz*

clar again, with some silly pose... she love taking photos..

mE n Clar

claSs photo, though not all people are inside..

mE n HuipeNg

uS n QuIru

one More wiTh sweE laN

The GeRs iN tHe claSs..

Miss you gUys tonnes.. wish you all luck in whatever you all are doing in the future and everyone getting A level yeah!!

wow.. this seem like an extremely long post.. heez... ok.. to end off, some photo of myself.. trying to act cute.. hahaz...

welcOme

me, mYself & I

wInk and Tongue.. =p

Hi- Five

TryIng tO aCt cuTe stUpidLy

mE n PoOh!~ I am lovin'g it!~*mUaCks*

okok.. stop puking.. told u guys I am acting cute le mahz.. hahaz.. thats it folks.. will update again when I am free worhz.. miss you all!! I am going off to play moi game le... *vanish*

2005-03-03T07:49:00.000+08:00

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

2005-02-28T04:03:00.000+08:00

+[[ huGe FigHt]]+

Had a huge fight with my boyfriend just now, especially after what a wonderful time we had before that... i dun understand why he alway say things in his light, he said he stand in my position and see thing le, but whatever he say and whatever he do prove it in a other way instead. I do not know whether to feel disappointed now or to feel angry.. *haiz*

if you are ever reading this, pls think back at the time u wuarreled with me yesterdea, if dun feel like sleeping, I DO!!! you said why can't I even wait for you for a little while, I waited for you for a full show to finish on the tv and half a show le.. You say I am unreasonable and kicking a big fuss when you are doing serious thing, ask yourself.. Did I keep smsing you or calling you to disturb while you are on the line?? Did I force you to put down the phone. I was just smsing you cos it is getting pretty late and if you are going to be still on the line, just tell me and I can go to sleep first.. IS THIS WRONG???? plus when I am not feeling well?? I dunno what to say lahz.. your talking and ur quarreling style is very suffocating if you nv realised that... slamming down the phone is the only way to shut ur mouth, but I cannot believe that there is no communication at all after that and when I am online, you are just treat like nothing had happen.. what the hell have happen???

2005-02-25T06:15:00.000+08:00

+[[ SinFul DeSserT]]+

Went to school as usual for lesson and attended a sucky lesson, I really dun understand why some facilitator have to be so fake in front of a camera.. it is the worst ANatomy and Physiology lesson I ever attend man... a sucky afternoon but end with a wonderful note...

Met hunny for dinner, he dun have lesson yesterday but he came out and meet me.. as sweet dear a usual, he bought me a new pooh comb, a pooh pouch with a mirror and comb and a baby legging to hold moi handphone.. love him to bits!!! *muacks* we went to Marche to makan dinner, I ate the grilled cod fish, really fresh and nice worhz.. but i gave dear a mouthful got bones de then he dun dare to eat the fish.. wahahah, dear ate the grilled boneless chickenleg , also very very nice, with a side dish of calamari, the sauce has a tinge if hotness and numbness one, which we figure out to be garlic inside.. hahaz... ate my sinful dessert!!!! MAngO ice cream crepe.. it is damn nice man...*slurp SluRp* the mango is sweet, the combination of a mouthful of icecream, crepe with hot fudge and the mango is heavenly man... though it is pretty ex .. dear say two months can only eat once, that make my next dessert treat at April.. I am marking it down~~ *wOo* Went walk walk and end my tired but loving night... *aww*

Today dear going to see doctor regarding his knee, hopefully everything will be okay~~ *pray*

2005-02-23T07:48:00.000+08:00

~~sPeciAlly For moI baBy~~

My DearESt ... ...

The times I have wiTh you is Very SpeciAL

To reach out to you and know you will be there -

ThaT MeaNs aLl tHe worLd to mE.

My HEarT iS wiTh yOu wHerever YOu go, My loVe is yoUrs nO maTter whAt.

WheN yoU smIle at me, I knOw iTs frOm youR heaRt.

I kNow you'Ll dO for Me whAT no One elSe woUld dO.

aNd If I don't Tell you I loVe you

As Often As i ShoulD... ... It's bEcauSe

I hOpe That, DeEp dOwnInsiDe,

You kNow I do!!

I loVe you Baby... *muacks*

2005-02-23T07:35:00.000+08:00

+[[FrEe daY]]+

Having my free day for this week today.. but yet I am feeling sicky.. haiz.. Microbio test in the morning.. sux, I answered the problem off point.. there goes moi grade!! *stress* How am I going to maintain this standard of grade to go Monash.. haiz!!! Friday got Immunology test, but I have no mood to study yet~~ How hOw hOw??? *screaming for help!!!*

I miss darling boy now.. he was sick for the past week, glad that he is feeling better now le, but my turn to get sick.. -_-''' hahaz, but him and I will be having a very busy third year awaiting for us.. I am goingto be really caught up with moi FYP , lucky for me i Have a really fun team, consist of siao char bos!!! forever laughing one~~ haha, maybe can help me destress too~~ then i will still need to complete moi PPM, somthing that I have been to lazy to touch~ plus no vacation and free days at all for the whole year 3 cos of the advanced diploma of Monash Uni.. hmm hopefully I can pull through all these things.. Dear will have a course that stretches for the whole year too, it says to be very good for his emplyment next time, he will be able to get more pay than other people due to this cert.. hmm but one thing we are not going to forgo is our plan to go hongkong, no matter how busy we are we will still need to destress right?? and enjoy some time together!! hahaz! So many thing to do yet so little time.*ponder*

In another 11 days, it will be one year and 4 month anniversear for me and baby.. hee.. time seem to fly eh.. some many thing have happen recently... a lot of my friends have been giving up on their relationship.. hopefuly they will be happier this way, they will have moi blessing!! Sometime i wonder, is it better really to be lved than love somebody.. honestly I think this is more of a depressed person thinking.. when you are in love.. it should be a mutual give and take isn't it? But how many peopl actually do this?? I am thankful for all the happy moment given to me by hunny.. looking around in moi room and looking at what I wear whenever I go out, 8 out of 10 things are blessed with love little gifts given to me by him.. Catherine was laughing at me too! oh well, what can I say.. I am swimming in a big pool of love!! one that will support and not drown me~~ relationship with shuan and mei mei and darling's mother is improving tremendously, interacting is so much easier and more fun like I am really part of the family.. hee!! I feel like a princess!~~ dear digital cam is repaired le, I am going to play around it soon and take many many photos!! wahahaha~~ poor him is still studying now... *evil luff*

I wanna change my skin.. been mentioning it so long le yet nv do it.. gonna ask love to do it for me soon.. cos I am simply too lazy.. hahaz.. but dear you wun mind de right?? * muacks* Oh yeah!! today is madelyne birthday!! *haPpy BiRthdaY ger, May ManY haPpy RetUrns To you* going to teach tuition later to the indian boy later.. Poor clarissa had a hard time with her china boy last week, ger, relax k!! you can do it de~~

2005-02-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

+[[ haPpy vaLenTine DaY]]+

Happy valentine day to all moi friends, hope you all will a tian mi miday with your loved one if you are attached and will have a wonderful day with ur friends if you are not attached.. whatever it is.. have a wonderful DAY!!!

WHile i was on my way to school today, I saw so many people buying flowers at the florists and so many couples are holding hand in hand and walking.. so sweet horhz.. make me miss my darling so much, so more he din come school today cos he having free day !!I miss him sO muCh!!!! *cry out loud* Raj just gave a bouquet of flower to Sham in class, so sweet.. hee, hope both of them will last forever!!! lesson starting, gotta go, will blog again!!!

2005-02-12T16:14:00.000+08:00

i thInk i am falling into depression!! a deep pithole... anyone outta to pull me out?? =(

2005-02-09T16:31:00.000+08:00

=- HaPpy CnY-=

Happy chinese new year to all moi friends, hope that the coming year will be a much better years for u all, to all studying, good grades for studies k~~ for those working, hope ya guys get promotion and pay rise ahh~~ This new year is going to be a super duper busy week for me~~ all the way from Monday till friday.. i am fully packed!! *goOdies*

Monday... is my bf birthday, dunno whether to say the celebration is special to him anot, but I am really glad that he look really happy. Went his house during morning, bought mac breakfast for him~~ then something happen when we are at his house, everything good, and memories to be kept within us!! *bleahx* Anyway, we went to eat at a hIgh class restuarant at Paragon, Lawry's the prime rib, if you guys know where is it bahz.. Went to wenyan house and bake a birthday cake for dear on last friday.. hahaz, kinda of ugly lahz.. but it is moi first try and it is the effort that matters ahhz.. plus i am broke so can only bake cake for him.. anyway, A really big THANK YOU to wenyan and clarissa to plan the whole event with me, specially to wenyan for her effort to make the reservation and brought the cake over for moi.. gonna post up the pics asap.. hehee.. anyway,when me and dear reach the place, we were like OMG... y so high class!! haha~ really a once a life time experience yeah!! but the food there is really nice. Dear din expect me to have a cake for him, well at least not one that I bake myself.. haha!! then the embarrassing moment came.. three waitress came out witht he cake and sang a birthday song to him.. he was blushing.. gee...hopefully he did enjoy ur birthday my darling boy!! =)

This new year... my timeline will be

Tuesday: Performance in the morning then reunion dinner

Wednesday: relatives visiting

Thursday: visiting over dearie side of relatives

Friday: BBQ at nite!!

Saturday: Visiting for lao shi house then ah ma birthday celebration at nite

Sunday: Gathering for friends at dearie house

haha, it is so going to be such a tiring yet crazy week for me.. haha!!

Dunno whether this is really a good year to what.. I really hope that my grandpa will get better, he got admitted to hospital just before reunion dinner.. got spasms due to the last stroke attack... My uncle told us that my grandpa is not going to last long le and that what we can do now is only to drag it as long as possible.. This is going to be my first experience to lost one of my grandparents... haiz... hope that the new year will bring good luck to the whole family!! mY cousin Is pregnant though~~ I am going to have a niece/nephew again!! wee!! Meanwhile my friends enjoy the chinese new year celebration, my jian fei plan is so going to fail with all the goodies placed in front of me whereever I go. haha.. maybe like Carie.. continue the plan after new year!! haha!~~

Me and Dearie toGetheR for 461 days!! (",)

2005-02-04T07:15:00.000+08:00

+[[ anGry]]+

I hate it when somebody want to challenge me, if she jolly well want to work well with me, get her respect up first.. if she think is the queen and in control, she is so damn wrong. If she wanna try some dirty game, I am all game for it.. If she thinks that it is fun to boss around.. go ahead, my paitence will reach its limit one day and she intend to break it through, she can jolly well suffering the consequences then.. sometime, acting cute will not bring you any further, cos the main fact that you are not cute at all... thinking you are popular is absurd.. cos no one actually like you at all but that dumb boyfriend of yours!!! only asking stupid qns and answering unrelated answer is your forte lahz!!

Sorry friends, I just have to let out of my anger.. damn her, piece of shit!!

2005-01-31T02:47:00.000+08:00

+[[aLl aBout SaGIttarIan]]+

Appearance
The typical Sagittarius woman:

* has an oval fave, a high forehead, and a pointed chin
* has a tall and slender body
* has eyes that are steady, bright, open, and honest
* has movement that is purposeful and even graceful

Behavior and Personality Traits:
* is honest
* enjoys freedom of thought and travel
* will laugh about her misfortunes and mistakes, even while she is upset or in pain
* is angry if her integrity is questioned
* is kindhearted, though sometimes tactless
* can be deceived in romance, but is rarely misled in other areas of life
* enjoys taking risks, both physical and intellectual
* is often unconventional in relationships
* sticks by her own very clear moral standards
* can be cuttingly sarcastic when hurt
* regards herself and all others as equals

Sagittarius and Love
To Sagittarius, love is a romantic adventure. Sagittarius in love will have many of the characteristics listed below.

Behavior When In Love
The typical Sagittarius:
* enjoys love on the move in foreign places
* is inventive
* needs good intellectual compatibility
* is totally honest with the loved one
* enjoys the physical pleasures of love
* is happy when he or she is loved
* is very generous and good-natured

Expectations
The typical Sagittarius expects:
* not to be tied down
* to feel secure in love
* the loved one to be honest
* to retain freedom of movement
* never to be falsely accused of philandering
* to stimulate, amuse, and be enjoyed by the loved one

The End of An Affair:
If a partner is possessive or jealous of Sagittarius, the relationship will begin to crack. Eventually, these pressures will cause Sagittarius to simply pack up and move on.
Sagittarians enjoy meeting people and may indulge in the occasional affair. On the whole, the attraction of the affair will be its excitement, rather than true romance. Sagittarius is prone to look elsewhere if an existing relationship becomes routine.

Sagittarius and Sex:
A typical Sagittarius regards sex as another adventure to be enjoyed and explored. Sagittarians tend to take a chance on love, and they enter a relationship with the same recklessness that they display in their activities. In the relationship, he or she will be warm and loving and a wonderful companion.
Sagittarians normally enjoy a lot of touching and cuddling -- a good, warm, loving hug is their form of a security blanket. Common intellectual interests are equally essential to the success of any long-term sexual relationship.

Hee... dear say that it sound true about what the webby say, actually still got a lot of other things they mention, but I din put down, so if you all are interested... go to http://www.lilycat.net/sagittarius.html ... they have other signs too... got this webby from Carie.. so copyright from her yeahz!! peeps, have a nice weekend!! Chinese New year is coming.. weE.. it mean... hOliday is coming too!! hahaz~~~

Me and Dear DeAR toGethEr for 451 daYs!!!(",)

2005-01-25T09:10:00.000+08:00

Is it Better to haVe a terriBle past and learnt from it when you are young or is it better to have a wonderful past and yet fallen into the pithole only when you are older??

Been thinking of mine past, tears are welling up in my eyes.. the more I read phoebe blog, remind me of even more of mine past... maybe i have still not let go everything... not in the sense of feeling , but in the sense of hatred... guys.. treat your gf well, good gf dun come easy~~ love my darling.. miss him big time now...

A song dedicate to dear (My Valentine by Martina McBride)~~ *loVe ya*

If there were no words

No way to speak

I would still hear you

If there were no tears

No way to feel inside

I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart

Until the end of time

You're all i need

My love, my valentine

All of my lifeI have been waiting for

All you give to me

You've opened my eyes

And showed me how to love unselfishly

dreamed of this a thousand times before

In my dreams i couldnt love you more

I will give you my heart

Until the end of time

You're all i need

My love, my valentine

La da da

Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart

Until the end of time

Cuz all i needIs you, my valentine

You're all i need

My love, my valentine

2005-01-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

+[[ DecisIon??]]+

Dad went to the parent briefing for the Monash University briefing, he seem to be very interested in the program ... just that the main problem now is the money... where the hell do we have to fork out like 50k suddenly... I think i will be going there for about 70% le... went to tell dear about it, he was very supportive...he said he will wait for me for 9 months, for me to come back to SIngaporeback into his hug... *ewk* he is so sweet.. love you so much!!! Although I know that he seem sad, he will be strong and not sad for my sake de, right dear?? Geez...

Weeks and weeks just past like it did... the same routine every week, studying, tests, tuition.... I am so tired!!! My eyelid is so heavy.. hmm, wishing that the holiday is going to come soon.. but to think of it.. I will be doing FYP during that peroid of time.. no resting again... argh!!!!! I want moi bed.... luckily CYN is coming... goodies , food, money and resting!! YiPpy... looking forward to that whole week...

A lot of people seem to be breaking up recently... haiz... wish them all the best in their lifes and hope that they will find their another partner soon... =) reLationship for me is gOod now... i am treated like a princess.. doted and taken care of... but I did a big boo-boo yesterdea.. I left darling key on the gate while we are going out for dinner.. he seem so angry but luckily he also nv scold me... scared me until I wanna to cry leh... but luckily his mum found the keys after that.. jie received a bouqet of roses, in total 15 of them from her ex-bf.. she said it meant i am sorry and i love you.. she asked if I will support her if she want to go back to his side.. Jie.. if you are reading this... it is a definate NO... it has been so long since I see you so happy and actually enjoying your life.. if you go back to him.. you are going to be locked up in a cage again.. will you feel happy?? will your smile be still so radiant?? think well jie.. but if you decide to go back.. i will still give you moi support.. make a good one!!

One side track, dear took my vital statistic yesterdea.. haha.. the result is ... *drum RolL* hmm... 31, 23.5, 35!!! eWk.. i have such a big butt.. hahaz.. but nvm lahz...at least not that fat!! bleah.. friends what your vital huh???

Me and Dear dEAr together for 445 days!! (",)

2005-01-24T17:58:00.000+08:00

Is it Better to haVe a terriBle past and learnt from it when you are young or is it better to have a wonderful past and yet fallen into the pithole only when you are older??

A song dedicate to dear (My Valentine by Martina McBride)~~ *loVe ya*

If there were no words

No way to speak

I would still hear you

If there were no tears

No way to feel inside

I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart

Until the end of time

You're all i need

My love, my valentine

All of my lifeI have been waiting for

All you give to me

You've opened my eyes

And showed me how to love unselfishly

dreamed of this a thousand times before

In my dreams i couldnt love you more

I will give you my heart

Until the end of time

You're all i need

My love, my valentine

La da da

Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart

Until the end of time

Cuz all i needIs you, my valentine

You're all i need

My love, my valentine

2005-01-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

..:: Mid weEk ::..

Half of the week is gone and holiday is coming and chinese new year is coming and i haven even bought any new year clothes yet.. opPs... think I am going for a crash shopping during the coming public holiday le bahz...

Met Celine, junyi, jasmine and her bf last Sunday, a surprise dear organise for me when we went bugis to shop shop... Poor celine broke off with her bf le.. but come to think of it, her bf is also quite a jerk lahz... dun understand why some people loves to quarrel over every small little things in a relationship .. wun they get tired. Anyway, hope that she will be happier and not so depressed le... thing will turn out well eventually i think, but i still think is a pity to let go of a five year relationship, but come to think of it.. that guy is not worth it also lahz.. hahaz.. Junyi also depressed cos of the ger.. haiz... gurls are alway indecisive and normally this is the killer for a lot of guys... but well, that how god made us into.. =P that's gurl's right!!!

I am so tired... everyday in a week also got thing on, if not dance is tuition and everyday still got school .. hmm... school is giving me a chance to take up a place in Monash University in Australia.. but i am torn between choices.. should i go or should i not go??? Dear say I am thinking too much, but how not to when such a large amount of money is involved and my future too.. Celine think i should go cos I can graduate with a degree much faster and said that dear should not stop me from going if it is studies, furthermore, it is my future.. But did i mention one of my biggest worry is that me and dear might have a chance of separating due to this?? *heart torn apart* anyone good advices outta?? tag me... i need them desperatly....0.O

2005-01-14T07:42:00.000+08:00

+[[ LazY poSt]]+

Have been rather busy in school recently, thus haven been updating for quite some time... heez... did anyone miss me?? OMG... i am getting so bhb.... here some update!! *winkz*

In schOol, studies is quite okay, just that my grade for my test is not quite up to my standard bahz.. I think i gotta work harder le... Changed two facilitators in my lesson, haven really met the anatomy fac cause I nv attend her first lesson.. *bOo*, as for immunology.. I can tell you all my friends.. I hate her, her lesson is the first immuno lesson that I din even speak at all.. what the crap I used to love immuno lesson but now i think it is going to be one of my most boring lesson, but heard from vanessa that we are changing the fac yet again and this one is rather good, I shall hold my tongue until I really attend her lesson, hopefully she is good, dun really wanna spoile my good record in immuno grades...

Dance, be it outside or in school, so many events are taking place... make me so tired and shag. Misha finally came back and we attended our first lesson after yet so long of waiting , it is really fun and we are dancing to the song that dear went ga-ga over.. hoho.. it is lose my breath sang by destiny child.. is a really nice song and the danz staps are very nice too, just that it is rather bimbotic... geez, but the tedious one training made me suffered for such a long time due to body ache for like 3 full days le, and up to now.. it is still pain =(... hopefully more trainignt o come, cos i really enjoy them *winkz* Dance trainign outisde is going to have a performance during june, thus busy starting learning new dances and cheorographing our own dance, hopefully can finish in time bahz... and there is some many performances coming up with the first one line up at new year eve, dunno whether it is a good thing or bad... and one good new is that the last publuc performance we all had left a good impression to the public and they are inviting us to perform again.. *wOot* but going to have more training again.. hmm...

My relationship with darling is still as sweet as ever... his birthday is coming and valentine day is also coming, doing something for him, but i cannot say it here coz he will be reading.. be patient and u will find out one day... I am really scared that I will not be able to finish on time, with some many thing onhand.. but everything is worth for him... Had a big quarrel with him not long ago, but after that, our relationship got ever better.... Love you forever dear!!! *muacks*

My tuition is going on fine, but I think I will be changing my tuition to once a week only... two times a week is both too tedious for me and really not worth the price that they are paying me... hopefully his last small test on algebra, he can scored well, have not called him to ask him yet too.. heez... will be starting the tuition for shuan and mei mei tomolo, hope that we will ahve a good start worhz.. =)

Some notes for my friends:

Catherine: I dunno if you will be reading this ger, but please be happy no matter what decision you are going to make ok?? remember you will alway have a jie mei here for you, anything just call me and dun just try to solve it yourself ok?? I miss you and take care tonnes, rather worried about, give me call when you are free eh?

Markus: I am rather surprise that you said that you miss me, when we broke up last time, you told me that if I am going to break up with you , you are going to hate me forever and forever. Please do hate me k??? I am happy in my relationship and the reason that we break off, you should know... forget about me k?? good luck in whatever you are doing now.

jie: jie... I know that you are going through some rough time being just broke off with ur bf, but no matter what happen you still have your mei here k?? any problem, we can also talk it out... hope that you will be happe forever.. I love the way you smile more than you frowning!!

Me and Dear DeaR togEther for 434 day!! (u_n)

2005-01-03T00:42:00.000+08:00

+_ _[ schOol sTarTing]_ _+

School going to start tomorrow already, and it is going to be a tiring semester for me, luckily there is still a break during the new year week. After school start my daily week events are fixed as below le:

Monday: scHoOl then danz In school

Tuesday:SchoOl then teach tuition

Wednesday: SchOol then danz at huan kuan

Thursday: School then tuItion for sHuan and MeimEi

Friday: School and daTing wIth hUnnY

Saturday: dance TraIning aT huay Kuan

Sunday: tUition theN go Out with deAR or FamIly Day

Hmm.. New year is gonna to come soon also le, but seeing the time shecedules for the coming 2005 ... i dun even think I have time to go and shop for moi new year clothes, but luckily I have my dear to zi ci me... he is the best!!! Geez.. Think I gonna try out one month in this format and that if I really find it too stressful, I might have to cancel one of my tuition asssignment and pass it on to my friend le!!

2004 has finally pass and 2005 has arrived!! Hope all my friends will be blessed with a wonderful year ahead!!! Hopfully all the natural disasters can come to an end and that there will be world peace... anyway, Kevin will not be teaching us after week 9 problem le, there goes for my As le.. *saD* actually, I like him teaching but I think he should also emphasize more producing ppt also, so that we can study when there is a test!!!

mOi 2005 Resolution:

1. to get good grades for my studies

2. to earn more money for use!!! geez

3. to sucessfully go to HongKong will huNny

4. mY techNique foR dance To get better

5. tO sliM down on moI tuMmy!!

6. to Learn to cOmmUnicate welL

7. together With Darling 4eva and EvA!!

In a blink of eyes, the year has pass and from the very day that I have met dear and with him, it seem to have just pass but what is the exact days?? I shall note it down in moi every entries ok?? Thanks dear dear for the wonderful year with me... with all encouragments and advices you gave me... when I am down, you will alway be by my side. Willing to embrace my good points and endure my shortcomings!! I had a wonderful year with you and I am sure that 2005 will only be better!!! *muacks*

mOi and Darling together for 398 days!! (",)

2004-12-30T13:44:00.000+08:00

+[[ mOi New HaIr !!!!]]+

mOi new Hair... nice?? =P

aCt cuTe pOse!!!

Taken these pictures with dear handphone, think got more bahz.. but not going to post everything up here... =) Went to watch Ocean Twelve... erm, feel kinda of stupid lahz.. coz this is the first show that I had watched that I dun understand what the show is talking about!! hahaz, watse two hours in the cinema yet dunno what is the storyline!! *duh* -_-''' In the end, dear had to tell me the storyline all over again over lunch.. me ben ben de!!!

Ate my long waited hot and sour noodle, *yUm YuM* and my craving of logan ice is also satisfied!! hohoho~!!! i sound so pig man, but i dun care.. hahaz... Went to shop around the whole of suntec and people, MAngo and TopSHop are having sale!!! up to 50% worhz.. some clothes are really worth to buy, some guys clothes in TopShop... normal price is 70 over dollar, now only 29 dollars worhz.. but dear nv buy.,.. geez... Went back home to eat dinner with mummy and daddy, went to makan taiwanese porridge... *yUm yUm*

Friends.. I am going to clubbing on New year Eve, tentaively at the warehouse, some place really near zouk, the party is organised by Chinablack, presale tix is 30 dollar per head while attend on the day will be 38 dollars... anyone wanna come, just sms me k.. *winkz* going to party the night off!!!! Going to take my first tuition fee tomolo, or else I sure no money to go clubbing this friday le!!!